shattered

It seems as though there is no peace

Your constant hunger has broken me

Just when i feel all is well

you shatter my heart and put me through hell

Theres nothing more that i can do

To rationalize what youve put me through

and even though i have this strain

Im worried about you being in pain

Why did you do what you did...

What about everything that you said?

You assured me that things were going to settle

But still you resisted, and contunued to meddle

And now im here, all alone

Because without you, it just doesn't feel like home.

I think about you day and night

Praying that your at least alright

In a cell, locked up tight

this isnt my life....this isnt my life

Whats to happen....to become of you

all of those words you swore were true

amounted to nothing, but lies and decete

So im wondering now, if youll ever be free.

Your initial decision

Turned into a drive

To keep on using

Until your no longer alive

Away from you, i feel so fucking lost

I see you try to reach out, for your hand only to frost.

Because i cant return a holding hand

what youve done...well, i hope you understand

Its going to take time, and alot of strength

For me to hold you like i want again.

I cry and i cry, but that solves nothing

up all night, wondering if i can do something

No, this road is yours, i tried to stop you

only to be silenced, and now ive lost you

These choices were yours,

you made them alone

So thats just where you are

i miss you so.

Angry and sad

i have not a clue

whats going to happen

to me, or to you

Im begging you, stop

take a look at your life

and see thay maybe

i could have been your wife

we could have laughed, mowed the grass, watched t.v.

but your in a cell now, and not next to me.

Ill never forgive you for what you have done

Choosing yourself over me and your son.

Maybe youll see that this isnt working

but i doubt it, so ill just continue on hurting.

His birthday is comming

and where will you be

i hope you dont expect

any visits from me.

Im sorry your hurting

but ive been hurting too

and you havnt even noticed

So i cannot comfort you.

I love you, my sweetheart

But youve been so wrong

My God keep you safe

But for now, so long.