What if - or not ?

CXXXII. . . pondering . . .

. . .matters of curiosity. . .


We often ponder "what if. . . " (such and such has or hasn't happened). What IS or IS NOT, in other words.

Why do we do that?







We seem oddly inclined to overlook, to underestimate, even to dismiss what simply IS!

The present state of being and life gets scanty notice while we're busy pondering, conjecturing, reaching hopefully into the past or the future, ever resulting in more frustration than joy. The present reality arrives on schedule, lacking our scans from imaginary timelines

How sensible is that?

. . . . that's the question . . . .

question on track



"Enjoy the now,

Enjoy what IS,"

You said,

Preaching to the choir.


Yes, I thought,

Being open to all that is,

Is knowing it requires

'No limits'.


Knowing it must take

The bitter with the sweet.


Knowing that what is

Cannot compromise

With what is not,

Nor be partitioned.


Knowing it will always choose

Pleasure over pain.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay




as time goes by - "play it again, Sam" ~


No where

To be but here.

No one

To be but I.

No when

To be but now.

The moment

Tells it all

To earth, to sea

To sky.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



so - what IS it all about?

"we'll always have Paris"

simple instructions

  1. Think about it - now.
  2. Know how you want your life to be or not - now.
  3. Let it happen - now.




What is time or space

In moments

Of shared caring?

I wonder.

Does the ocean exist

To separate

Heart from heart?

I think not!

Is not a moment fully lived

The closest thing

To paradise on earth?

I think so!


______© Nellieanna H. Hay ♥


why this hub?

Have you ever started a hub, selected a title, thinking it had merit. But you let it languish, undone, in your Statistics list until you saw a warning on it that it was in danger of being badly categorized by the system, so you figured it was now or never to give it some attention?

Well - I've several of these 'bad apples' in my hub basket. This was one of them. I decided to play with it, which was sort of fun, so I decided to publish it.

I hope I haven't shamed myself. ♥

all graphics by Nellieanna with Photoshop Elements 9
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arb 4 years ago from oregon

Hardly a bad apple! I suspect we are busy at times, trying to manage what is, trying to dictate what is now and what will be. Perhaps because we have been there before, perhaps because now isn't lining up with the plan we have for now and perhaps, we are too busy trying to fill the moment with what we have predetermined will make that moment make us happy. We are a complicated lot that by nature, runs away from simplicity and "what is." We want to have a say in it I suppose. Perhaps unfullfillment is but trying to drive the moment instead of simply enjoying the ride.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Shamed yourself? Hardly....the message was loud and clear....do it now!

You should see the desktop on my laptop....I must have twenty unfinished hubs...they sit and wait patiently for me to get back to the. They never complain and they are always happy to see me when I return.

Loved this poem my friend; have a great weekend.


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

A good golden apple here, reminding us of the importance of living the "now," not ruminating too much over the past nor overdoing worry about the future. Some lovely language and illustrations in this Nellieanna!


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btrbell 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

Nellieanna, I hope you know that you could never shame yourself with your writing. This was beautiful, well written and true! We so often, get caught up in the "what ifs?" andf the fairy tale that we don't learn to cope and enjoy the what is and the now! Thank you for this lovely reminder! Up+


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

I loved it Nellieanna! I am listening to, ' As time goes by ' and it is perfect. Beautiful and thought provoking, what if, or not. We all ponder that question, then we decide to live in the now. Thank you..


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

Intriguing poetic thoughts, Nellieanna, and your choice of the two lovely 'Casablanca' videos could not have been more appropriate. Thank you, m'dear.


Valleypoet 4 years ago

Thank you for your decision to publish this hub...it's puzzling to know why you thought it wasn't one for publishing earlier...it is both wise and beautiful...it is so true, real happiness can only be found in the here and now. Searching for happiness can only lead to more searching. I really believe that happiness lies in the decision to be happy...thanks for sharing this wonderful hub Nellieanna:-))


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Alan - thank you for a great response! The bad apple was due to being undeveloped, therefore, 'substandard'. :-) I'd just wondered if finishing it under duress was good for it - or for me! It seemed to have worked out & fleshed out just fine.

