I was 23 when we left Afghanistan, and truly felt like the world was my oyster. I was realizing my potential out there but didn't know what to do with it just yet. This poem reflects that.
Overcast days and mornings were very common. At this point of deployment, I hadn't seen the sunrise or morning for about 8 months due to my schedule. We were nearing the end of tour and my scheduled changed. I was lucky to get breakfast this day, because when I saw the sun, I felt so emotional.
I was running at night, and I think it was around a full moon because it was so luminescent, I was able to see, which wasn't always the case there. First time running alone in a foreign country at night, I felt inspired to write about it before even taking a shower.
Wrote this when I was deployed to Afghanistan 2011-2012.
2011. 10+ years ago, I had an anxious-avoidant attachment style. This piece reminds me how far I've grown, and will continue to transform.
In 2012 I was still getting over an ex-boyfriend. I remember finding it helpful to transcend who he was as a person into poetry rather than dwelling on the unrequited love.