Apolloneros

I was born in Tennessee on june 29th 1990. I am the oldest of five brothers, both my mother and father are socially and spiritually inept, which is really like calling a shark a big fish, and both have pressed extreme views on me through my entire adolescence. My father is british, irish, and is an over bering his sons are made in his image or are an extension of himself type, through out my child hood he abused both me and my step mother physically and mentally until she left then neglected me and my full blood brother for about a year and neglected our schooling on top of that for much longer so I pretty much have him to thank manly for my squashed education he used to be in the military but he actually has PTSD from prior experiences before he enlisted and they had failed to properly screen him for that he's a racist in denial and up until my teen years had me thinking all minorities including myself were lower then whites partly because they were "cursed by god" and just not as evolved it makes me sick to see adults refuse to liberate they're minds and recognize that they're culture and religions might be wrong, anyway on top of all that my father is deeply obsessed with conspiracies and other such things falling into that area which makes me wonder how he couldn't wonder if all believed was a lie even down to culture and religious belief, why not consider it if parts of history is intentionally false. My mother is cuban, chinese, she in many ways is a religious extremist, and is also quite dysfunctional and probably has slight down syndrom in the sence that she has sever social issues with all five of her children all of her ex husbands and boyfriends she is currently married to a muslim and fights with him about religious beliefs because she is seventh day Adventist, basically christian, both her and her current husband are racist only she is in denial about it where as her husband is not though his racism makes no sense as he is darker than my girlfriend and many of my black friends, my mother when I was fourteen had me leave school to stay home and take care of my siblings making my situation with education that much worse. After all I have seen from my parents and many other people I try not to be a complete slave to the brainwashing media and culture of our world, as one should aspire to see all angles before committing to a belief I strive to better understand this life mentally, physically, and spiritually