Joined 9 years ago from Lithonia Ga
I would first like to introduce myself I am an average female trying to reach financial freedom and the ability to be my own boss. I am was born in Buffalo NY the youngest living daughter of my mother. I have Two, older Sisters biological through my mother. I have One, biological brother through my mother. Two wonderful younger step-brothers that are a pleasure. My family have been quite small for years, and in the last 20 years have steadily grown. It is a joy to some degree. Even though I have not added to the blood line. I have faith that God will allow me to when he sees the time is right, but if not. I have the pleasure of helping to raise some of my nieces and nephews. As well as some of my cousins and some of my friends children. God knows what is best for me. I was pretty much raised in buffalo and moved to Georgia as a little girl . That did not take very well back in the late 70's so. I ended up back in buffalo still a child where, I was sexually assaulted by a uncle that resulted in a pregnancy that I miscarried. I have had a long term mental, physical, and emotional scar ever since. Once I got grown I had difficulty dealing with the opposite sex. I treated all of them like trash that was to be used and then discarded. It worked for a while until I realized that I was no better then him that abused me. I ended up forgiving myself and then him, so that I could move on and deal with my issues. The right way and I am still dealing with them. This is a constant battle, I still feel unsure of myself and even upset. That I could not and did not do, something then to stop the destruction of my innocence. I still deal with this and therefore pray daily that God. Continues to keep me near the cross and helps me to bear. The burdens of my heart even as I lay them at his feet.
I often at night strongly weep questioning God Why was I so weak. I am afraid so often that I am going to have to face that type of pain over again. I still pray to let it go and forget that it happen to me. I can not seem to forget that it happen. I pray for amnesia so that the memories are all gone. I have stopped wishing him harm. I have stopped blaming myself for being so weak. I have often prayed Lord help me to remain meek.
Time has come and time has gone but still I can not find that happy song. Time has come and time has gone and even now I pray for the dawn. Time is the friend that I so often want to greet but also the friend I want to delete. Time to me is a two way street it takes you up and it takes you down, down, down, into the ground. I know that I have found an impressive sign that lets you know all about the Time
I have recently moved to Lithonia GA because the weather up north was a bit to cold and I am doing okay still dealing with my own troubles and trying to make a place for myself that is stable and secure. I am still hoping to have children but also looking into adoption.
This is just a little about me
Starsway or The Highway
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