Your perception of my message is greatly appreciated. You're right that we overlook and miss the moments because we're caught up in various distractions, some which have their own merit and may have gained their own momentum. Or maybe we've attempted to manage life to the point that we're mentally dwelling somewhere and some time 'else' and missing what 'is', either because it appears different than what we tried to 'order up' or because we look at it without seeing its potential; or we dismiss it by denying it could be our one & only real connection to this life's reality, in its fleeting brevity. We'd like a bigger slate on which to write! So we may end up trying to live in an imaginary 'reality' of our own imagination, expectations, desires, plans and choices, honestly believing that's the way to deal with life. Those can serve the present, but they don't dictate it.

You summed it up perfectly: "Perhaps unfullfillment is but trying to drive the moment instead of simply enjoying the ride." Dear Alan - thank you for a great response! The bad apple was simply due to beige undeveloped, therefore, 'substandard'. :-) It fleshed out OK.

Your perception of my message is greatly appreciated. You're right that we overlook and miss the moments because we're caught up in various distractions, some which have their own merit and may have gained their own momentum. Or maybe we've attempted to manage life to the point that we're mentally dwelling somewhere and some time 'else' and missing what 'is', either because it's not what we tried to 'order up' or because we look at it without seeing its potential; or we dismiss it by denying it could possibly BE our one & only real connection to this life's reality, being so fleeting and brief. So we may end up trying to 'live' in a larger imaginary 'reality' of our own imagination, expectations, desires, plans and choices, honestly believing that's the way to deal with life. Those tools can serve the present and may attract what we want to it, but they don't dictate or design it.

You summed it up perfectly: "Perhaps unfullfillment is but trying to drive the moment instead of simply enjoying the ride." A lovely accurate thought, though it overlooks that it's actually both, it turns out, because 'the ride' is our own real-time vehicle which we can enjoy & knowledgeably 'drive & steer' when we're IN IT in real time as it's happening.

If it seems to be either/or - and that to enjoy 'smelling the roses', we must give-up common sense, we're only half aware of what it means to BE in one's real moments. It's the roses that are real in that moment. We do have the say in it by being present IN it rather than being off elsewhere nursing our regrets or trying to plot a less vulnerable rigid course, allowing for no surprise or delight. Being here with all our senses, with our brains & hearts fully engaged in being here & living it fully aware & alert IS 'hands-on' real action in one's life. Roses prove it.

So it's far from either a laissez-faire attitude of letting things take their own course with no interference or else an attempt to choke-hold & manage things with an iron fist so nothing can 'go wrong'. Dreamers vs. realists? Maybe, but if anything, those living in the actual now-time in progress are the realists. Those attempting to live elsewhere and remote-control life are the dreamers.

Effective planning ahead as a present-time activity is sensible, when it realizes that 'ahead' will probably bring with it various unscheduled conditions which may or may not 'fit' the plan, might even improve it; but, either way, are what is best because they're real and not pipe-dreams.

Dealing with REAL beats shadow-boxing with dreams, no matter how earnestly or elaborately dreamt-up & "fully insured". :-)

Living with & in the present is an effective tool, especially if one is really here in it whenever 'ahead' becomes the present when & where we're fully aware of it & wise enough to adapt to & incorporate the reality it brings.

Big hugs!!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Billy - Thank you. I appreciate that. The message is good and shouldn't be shamed. But my presentation of it felt risky. I'm pleased that it seems to have come across well.

