The internal battle of a victim is often the biggest hindrance in finding freedom from abuse. I will share my personal experience and how I was able to win the war within myself and leave my abuser.
Abuse will leave you distraught and broken. The abuser will relentlessly attack, you but you can begin your journey out of abuse right now. Always remember that the devil only wins if you don't fight.
Loving a narcissist costs you everything. You will question everything about yourself. But there is help for you and there are ways to break the stronghold your narc has on you. Knowledge is power.