A nineteen year old girl with a toddler with cerebral palsy, and a new boyfriend with promises of a happy life. Ignoring the red flags made life more complicated than it already was.
The doctors dismissed my concerns throughout the first year of my baby's life. Cerebral Palsy was a term I had never heard before but here I was being told this was the reason my son was not developing properly. Who can a eightteen year old, single mother with a disabled baby turn to?
A pregnant teenager with no where to turn, I ask my mother to take me in after my boyfriend abandons me.
After another sleepless night due to nightmares caused from my recent, unwanted abortion, I decide to finally put an end to my pain. The end result was more pain and loneliness.
Pregnant and scared, I had loud, angry voices yelling at me from all angles. Unsure of what to do and who to listen to,up until the last few seconds I held on to the hope that my mother would wrap her arms around me and protect from the world I was drowning in.
Living with a strange family. I felt uncomfortable. I thought that no one loved me, except for my abusive boyfriend. During the Christmas break I felt alone because everyone made it clear that no one wanted to spend the holiday with me.
This is page four of 'That Was What Hurt Me The Most'. A broken, sad girl with no emotions left, I had almost given up but still clung to a thread, confident that my mother would find her heart and my father would break. I hoped.
This is page three of 'That Was What Hurt Me The Most'. This is when I started to believe that we had a chance at becoming a normal, happy family. That dream did not last long.
This is page two of 'That Was What Hurt Me The Most'. This story occurs around the time when I came to believe that my mother used me as an outlet for her anger. Through my eyes I saw a mother who went looking for any excuse to hand me over to my abusive father, then stand by and watch.
This is page one of many accounts of child abuse. These stories display the damaged heart of a child who wanted nothing more than to be loved and protected.