My lingering hubs haven't complained either -still,'substandard' popped up at the top of a couple of them, and difficult to argue with, since this one & another one had NO capsules. Good intentions, but just titles. Most of the others lingering in my apple basket at least have a few text or photo capsules going for them. But this & another of them earned the 'substandard' rating, with an implication that it might not be tolerated! I've written a bit on the other one, enough to get rid of the substandard classification. Perhaps I'll finish it too, though its subject needs more actual research, unlike Snoopy's favorite subjects which are 'mostly matters of opinion'! :-)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jim - you've 'got it'. It can be easy to be caught up in the myth of living elsewhere than in living moments, but it's vital to be here. Oh - big spectaculars like weddings and other huge shows happen and may allow the now to enjoy and to mess around with plans & hubbub. But if the participants are honest - they know that the only real meaning is not in those big 'effects'.

I've been a Bridal Consultant twice in my life, once right out of college and once right out of a tragic marriage. My perspective altered and refocused on all the glitzy 'show' of it. I found I could 'spot' the brides who would make it or not. Reality shines through!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Randi - thank you! I'm glad I salvaged my reputation! hehe The circumstances for this hub were just so strange to me;- maybe perfectly illustrating the theme about which I was writing! Quite spontaneous! I do feel strongly about living in the now & not attempting to force life to conform to preconceptions.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ruby - 'As Time Goes By' touches very early memories for me, back when the movie first came out. I was too young for it to apply - but my siblings weren't and I 'got the message' vicariously! Somehow it fit this theme, especially the final scene when they faced their realities.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Dr.BJ - thank you! I'm glad you and Ruby see the connection of the songs to the them of the hub. It feels good, like that ad in which the lady hears someone else recognize the color 'fushia'. :-)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Valleypoet - thanks - I'm glad I published it too. I was in sync with the message, but the reason for finishing the hub & haste of doing it seemed cursory, somehow. But perhaps that's just what makes it communicate!


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Genna East 4 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Nellieanna, you could never shame yourself.

“The present state of being and life gets scanty notice while we're busy pondering, conjecturing, reaching hopefully into the past or the future, ever resulting in more frustration than joy. The present reality arrives on schedule, lacking our scans from imaginary timelines…”

So very true. We do ponder as if not being satisfied with this moment…as if we must always plan or reflect. No one can tell us the last of the when, nor do we wish to be told, yet we always seem to be trying to figure IT out in some way. Oddly enough, when stop trying so hard, “it” arrives.

I’m sitting here at my desk, enjoying the moment, reading this intriguing poetry, listening to “As Time Goes By,” and am so glad I’m “here.” Thank you for this delightful apple of wisdom. :-)


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DzyMsLizzy 4 years ago from Oakley, CA

I have seen several Hubs and posts on Face Book in the last week or so that continually remind me of the quote from the Robin Williams movie, "Dead Poets Society:" Carpe Diem!

I think this hub defines that nicely!


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Mhatter99 4 years ago from San Francisco

As if your words and concepts weren't enough... you bury me with "As Time Goes By". A meaningful song for me. Thank you for the experience.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Making it only more perfect with As Time Goes By. Well done Nell. Tell you at first I didn't know whether to laugh or cry and then it sort of settled on smiling through tears. Some nice memories popped up here. Passing this on. Oh, yes and tell Sam to play it again...


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

yes, but...'what IF?'...

lol..i'm kidding, dear...in reality - i am making quite an enormous life decision - it's not the easy one, but it's the right one - therefore it must be done..

Your hub has reinforced that truth once again, so - thank you for that! ps..i adore cassablanca...

voting, sharing forward..


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Isaac White 4 years ago from Welcome to my beautiful world, where magic is no longer a myth.

Well,

All I can say is, you made an incredible hub, and no I don't think youb shamed it at all. You really brought up good points. VOTED UP.

I.W.(TDM)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Genna - dear friend, thank you. I love your use of the apple metaphor! hehe

I really did question the wisdom of publishing this. Though it has content merit, it just seemed too hastily 'thrown together'. Know what I mean? Perhaps that's it value, though, - in this case! Demonstration of an idea often exceeds explanation of it!

