What Love Was

What now, my love?

I held you close

For a moment,

For a fleeting moment.


I held you near

For a lifetime;

For an entire lifetime


I felt your heart beating

Close to mine

So very close to mine


I was sheltered

In your warm embrace

Through the night

The endless night


I felt your breath

Upon my cheek

As we lay together

Entwined together


I stood with you

Through stormy weather

That seemed timeless

As if there were no limits.


I was struck with the truth

The immutable truth

That this was rare

A unique and shining jewel


Your dreams were mine

In silent understanding

About everything;

Encompassing everything


We planned for years

We looked forward to decades

We believed in growing old

Together,

Yes, always together.


You closed your eyes

No longer to gaze into mine

For so long a time,

For an eternity.


My life stopped then

In that instant

In a matter of a second

I ceased to exist

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FloraBreenRobison 5 years ago

You made me cry.


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Tragic, aching, beautiful. Not a lament I expect to read from you. Very painful. I'm sorry you feel this hurt Kathy.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hello Flora and Augustine! Please, have no fear...this is not about a 'real' situation. I was flying, yesterday, "8 miles high" winging my way back to Calif. when these words came to me. Imagining as I looked at my co-passengers. And it just came to me...knowing that, of course, this has, is and will be an experience for us....humanity.

Fear not, though..just a little attempt at poetic expression.

Thank you for such lovely comments, Flora and Augustine...now, God willing, I will be able to find the time to spend AN ENTIRE DAY planted in front of my computer catching up a little with your writing! Thank you, as always, for visiting and commenting. Kathy


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

I was doing fine until the last couple verses. I couldn't help but cry a little.


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Moms-Secret 5 years ago from Central Florida

What is fantasy for you is my absolute truth. This poem is beautiful. It is something widows of loving husbands wear like a scarlet letter engraved on their foreheads. 50% of married humanity will have this cross to bare with nothing to ease or lighten the blow.


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crazycatman 5 years ago from Dallas, TX

Very nice poem. I'm am glad you commented that everything is OK after writing this.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Good morning Cardisa. Thank you so much for your empathetic comment. I am touched that others feel these words...it means we feel for oneanother...humanity. thank goodness for this. Kathy


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hello, Mom's Secret. My dear, your moniker tells so much and, then, having perused your site after reading your comment; please, let me offer my deepest sympathy. I hope to find the time to read your many hubs which carry titles of great interest. I wish you well and thank you so much for your heartfelt words here on this hub. Yes, I've lost but, for fortune; not as you have and so this poem is for you and so many who have and do suffer the deepest cut..the loss of one's nearest and dearest companion. Much gratitude to you for your honesty and for sharing yourself here on HP. Kathy


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Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

I felt sad and cut off! Brilliant piece of writing.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Vinaya..thank you so much. Such a wonderful compliment! I am honored.


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Seeker7 5 years ago from Fife, Scotland

Very beautiful words that pull so hard on the heart strings. I think it is a poem that we can all in one way or another identify with.

I really loved this piece of work from you Kathy - wonderful! Voted up + awesome+ bookmarked a a favourite.


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Peggy W 5 years ago from Houston, Texas

Hi Kathy,

So glad to know that this did not come from a recent or real experience. Of course, sooner or later most of us will feel that way about someone we love and lose to death. Very touching poem! Votes up!


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful Kathy, I'm thrilled that it is not true. Thank you...


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writer20 5 years ago from Southern Nevada

this is a beauitful heartfelt poem. Vote up and awesome


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Maren Morgan M-T 5 years ago from Pennsylvania

Captures loss accurately.


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Chatkath 5 years ago from California

Kathy, What an absolutely beautiful sentiment of how it feels to experience the torture of loss and complete abandonment. On the flip side it is also what allows us to appreciate and celebrate love with those that we hold so dear. Up, awesome and beautiful!!!


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Damn, I was getting ready to pack a bag and high tail it across country... I think you expressed this theme rather effectively, as evidenced also by these comments.

Lady, when you "land", it'll be great to have all of your range back on HubPages again... not that I don't love the furbabies! You can "write the phonebook" and this is a fabulous example! Voted UP & AB, mar.


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Dexter Yarbrough 5 years ago from United States

Hi LuckCats! Your "attempt" at poetic expression went over extremely well. When you can provoke a sentimental emotion from the reader, you are doing a great job.

Heartfelt and tragic - and well done!


