searching for that fear

There was that chill in the air,

as I found myself relentlessly

searching for that fear,

the fear that inspires the mind with horror,

one that you cannot see nor hear,

my efforts seem so desperate,

and I searched with care,

I felt a longing for some fear,

fear that could cut,

I kept coming across doors that won’t open,

and windows that won’t shut,

my mind seemed tortured,

and my soul cries,

I tried to banish all good thoughts

as I closed my eyes,

darkness quickly filled the room,

and all around me in the gloom

I heard voices in prayers,

warning me of certain doom,

it did nothing but caress,

I became obsessed,

my mind was pressed,

and my body convulsed with such violence,

then my own shadow was staring at me,

rising slowly so that I could see,

it moved closer, I moved near,

finally, after hours of torment,

I found my fear.

Quote: One Joy is another man's fear...

© 2011 Frank Atanacio

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Sky9106 5 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

Now you have got to do a poem a day , because I am getting carried away by this storm, that's you keep blowing my way, the tease of what's on the next line , it tempts you to peep, but I don't because the suspense is great.

Now even I am consumed with fear, fear that you may not want to keep up this beautiful flow of poetry . I have an idea that I will share with you in time.

But I trust you will, for you too are pushed to produce, we all are, it's simply in us. I can feel the quietness in your poems.

Keep up the great work , am steadfastly on board.

Blessings Frank.

Use to be in Trumbull Ct. quite a bit, years ago.

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Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

I just watched The Last Days, a documentary about Holocaust survivors. And I think I understand your words.

PS: If you are posting your poem as contest entry, you need to have at least 500 words. You can add explanation and poet's note.

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epigramman 5 years ago

.......always love your writing Frank - it inspires me immensely - you are 'someone' here at the Hub whom I look up to ..... lake erie time ontario canada 8:33pm don't pull any poetic punches and always hit your targets right on

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Sky9106 5 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

Nice to see you around epig, I think all I have to do is follow your lead, and I will find the best of everything here on HP.

Frank's poems and short stories are simply "Irie"


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Just Ask Susan 5 years ago from Ontario, Canada

It's hard to close one's eyes and remember the fear but so much inspiration can erupt from visiting that dark place.

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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton Author

thanks so much Sky, Vin and Epi for finding my fear

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xstatic 3 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

This is "fearfully" good, Frank!

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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton Author

thanks X- Man :)

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Phyllis Doyle 2 years ago from High desert of Nevada.

Wow! Frank. This is really a fearful subject. :) It is intense and foreboding. Your poem is very interesting and indicative of searching the soul. Very well done.

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Harishprasad 2 years ago from India

Frank, words like " I felt a longing for some fear, fear that could cut, " describe so well the turmoil of one 's mind in the face of extreme circumstances. How vividly you described about fear and determination to take on that fear. Real poetic words and very effective. Voted up and shared.

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Cyndi10 2 years ago from Georgia

Great poem. I like the way it builds to the final line where the subject has found his/her fear. I wouldn't be one to go looking, but I'm sure there are those who embrace fear like someone else might embrace joy. Fear is probably easier to get to.

Thanks for getting the thoughts flowing this morning.

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tillsontitan 2 years ago from New York

This one is palpable Frank. From the chill in the air to finding the fear, how we all can relate. Fear comes out of nowhere with no explanation and as you have pointed out so well, sometimes we don't know what hit us!

Voted up, awesome, beautiful, and interesting.

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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton Author

Phyllis thank you so much for sharing my fear :)

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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton Author

Harish, thank you so much for reading my fear... Cyndi10, very good..and always good seeing you my friend.. and Tillsontitan, just love having your comment on my page...bless you all :) Frank

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carrie Lee Night 2 years ago from Northeast United States

Awesome poem Frank :) Spooky and written perfectly. One of your best and right in there for a Halloween share or scare! :) Finally finished my halloween short Deal Of The Century. Hope you like it :)

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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton Author

Ill check it out Carrie and thanks for dropping by :)

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