Your observations are so "right on" - stated so well. YES -- when we stop trying so hard to control 'the future' - the moments arrive without prompting and present their riches from which we can choose our 'pleasure' - usually beyond our forecast! Then we can 'do the moment' which IS as suits us! Wow. Makes one wonder why we struggle so hard to 'do the future' which IS NOT and let the now slip through our fingers in that futile pursuit!

I'm glad you're here too! I'm glad I'm here! It's a pleasure which continues to unfold, till it's 'done', at which time, no amount of trying to 'fix the future' matters, anyway! :-)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh Ms Lizzy - thanks for stopping by my hub and saying it states popular wisdom nicely! I'm smiling.

I love your reminder that ideas expressed here (and elsewhere) have ancient roots. Robin Williams, as Professor Keating in "Dead Poets' Society", quoted Latin poet Horace's conclusion: Carpe Diem.

When I began to notice that living is what happens in the day at hand, Robin Williams hadn't been born! My inspiration was likely from translated scriptures, which were more familiar, since I attended a school where it was required. I'd probably heard Horace's 'Carpe Diem' in Lit class, but Latin wasn't my 'foreign language' so it may not have been internalized then. Luckily sensible & wise sayings keep cropping up often enough for them to sink in, don't they? Sometimes they even present themselves directly through one's own personal experience & observation.

I found an English translation of Horace whole poem, in which he's counseling Leuconoe to live in the day at hand & why so:

"Don't ask (it's forbidden to know) what end the gods have granted to me or you, Leuconoe. Don't play with Babylonian fortune-telling, either. How much better it is to endure whatever will be!

"Whether Jupiter has allotted to sink you many more winters or this final one, which even now wears out the Tyrrhenian sea on the rocks placed opposite -- be wise, strain the wine, and scale back your long hopes to a short period.

"While we speak, envious time will have already fled. Carpe Diem / Seize the day, trusting as little as possible in the next day." __Horace, in Odes 1:11

And of course this, - one of the several adages attributed to Jesus, himself, with his explanation why so:

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." __ Jesus, in Matthew 6:34.

He may have run across Horace's work. Or perhaps it's just so sensible, it's self-evident when one considers the facts. Anyway, nothing new under the sun, especially things that 'pan out' so well again and again. . .

I'm pleased you visited and shared your comments!


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DzyMsLizzy 4 years ago from Oakley, CA

And such sentiments crop up again in the old 1950's song, "Que sera, sera--Whatever will be, will be..." ;-)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, yes, they do. - That's another presentation of the truth of it, though not emphasizing living in the day at hand so much as reminding that Life chooses the reality, implying it's out of one's hands, because, of course it unfolds within the day at hand. Good one, introduced in a Hitchcock file with Doris Day in a more serious setting for her, in which she sang the song.

I still love her music. "It's Magic" - so lovely. When she was still a big band 'canary', my beloved George heard her in person in Chicago, singing it. He said one could hear a pin drop the moment she began singing.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martin - so! We share the love of "As Time Goes By". For me, it began by being vicariously meaningful; then it made its place in my own beloved song trove. I've loved it for itself ever since. Thanks for the visit and great comment!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw, Rasma - what a lovely response. Smiling through tears can be a most deeply gratifying experience of good memories. I'll always ask Sam to 'play it again' - and again. I've the DVD of the movie and must watch it from time to time! Thank you, m'dear!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Leslie - I've no doubt that your 'enormous life decision' is well considered, 'slept on' and arrived at with wisdom. Trust your guts and be alert and aware as the moment of it is at hand.

Thank you for sharing that.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Isaac - thanks for adding your encouragement that I've not shamed myself! I'm really starting to believe I'm OK with this hub! Thank you for voting up and your nice comments.


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ahorseback 4 years ago

Nellieanna , Bad apple ?

have you

gone over the edge my dear

and beautiful lady

In the basket that we

know as Nellianna

there is but one thing

The ripest fruit

the sweetest apple

the prettiest

bloom of the summer

And even in the bottom

of this basket

lie the seeds of

tomorrow

and

tomorrow

and

tomorrow

Your basket case friend, Ed........


