Whispers In The Night
When do I feel safe again?
When do I feel pure again?
When will all my worries fade?
Will I ever feel the hands that should bring me joy?
Will I stay or will I run again?
I close my eyes and for that one moment, my head is empty, thoughts fade.
Black
Pure enchantment.
Shadows dance around my head, and for once I am not afraid
I take a deep breath and exhale, hoping my impurities has left me
I am clean, new.
Reborn
I no longer feel insecure, scared, unsure
I am now confident, happy,
Joy fills my body, electrifies my senses like a brief current
I smile
Words can’t describe how I feel
This warm feeling boils my insides
It is the best I’ve felt in months
Misery has been erased from my sweaty forehead
I am reborn
I am strong
I am beautiful
I am a woman
But how long until this too fades?
Happiness doesn’t last
In a mere second, a frown forms on my forehead
Questions horde in my head
My eyes open and the heavy weight falls back on my chest
I suffocate
My breathing is once again heavy
Short breaths escape from my mouth
I am fragile
I am insecure
I am beautiful
I am a mess.