MihaelaMaria

I.m 21 and I study french and japanese. Sometimes I just want to quit everything, because none of what am I doing, doesn.t bring me the satisfaction of knowing the world I am living in. I know few and I only know things that came up to light, but how about the hidden ones? It.s depressive when I.m just thinking that we may be caught in a closed sphere, which cannot be broken right now. What if the things we know are not the true things? My sense of hear is enchanted by jazzers..and I found Robert Johnson absolutely fascinating. I also love Etta James, Dina Washington, Nat King Cole or Frank Sinatra. Concerning reading, I enjoy Kafka, Ismail Kadare, Milan Kundera, Haruki Murakami and his brother Ryu Murakami. I enjoy Marguerite Duras and I think I can guess the miracle of Borges, without reading him. I fell in love with Simone de Beauvoir. She can be naughty, like she did in " The diary of a good girl" but you can feel her depth and mind force in " All human are earthling" . Sylvie Germain was the woman-writer I.ve met in the depot of my imagination, and I made a passion for her, by reading "The book of nights" . I have a mental affair with Amedeo Modigliani, only because at the beginning i loved his name. William Blake and Nietzsche always suport my instincts and Fra Angellico makes me not forget that I have a God to worship. Hieronymus Bosch is for me a kind of Alice in wonderland of the 15th century. I would enjoyed to have been a lady living in the early 20es. Au Paris. :)

Blabla. It s been almost 3 years since I left my Hubpage page. Now I m almost 24, I ve been living with a nun for like an year and a few months. Cut my hair. Now it s short. Almost gave up university, figured out that I want too many things so it s easier to just say what I don t like. I don t like the idea of graduating and then working for corporations. I don t like my life beeing coordinated, I d like to travel and write, instead. I cannot stick to people and it s hard for me to figure out how can they miss me when they say they do.

It s hard for me to just dissociate between me as someone s lover and me as an individual, though I can make the difference between the two of them.

I have started to write. Short stories, I haven t got patience to make them longer. So I was thinking to translate them into English and French, and just publish them I don t know where.

Sometimes it s so weird to just look back and see your3yearsagoself, I almost laughed reading what I had written at 21. So scholastic, so this is me when I did not know shit about that. Far from knowing who am I, I did barely know who I could be.

I wonder how would I react reading what I wrote now, when I ll be 45.

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