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JayeWisdom 4 years ago from Deep South, USA

Hi, Nellieanna....I'm glad you rescued this hub and shared it with your readers. Your reputation was never in danger, dear friend.

We all need reminding not to waste our moments, hours and days on this planet, which is what we do when we spend them mired in the past or constantly worried about the future. Living in the "now" allows us to fully experience our lives--the only way to truly LIVE them. Thanks for a beautiful reminder.

Now I'll go find my DVD of "Casablanca." It looks like it's going to rain, and watching that timeless movie is a lovely way to spend a rainy afternoon. (I'm with you--I'll always tell Sam to "play it again.)

Jaye


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

EDGE? There's an EDGE?? Yikes! I didn't know! tee hee.

Ed, m'dear, I'm so pleased that you see merit in my basket of apples. (I'll pitch any bad ones over the edge next time, now that I'm aware of it!)

I heard that an episode,"The Basket Case", is to be featured on "Law and Order"; so I'll bet you can collect some nice royalties! ;-)

Hugs! Thank you for a delightful comment & the beautiful Ed-gy poem!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, Jaye! How good to see you! It's been too long! My own fault.

Thank you for the reassurance. You zeroed in and summed up the message absolutely perfectly. We can all use the reminder! It's hard to understand why it seems both so elusive and illusive, when it is, as you say, the only way to try LIVE our lives. Perhaps it's the basic conflict at the root of human struggle to 'fight the system', 'find its loopholes'; then to 'run things our way' - when & where we think we can choose to do it.

We're not due for rain, unfortunately - (it's been a terribly dry fall) - but any moment we're poised for a blast of a very cold arctic front which will transform it from a springlike balminess to winter very quickly. They say it'll be plenty cold enough for snow but there's not enough moisture to stir up more than a few flakes which would dry out before reaching the ground. I guess if they did reach it, they'd melt because the ground is still in springlike mode. But it will be a lovely ambience for a good movie for the evening! Life is good!


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Nell Rose 4 years ago from England

As always it was awesome Nellieanna, I love reading your words, you always seem to be able to put down what we think but can't quite get on paper so to speak! lol! I for one loved it, nell


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Nell. I appreciate your comments, and especially your welcome visit.


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TToombs08 3 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

Nellieanna, Casablanca is hands down, one of my most favorite movies. Which is really weird because I usually go for the action/adventure genre.

This is so very true and well said. Too many of us are far too busy planning and preparing for tomorrow or the future and while that is important, we forget to take a moment and enjoy what is here and now. You never know what might end up vanishing while we aren't paying attention.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hi Terrye - Thank you so much for visiting &sharing your observations!

I love action & adventure films myself. In fact, eclectic genres are vital to me. Right now I can't get enough of fascinating mystery, with an emphasis on military &/or police action & involvement. Another time, I'll be emersed in historical period pieces or maybe in sizzling romances (if with real plots). ;-)

To me, Casablanca's lasting appeal is that it has elements of it all & more. War & intrigue, heroism & danger, love & heart-rending choices, all to beautiful music in a setting with characters & patina of mystery which haven't outlived their appeal after all these years.

It also points out that choices we make within the day's nowness (which is when & where all choices are made!) affect our future choices. We know that death is always imminent but consequences of choices are no less so. As we're living in the now - often rather thoughtlessly &/or grudgingly - we really are making our choices small or great. We can't foresee all their results, but we can learn the earmarks & principles from those we're making & have made so that in the immediate moments we're encountering with every live heartbeat, we can sense their possible or probable outcome & enjoy their values for themselves, in progress - now.

Being alive and aware in one's actual living present is far from being unrealistically unprepared for what may follow - in fact, it's the very opposite: it's being fully "here" in the now which are in constant march and so - for all the nows that follow allowed us by being alive.