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Good early am, Dexter Yarbrough! Thank you for taking the time to comment on this one. I have been away so long due to such time requiring demands recently and have not written much nor have I been able to visit others' hubs. This little one came to me while in flight as I gazed at the other passengers on the plane...wondering what their lives were like. One, in particular, seemed to be deeply saddened and it caused me to imagine what the sorrow was about. Thus; What Love Was. Thank you so much for the kind comment, Dexter.


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

It made me cry...

I was pleased to read in your above comment it wasn't about your own personal experience.

Beautiful and tragic.

voting up.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi CCM (Crazycatman...does it get any better than this?) and Helen, Peggy and Ruby..I am so pleased that this touched each of you...it means that the feelings I hoped to portray did resonate with you and this makes me very happy and proud to be a part of this fabulous group of astounding writers. I am so appreciative of your continued support and encouraging words. thank you!!


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you, Movie Master...and I am touched by your sensitivity. I truly appreciate your visit and comment.


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AliciaC 5 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

This is a powerful poem, Kathy. It's sad, but beautiful. I enjoyed it very much.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you AliciaC...it is a sad poem. Sometimes, this life can be very very sorrowful...even then, though; to have loved so deeply is a gift and a once in a lifetime treasure. thank you for visiting.


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Angie Jardine 5 years ago from Cornwall, land of the eternally youthful mind ...

Thanks for this fine poem, Lucky ... it is not just lyrical but heartrendingly accurate.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you my fear friend Angie. Appreciate your visits and your nice comments...Kathy


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Nell Rose 5 years ago from England

Hi, such a sad poem, and it does feel familiar not with a partner but other members of the family I have lost, you got it exactly right, amazing!


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you my dear Nell...


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TKs view 5 years ago from The Middle Path

Hi Kathy,

The mark of an excellent writer is to be able to invoke emotion from the reader. That you did this, not from your own recent experience but from pulling it out of the air around you shows the depth of your intuition also.

Not totally sure about the rules, but if you add a picture and the "tag" contest, you may still be able to enter it into the poetry contest that closes on the 22nd.

Have a wonderful day.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi TK! I am so honored and floored by your commenht..how very good I feel after having read it. I have never even considered entering any of the contests and I don't know the first steps required but, I think, because this has been published; it is no longer eligible. You've made my day from this early am and I am very appreciative and thankful. This is one of the nicest comments I've ever gotten because you have said that you feel I could possible "be a contender." Thank you. Kathy


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TKs view 5 years ago from The Middle Path

You may want to look into it. There is a "Contest" button on the right in the header with all the rules. If nothing else, it will get you more exposure to your other hubs.

I've entered one poem, have two more waiting in the wings. There are some good writers on the pages and whatever feedback I get may make me better also.


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epigramman 5 years ago

...best piece of writing Kathy my dear by you I would say - and that's saying a lot because everything you write is the - best piece of writing - this will be posted to my Facebook page with a direct link back here - hold on - I'll be back in a jiffy at lake erie time 7:54am


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well I am back after posting to Facebook - lol - and yes I do love that title Miss K - and you also - I've always had a mad crush on you - because you are life and living to our four legged friends and a bloody great writer and I say that as a life affirming gesture to you as I watch the sun come over my lake and light up the day - you and I have gone back to almost the beginning here at the HUB - and I am one lucky cat to have met a lady as wonderful and as pure as you - and as I write I just arrived home from night shift work 2 hours ago and one cat is out - one cat is in - they love their life and as you know I love them - this is my legacy Kathy - loving my cats - giving them a good life.

lake erie time ontario canada 7:59am listening to the Carpenters as a way of saying - Colin it's time for a lullaby - now, go to sleep.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Sleep well and snug and happy in the knowledge that there is so much true and sincere energy and caring here for you and among so many that we are blessed beyond our most fervent hopes. And I am so incredibly honored and humbled by your kind words, Colin....always friends and caring souls no matter time and tide and long absences or whatever life brings to our doorstep. Know this to be true. And thank you.


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Oh how touching and so very beautiful Kathy.

Another for me to vote up up and away.

Keep these gems conming so I can keep reading.

Take care my friend and have a wonderful weekend.

Eddy.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

My dear friend Eiddwen..thank you so much. Your comments always lift my spirits and make my day so much brighter. Coming from you..this is the highest of compliments; that you like my work. Thank you!!!


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Hi Kathy,

It is my pleasure and I have to share my good fortune with you now too. My book of poems 'My Beautiful Rock Rose' has been accepted by my publishers.

I am still in shock !!!

Take care my dear friend.

