it was a sadness...


I felt sadness wash over me,

it was a sadness I couldn’t touch

nor see,

this sadness was not disdainful,

nor was it passionate or painful,

it wasn’t even a distraction,

but it held me tight,

gave me an odd satisfaction,

like a soft brilliance found in light,

and it didn’t leave me,

during the night,

it was a remarkable sadness,

like one I could trust,

my eyes widened,

and the emotions covered me like dust,

truly, it was an honest sadness,

capable of telling no lies,

I looked into the bathroom mirror,

and I felt a shock of recognition in my eyes,

everything around me went black,

almost without thinking,

I felt myself quivering back,

my eyes rapidly blinking,

and vicious emotions would attack,

the bathroom was now filled with flies,

I could finally feel the tears

welling in my eyes,

it was caused by the sadness,

a fly landed on my forehead

and its that reality I could no longer grasp,

the sadness grew to anger as I saw red,

I pressed the fly between my fingers

and it dropped dead to the floor,

the sadness still lingers,

and I wanted more.

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© 2011 Frank Atanacio

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Terishere 5 years ago

You touched on the feeling of sadness well.. Sadness envelopes you...and at times, it can even feel comforting... Strange huh?...

Voted up Frank!

Terri


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Sunshine625 5 years ago from Orlando, FL

I'm feeling the sadness of your poem but I'm sending you some Sunshine! I LIKE your new profile picture!:)


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Frank Atanacio 5 years ago from Shelton Author

Thanks terri for the comment and thank you sunshine for the sunshine.. :) hmm I think the last time I called a girl sunshine I got peppered spray.. :)


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Terishere 5 years ago

LOL Frank, that pepper spray comment made me laugh lolololol...


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Frank Atanacio 5 years ago from Shelton Author

anytime Terri :) but at least now I understand people when they say love is blinding.. :)


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Sunshine625 5 years ago from Orlando, FL

No pepper spray from me! Feel free to share the story though!! :) lol


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Terishere 5 years ago

Yeah Frank, love can be blinding... I've learned, because of that, not to overlook anything.. to keep my eyes wide open


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Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

Your sadness wraps my entire being. Your act of pressing a fly between the fingers quite explains your eternal sadness.


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Sky9106 5 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

The only one that can take sadness and turn it into this happiness/gladness that everyone can understand, and smile.

As I laugh I felt a little tear trying to work its way to accompany the laughter.

Could not take it anymore I had to comment.

A beautiful poem Frank.

The first thing that I read all day and it's a pleasant and welcoming greetings.

Blessings.

Well done frank.my brethren.


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Frank this was a very deep sadness..one cannot even cry..maybe at the door of depression knocking to let it in..As flys attack a dead carcass the flys represent the deadness felt inside..The tears were at least an emotion felt..real..wanting more emotion..at least then one would know they are still alive..

very profound and my take on this very graphic wonderful poem

Thank you

Sunnie


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Frank Atanacio 5 years ago from Shelton Author

thanks VG, sky for the comments and thank you Sunnie Day for a sunny day.. LOL


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arusho 5 years ago from University Place, Wa.

Great poem, kind of dark, but beautiful.


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AudreyHowitt 5 years ago from California

Funny how at some point sadness and anger can merge--I felt both of these as I read this piece--Nice write!


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Frank Atanacio 5 years ago from Shelton Author

thanks so much Arusho and Audrey


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prasetio30 5 years ago from malang-indonesia

I have the same feeling with all readers here. But again, you have done a great job with this poem. Rated up!

Prasetio


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epigramman 5 years ago

..that's a really nice profile picture Frank - and yes I always want more - when I read your truly astounding writing - love the title too and of course those perfect words that you are so great at conveying in your poetry

lake erie time 5:19pm


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Frannie Dee 5 years ago from Chicago Northwest Suburb

I can so relate to looking in the mirror and feeling the shock of recognition when so numb with sadness. You really nailed it! Awesome.


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton Author

thank Prase, Epi and Frannie Dee for checking out my sadness :)


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mcrawford76 3 years ago from Greeley, Colorado

Amazing, amazing piece. I had the feeling that you "lost time" staring into that mirror. What wonderful imagery and darkness. I loved it.

Voted up and awesome!


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton Author

thank you Mcrawford76


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Ranzi 3 years ago from All Over

Another wow piece. Keep the great poems coming.


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Frank Atanacio 15 months ago from Shelton Author

thanks so much Ranzi for feeling my sadness


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Missy Smith 15 months ago from Florida

Wow! So this is my feeling as I read your poem; I was totally enthralled from the beginning. It actually was every single feeling I had about my own sadness. After that, you put the blackness in it and the fly, and I knew someone, or to me, it made me feel like a death was occurring. At first, I thought suicide, then I thought, no; this could be a drug addict coming down. I don't know if I'm correct on either, but it truly gives you a picture to the scene like you do so well in all your stories and poems.

I really like this poem, and I could be wrong in my view of it; it seems others saw it as very simple sadness, and I went deeper with my thoughts. Nevertheless, it was awesome! :)


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Frank Atanacio 15 months ago from Shelton Author

thank you Missy for really reading into this poem bless you :)


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Faith Reaper 15 months ago from southern USA

Frank, your words express that profound sadness so well here that it grips the reader's heart too to where one feels a tightness in our chest. I love that it is written in first person and then reading your comment relaying that you now understand when others say love is blinding ...that is certainly hard and brings most assuredly brings on this kind of sadness and anger too.

I read this earlier and shared already. Brilliant writing.

Blessings


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Frank Atanacio 15 months ago from Shelton Author

thank you Faith for sharing your comments bless you

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