We may be assured that what ends up can and may vanish before it's fulfilled, whether or not we're paying attention. But in the case of trying to live in that uncertain future, we'd have lost both the present and the future of our lives. It's what's happening all too often, especially if or when people ignore the temporariness of time and life, - as you mention.


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b. Malin 3 years ago

Very Poignant and Inspirational Nellie...Today is Today, and Tomorrow can change Everything. We think, we ponder, we need to be more Spontaneous...but how many of us are? I want to be, and feel it's NEVER to let to Learn. Loved your Thoughts in Poetry Form dear Lady. Also Enjoyed the Videos, such a Treat!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you for a lovely comments! I'm honored.

At the risk of running the premise in the ground, I must again say that it's not really a choice, whether or not to BE in the present. It might be explained that we are alive where our heartbeat is; - not where it was or will be.

But spontaneity is definitely a choice. It's how we respond and behave in the living moments. You're so right that it's never too late to learn, and the good new is that it's really what 'comes naturally' if it's not being blocked and if one is aware of where he/she really is, in time. It's more a process of unlearning the illusion of being able to 'be' elsewhere than of learning to be where one actually is. That's a given.

Most people are in the moment but, not being fully aware enough to be sensitive to it, behave as though they could be elsewhere in some other place & time, thereby losing the value & treasure of experiencing being here, now. It's simple, really, to pause to allow oneself to know, sense, feel & just respond to it; which is - what else? Responding to what is happening as it's happening is spontaneity. It's also being response-able.

It could be compared to listening to a piece of music. We must listen as it's playing, measure by measure, if we're to hear & experience it all in its time. It doesn't wait for us to catch up or let us have it and also attempt to get ahead. If we lose a measure we must just get right into the one in progress and stay with them as they progress. :-)


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

My dear CM, it took me so very long to master the art of living in the present AND to enjoy every minute of it even in bad weather. I am alive, and able to grab opportunities and to meet challenges. That is all that matters and I am not even asking myself WHY it took me so long. I guess, oh, I am sure, I needed to go through all those dark tunnels I've tried to illuminate with knowledge and the answers to all questions. I've missed out on so much happiness and joy while I've mourned my past and feared my feature!

Thinking and living in the present, accepting the past as over and done and not fearing the feature or even invest hope and trust in it, ask for the radical twist of a pattern of thoughts. I am so glad I have finally succeeded - at first (in 2001) not completely, but 100% since 2011, and, so wonderful, because of the support and encouragement of you and all my friends in HubPages. I will forever be grateful to you.

May this hub be a powerful twister of all negative thought patterns.

Everything, indeed, happens for a reason, we cannot control all happenings, but only our reaction on it.

Nellieanna, you know I never arrive deliberately late to enjoy your hubs fresh out of the oven. I know you know that I am trying to be everywhere at the same time.... just to realize I must be crazy to even try it. Lol! You are always on my mind :)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Darlin' Cyber Daughter ~

This is such a wonderful comment, understanding the hub's message as you do, and thank you for telling me how fully you do! I'm overjoyed for you.

The balance is also vital. Being in the now, and right 'here', knowing what really matters so as to prioritize the present where we live. It's not being a feather in the breeze, but being alive in the present. I guess sometime people think that being in the moment is being irresponsible, impulsive and lackadaisical. But, in fact, trying to live anywhere else is being delusional and so - irresponsible. We're HERE now to attend to HERE now, which is ongoing. Just not attempting to dwell elsewhere in another time and place, is being REALLY alive, alert and aware here and now, paying attention, using our judgment & experience to make the best choices now. It avoids so many needless exercises in futility and frustration! Those we're with in the now KNOW we're really there! We know we are! We're better able to see all that's happening all around us and make intelligent choices about them. When we're trying to be elsewhere, we are half-alert at best.

Best of all are feeling good about choosing to BE, not to 'have been' or 'will be'. hehe.