Eddy.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Eiddwen..this is fabulous. How do I order copies? I'm thinking....Christmas gifts!!!!! I'm off to the airport now but, I shall check ASAP for further information about this wonderful news...Kathy


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

My life stopped then

"In that instant

In a matter of a second

I ceased to exist"

.... and we don't only feel this when somebody/someone we loves blow out his last breathe.

I feel this when a friendship gets killed by a misunderstanding or by a threatened ego, when I lose something precious, when my hope all of a sudden turns into ashes...

Wish I could ceased to exist when this happens, but I stay conscious, petrified with pain, as if I am put to the rack.

Eventually the pain goes away, and then I realize I had not ceased to exist.

Lucky Cats, I could feel that terrible experience of pain you had. The pain of loss.

Voted up and beautiful.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Martie...your comments always amaze and floor me...you have such insight; incredible, empathetic and intuitive insight. When you talk to us here on HP; when you comment on our work, it is as if a very very close friend, who knows just about everything there is to know about us; has taken time to sit down and discuss life, issues, concerns, hurt, joy; the gamut of human emotions; human frailty (how is that for a run on sentence??). You share so much of yourself through your intelligent and well considered comments; and your writing is up there on the very highest level. I thoroughly respect and honor and enjoy your comments and heart, Martie...you are one of a kind and a very kind person. Your friend, Kathy. thank you so much for commenting and visiting. Just as a note; this is an empathetic poem... it isn't something I've gone through to the extent that is portrayed here...thank God...thank you for the sentiment...anyway...because I know at some point; we all will have been here.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Lucky, wow! It really feels good seeing myself through your eyes. I must print this to read on days I feel miserable and incompetent. You know people tend to criticize others without thinking twice, but withhold compliments for many reasons, therefor I am in awe of you for giving me this out-of-your-heart compliments.

I wish you a peaceful and happy Thanksgiving. May you reach all your goals and may all your wishes come true.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Awesome poem Kathy, I love the way it flows with the "repeats." Really great work! Hope all is well with you!

Sharyn


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Martie...I meant what I said with great respect and regard. You have a depth which is unmatched...an innate understanding and empathy which resounds in your caring and sensitive comments. Truly a gift...and very very appreciated!!

Sharyn..thank you ... doing the 'repeats' is something new for me and it just seemed to underscore what I was attempting to say..all is well, thank you, too! kathy


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bluebird 4 years ago

So very touching. I liked this even if it does tend to bring out many sad emotions and memories.

You did well, even though...

That's life.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Thank you bluebird. Appreciate your visit and comment so much. Kathy


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

That is so descriptive of my love of George and his passing. We were so good together - in every way. It's hard to live without him, but then - he would be so sad if I didn't. But there is a huge difference in my focus. It was always largely in the present-tense but more so now. And it's good. I don't "have to have" . . . I've had. As Mother used to say, "Whatever is to be, will be - even if it never happens!" :)


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Nellieanna, I appreciate your words; "I don't "have to have" . . . I've had. As Mother used to say, "Whatever is to be, will be - even if it never happens!" :)

Up to this point in my life; there are those life stages and experiences which I have experienced and, honestly, do not wish to repeat or seek to replace. I do know what you mean. I am satisfied with the many gifts I've been fortunate to have "lived through." To the extent that I am "ok" that , though situations and circumstances in so many ways have changed, altered; passed...the wholeness of these is sufficient; I do not need to go back and do it again. My words are not as eloquent as yours; but I trust that you will understand what I'm attempting to say. I know that some of us are "stuck" in a revolving door which keeps spinning and delivering us back to where we were before....again and again; in an apparent search for sameness rather than newness...maybe this comes from a sense of insecurity or fear of the unknown or; perhaps, a security in familiarity. I do understand what you've said, Nellieanna; and I highly respect that you've shared this w/me...very valued. Thank you, dear Nellieanna. Kathy


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Rolly A Chabot 4 years ago from Alberta Canada

Hi Lucky Cats... well done... sad and yet empowering... thank you for writing this...

Hugs from Canada


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California Author

Hi Rolly A Chabot. Welcome to my page and thank you so much for the kind comment. Truly appreciated. Kathy


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

I do understand. You are so very dear.


Sunshine 23 months ago

That's a moelrb-daker. Great thinking!


Bessie 23 months ago

All of my school aged kidods are involved with some kind of extra-curricular activy. My 16 year old son is on the drumline at his high school, my pre-teen daughter is on the volleyball and softball teams and my 8 year old son is half way to his black belt in Taekwondo.My little guy who stays home with me and does flash cards during the day has extra-curricular activites of napping and cuddling with Mommy and Daddy! =)


Lotta 23 months ago

It's imatrpeive that more people make this exact point.

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