Total Despair


Train roaring, street massaged by the tire of four wheels

Cloud blocking the moonlight; the wind is blowing hard

Bring chills through the small crack of my window


And here I am sitting down in my mom bedroom

Thinking, stressing, depressing

I felt a total despair


My head is aching and so is my chest

My whole mind is a big mess

Everything suddenly rewind from the day I was dragged by the hair


Sudden tears formed my eyes; alone watching her...I cried

The feeling so dark prints in scars

Half my heart deteriorates and the other half grows a garden of barks and thorn


I was torn apart, I cried so hard silently

My heart felt so trapped uptight in a deepest darkest well

Beating her way out yet she could not leave her drunk mother


I bathe my mother in bed as she grip her hand upon my arm

It hurt so much till it leaves red print of her finger

but it's okay, that kind of pain I can bear

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Ghaelach 4 years ago

Morning Chanroth.

Another poem from the fantasy of real life.

Well written.

Take care Chanroth.

LOL Ghaelach


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Why so deeply sad inspirations?


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chanroth 4 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi Ghaelach and Gypsy, thank you very much! @Gypsy, its deeply sad because I was in a very stressful and sad mood. Today, I think it is enough sad poem, I should start making my reader smile. haha...thank you! :)


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Another sad one about your Mother's drinking. I am so sorry..Blessings


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chanroth 4 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi Ruby, thank you! :)


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ubanichijioke 4 years ago from Lagos

A well written poem. Really sad. Wish you all the best!


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chanroth 4 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi ubanichijioke, thank you!


Coral Rose 4 years ago

Beautifully expressed. Sometimes we need to write it down to get it out.


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chanroth 4 years ago from California, USA Author

Hi carol, thank you! Merry Christmas!

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