Everything happens. The reason is that it happens. If it's good, we can embrace it. If not, we can discard it.

We feel we need

To ask for reasons

When there are

No reasons.

When the reasons

Are within

The thing itself,

We need

To ask it not.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

4-20-74

Now, not to worry about when you can get over to my latests. I'm not publishing rapid-fire at present so plenty of time between them. I hope to resume a better pace soon. I don't always make it everywhere either. There are always urgencies that need tending, some human and some other kinds, both on and offline. As you say, one can't BE everywhere at once - and that's OK! We're prioritizing, as we should!

Since the new profile came, I've been eager to add summaries to all my hubs - which I've never done. But without a summary, the system picks up the first words, even including notations and tags under pictures! My poetry with staggered lines has been displayed like some sort of "shaken, not stirred' drink for 007! So now I'm working on very concise summaries, as much as possible to fit beside the title pictures which are displayed, so the summaries are not trailing off into the ether. I don't want to tell the reader everything! haha It's requiring some actual updating of the hubs & title pix, in fact. With so many hubs as I have (193 to date) - it's a challenge.

I number the poetry hubs, which helps me access their folders, but I've had to refer to a paper list to see their numbers, so I'm adding them in Roman numerals just under the titles. There's need for updating hubs further, too. I have to say, it's a fun project, though I look forward to getting to the end. There are still 11 (of 132) poetry hubs to go and 20 or so prose hubs to be done. Some go fast, some need more attention. I really like the improvement to my profile page's hub list!


Vincent Moore 3 years ago

Shamed yourself? Never my dear, how could you possibly even think that. I have been reminded often through the tenure of our relationship here at the hubs and in some personal emails we shared that living in the moment was paramount for me. You often have moved me with your words from the dark shadows that surrounded me at times. I have come to read your work to adjust my sanity as well at times.

Nellieanna your life experiences and age have matured you to this point of not sweating the small stuff and enjoying each new day as it presents itself to you. I will always struggle with losses in my life and feel sorrow, yet I am very capable of living each day and enjoying it. I have my up and down mood swings like most, but thankfully for me they are not consuming me.

Depression sets in on occasion but only usually lasts for a few hours, not days or weeks. I thank you for always lifting me up and sometimes giving me a loving elbow to move me up and onwards. Hugs to you my sweet poet and a very blessed Chrstmas Holdiay to you and yours. Voted Up and shared as alwasy.


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA

Shame yourself? No way. This is remarkable. And right on target. I read what Martie said about waiting so long to enjoy the present; I know I'm in that spot. I need to do better. Perhaps 2013 is the year. Oh, okay, we've still got some time left in 2012. I'll try to live in the present and make the most of it. :-) Love this hub! Sharing!


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Rusticliving 3 years ago from California

I am so happy you did publish this hub. "What if" you had decided not to??? I for one would have not been blessed in reading your written word.

I also agree with Martie about waiting so long to enjoy the present.. I have been there and occasionally forget to do it. What a gentle reminder of how vulnerable we are and how precious life is. Thank you for sharing this profound message of poetry. Happy Holidays!

~Lisa


Sunnie Day 3 years ago

Hello Dear Nellieanna,

This was so wonderful and so timely too for me. Today as I sat in the Dr's office with my mom who had started her chemo treatments, I thought to myself, I am here with her, she is here with me and what I say or do in this moment was so important. I looked around to see others taking in their chemo treatment, some eating snacks with their holiday hats on and then there was my mom....here...now...nothing else mattered. I get it Nellie...I really get it...I hope you can get what I am trying to say through my ramblings. Thank you! Savor every moment..as the present sometimes gets so easily dismissed.

Merry Christmas my dear Texas Friend,

Sunnie


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

No shame here my dear--just the opposite! Enjoy the now--(and the holidays)--


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ken - ! Wow! - I've hit the jackpot: - 3 visits from you to my hubs! wow! Thank you!

