This website uses cookies

As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: ""

Show Details
HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the or domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)
simsmarie1988 profile image


Joined 8 years ago




Life has thrown me many curve balls. When I was young I was molested by my cousins. My best friend’s house burned down when I was 16. His Great grandmother died in the fire. That on top of my home life sent me to a hospital for depression. Then I fell in love with a guy from school, probably because he treated me better than anyone ever did. Then later that year I got kicked out of school and I swallowed a bottle of pills and survived. I went to therapy for a while, but my father toke me out because he thought I was okay. By 17 my father kicked me out, to live with my aunt. She made me dress formal all the time, be a nanny to her four children, and a maid. She made me a stronger person. My father never let me stand up for myself. She was a bitch, but I guess a little rubbed off on me. My boyfriend's mother was my aunt's best friend. They never let us see each another. So, when my father asked me to move back in. My boyfriend and snuck around to see each another. Then he broke my heart, because he wanted someone he could bring home to his parents. Then I moved out again, staying where I could. My best friend stuck by me through all of this. His family let me live with them. Then I moved with my best friend and his mother to a bigger city. I became really good friends with his mother. I looked up to her. She had had such a rough time in life. Two divorces, three grown children, and she was still gone back to college and was almost down. She was my role model. I loved her. Well, I met a guy. We all moved out and got our own places. I got engaged. She killed herself November 2, 2009. I broke down I left my fiancé, stopped cleaning, stopped everything. They person I looked up to was gone. She was so intelligent and she had the greatest sense of humor. I thought if she thought it was such a great idea to end her life, I should too. I wanted to be just like her. I loved her. I missed her so much. I saw my best friend shortly after his mother left this world, and told me that he's tired of dating stupid girls. He wants to date someone who is smart, funny, pretty, and someone who actually gets him. Then he turned to me and said that's you.

Show: All
  • All
  • Family and Parenting (1)

No Featured content yet.

Welcome simsmarie1988 to HubPages

Looks like simsmarie1988 doesn't have any Featured articles on HubPages to share yet. Now's your chance to inspire, encourage, and welcome simsmarie1988 to the amazing HubPages community. Follow simsmarie1988 to show your support and get updates on new content simsmarie1988 publishes.