When Trying Isn't Good Enough
When Was The Last Time You Tried Something New
I hate new things
They make my skin crawl
I get a nervous itch and I constantly say silently to myself do I have to
I look for any way I can to avoid doing something new
I am like a little kid who plays with his food when he doesn't want to eat
I squirm in my seat
If I can remember that far back I thnk I did it once and my father didn't put up with that
Now I am older and my father isn't here to tell me Stop that !
I have to face my hardest challanges head on
I can not procrastinate any longer
What good will it do?
I only have to do it again anyway
It will take me longer and I could be done by now
But I know the truth but my brain still doesn't comprehend
I am alright doing something new on my own
But there is that but again
When someone else makes me change and I have a choice
Then I have a little room for slack and slacking is what I will do
I will find anything under the sun to fill up my time so I don't have to do what I was told to do
Well it is a working progress and this is the first time I put it on paper
So I am admitting my mistakes and now have to follow through with my own advice
I knew I should of hit delete when I had the chance
Another mistake in the new year I will have to deal with
That is all for now and soon I will curse each word I typed
Because this is the way I struggle day and night