I'm greatly happy to hear that your ups and downs, while a struggle, - still, they do not consume you. That's how one gets past them and is ready for the newness of the day at hand.

You're right that I've moved past sweating the small stuff, normally. But I don't take it for granted. It feels good when the sense of 'this too shall pass' makes itself known, when it's been challenged by life's various vicissitudes. I've had a series of trying experiences lately. My daughter used to say she'd had just about all the 'character-building experiences' she needed for the day! I've felt that way recently! But it does no good to allow them to discourage or overcome me. In fact, dis-couragement is a terrible dis-ease. Just think of the real meaning of those words and the conditions they describe! DIS-ease. DIS-courage.

As I say - if feels good when I can honestly say, - -well - OK - it's not my preference, but it will be all right, because it will be if I let it be. Whenever what one dreads is either worked out or sort of sinks into oblivion, it's a good feeling. Nothing is worth spending precious hours and days on futility. NOTHING. If one can fix it, then fix it. If not - sleep on it and/or let it go. Life will go and bring solutions we'd not thought of yet!

I hope you have a great Christmas, too, my dear. Hugs.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Victoria - Thank you, dear lady!

It's no biggie to need great preparation or resolve. Just enlist what you have & use to focus on the immediate moments. They're potent with possibilities. There is no way to 'pass or flunk' it. When a moment passes, it's just past. The one going on is the one to be focused upon, not the one that rushed by unnoticed. BTW -- being miserable in the moment deserves it's own focus - in a lively way, really seeing what they ARE and what can or cannot be done about them. One discovers that feeling all one's feelings is healthy, even the 'negative' ones. There really are no negative ones - they're all positively what they are IN THEIR OWN TIME. The only bad or negative thing is trying to or allowing them to extend them beyond their real moments, so that the new moment is shut off from its own potential.

There's no formula for it, because it really IS being in the moment that's happening in your immediate time and place. The only barrier is doing the opposite. So - it's just BEING - here and now. Where, what and when else can it be real?


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hi, Lisa! I've been glad I did publish it too! Thank you for the words of support for my decision!

It's funny that one can forget to live where life is only possible, but the mind plays tricks. The ability to remember and anticipate is a strong impetus, but one without heart and soul. One's heart and soul know that it's an illusion to "be" somewhere else some other time. The brain is so bossy, though! It's useful, but not necessarily always in our own best interest, as total, living, organic beings. The brain is the servant of the whole self, but it sometimes tries to take over, and then our wisdom throughout our being gets shuffled to the back burner. That's what the 'forgetting' really is, just forgetting to pay attention to the present moments of living.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, yes, Sunnie - I get it! That's a wonderful example of what it means to become clearly aware of and alert to the moment in progress. Sometimes it takes something especially important to awaken that knowing - or to bring it to the forefront again. It really is our natural awareness. A newborn baby has it! They notice and respond to what is happening right then, right away, without hesitation. It's like the definition of responsibility as "the ability to respond"

Our daily lives tend to push it around and out of awareness. But it's always the truth. Even the most humdrum daily happenings have their own value & life within them.

The experience as you've described can impress it so deeply that it will always remain clear and present.

BTW - I've just completely redone a very early hub of mine, still titled "Non-attachment",- which has some valuable related thoughts.

Thank you for a wonderful comment and sharing such a deeply meaningful experience. I hope all goes well for your mom, dear. Merry Christmas to you and yours.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Audrey - I'm smiling! Thank you!! I appreciate your vote of support - and yes - enjoy the now, which is the holiDAY - NOW. :-) Hugs!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, Ron. (I that OK? Since I'd not met you before, I visited your site & saw your name.)

Thanks for visiting my hub and leaving your comment. I'm happy that you see fit to focus on the now. It's an excellent way to live, in my opinion, the only 'place' and time in which to actually live life!

I'm fascinated with your avatar depicting a person pushing a huge ball up a steep incline! Is it significant or just chosen for its impact? ;-)

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