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Learning your Senior Cat has Cancer

Updated on January 3, 2011

Cancer was not a diagnosis I was hoping to hear

My Senior Cat Bugsy was just diagnosed with Cancer December 21st 2009. Not a diagnosis I was prepared to hear and not one I even thought would be mentioned at my recent Vet visit. Hearing that word sends chills down my spine every time I hear it mentioned. As the Vet made her diagnosis my first reaction was shock which quickly turned into a rush of tears streaming down my face thinking I was going to be losing my cat to a horrible disease.

This Page was written in stages from the First Diagnosis December 2009 until today April 26th, 2010 - when I finally was able to come back and finish.

A Little about Bugsy

Bugsy is a cat we rescued when I lived in Florida back in 1995. I remember going to the rescue and seeing a bunch of kittens and he stuck out being he was the only one with no tail. A cute little guy with great markings and no tail due to his breed (Manx)- I had to take him home. He got his name due to the fact that he looked like a Bunny and when I think of a Bunny - I think Bugs Bunny - so the name Bugsy came about.

When he ran he kinda hopped with his back legs - it was a perfect fit for him.

He quickly became best friends with our other cat Hubcap (who has already crossed over due to Renal Kidney Failure years back).

A few months after rescuing him we rescued our now Senior Dog Bailey. Bugsy loved to watch TV as a kitten and was real spunky in his earlier years. He has had many homes as we rented for a number of years until we finally settled in our current home in PA. He has always been our tough kitty and very laid back. His personality is wonderful and he is a great companion with a very loud Purr. He is also very vocal when he wants something. If he wants to go outside - he will meow and it sounds like he is saying "Out". Of course he has slowed down in his older age, but the love he gives us has not changed. Having him in my life for almost 15 years now makes it really hard to think my time with him will soon be over.

The Diagnosis - Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma

Feline Mouth Cancer

Prior to taking Bugsy to the vet we had noticed that his Jaw was swollen. Now Bugsy goes outside and has had his number of injuries - so we watched for about a week to see if it was just a cut he had gotten. It did not get any better and we noticed he started to drool more than he had before. He had always drooled a bit due to him losing a tooth years ago, but this was different.

So we made our Vet appointment. The Vet examined him and said that she believed it was Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma - Feline Mouth Cancer. The only way to know for sure would to do a biopsy. But with his age and where it was in his mouth even with that the chances of survival were slim. It would have been more traumatic to put him through all of that - so we decided not to. It is a horrible Cancer with a very slim diagnosis unless caught very early in its stages and the Vet knew this was in the ending stage. He could have had this Cancer for sometime, but when it shows the way it was meaned it was not good. She told us he could live for weeks or a month, but it did not look good at all. My heart broke - my eyes filled and tears just steamed down my face. I did not feel he was ready to go yet - he was still eating well. I wanted to try Meds and take it from there. She told us we would know when it was time to make the decision - he would tell us. I just wanted to go home and take care of him and maybe she was wrong. I left the office in a state of Shock.

We decided to give him some strong Antibiotics, Anti-Inflammatory and Pain Meds to see if anything would help - I just prayed she was wrong.

Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma
Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma

Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma

Signs you can look for

I made this page for a couple of reasons:

One - it is my Therapy

Two - Maybe I can help someone catch this disease in their Cat before it is too late

Symptoms of Feline Oral Cancer include:

* Difficulty eating

* Dropping food out of the mouth while eating

* Lack of appetite

* Lack of grooming

* Swelling of the mouth

* Drooling

* Bleeding from the mouth

If your cat has difficulty eating, it could mean many things. Most of the time, it doesn't mean cancer. However, it always needs to be checked out by a vet because it could be serious and because your cat should not go for long without food and water.

Feline Oral Cancer is usually treated with chemotherapy or radiation followed by surgery. Surgery provides the best attempt at a cure assuming the cancerous tumor is diagnosed early.

If your Cat shows any of these signs - Please see your Vet Right Away.

Caring for Bugsy

Extra Love, Hugs and Kisses

Caring for Bugsy with his Cancer Diagnosis was not easy in the way my Heart broke every time I looked at him. Trying to take in every moment we had together knowing it would soon be taken away. Amazed at the love you could feel for your pet, your companion, your friend for so many years.

We made sure to give him all his meds and pain medicine so he was comfortable. He slept a lot and we made a special bed up for him in his favorite spot on the couch. I was hoping and praying the Meds would work and the Vets diagnosis was wrong, but it was not the case.

It was not long that his mouth got worse and his jaw swelled up more. He would drool a lot. He was unable to clean himself, because it was too hard - so I would wipe him down with some warm soap and water. He started having a hard time eating so we would get him moist food in all kinds of flavors and we would have to pile it high so he was able to bite into it. Sometimes we had to add water to raise it up. He had a really hard time drinking his water due to his tongue being displaced from the swelling now. We would bring him to the faucet and turn it on slowly and he was able to drink some with his head sideways. I also even put water in his mouth using a dropper so he would not dehydrate.

The moment we knew it was time is when he was unable to drink - it was too hard for him. Eating was only harder. The Vet said you would know and we knew - his quality of life at this point was not quality. We had to make the decision no one ever wants to make, but knowing it is what needed to be done. It was the moment we had to show him how much we really loved him and how we would not let him suffer anymore. It was time to let Bugsy be Free of pain and suffering.

Bugsy's Cancer - NOTE: Some of these photos may be disturbing to some

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January 12th 2010 Bugsy crosses Rainbow Bridge

Our last moments together

I am writing this just a day after I had to let my beloved Bugsy go to heaven. I wanted to write while it was fresh in my mind and to me writing is good therapy. I am not sure if you have ever had to make the decision to have your pet put down, or are at the point of making it or just knowing one day you will - it SUCKS!!!

This was not my first time having to do this. My cat Hubcap many years back had to be put down due to Renal Kidney Failure, he happened to be Bugsy's buddy. The only difference from then until know was my decision to be there in the room with him, my husband went with Hubcap. See I have a really hard time with death having to have been faced with losing my mother at 8 years old - it is so hard for me. I cannot get myself to go to funerals unless I really have to. I never like to have an image of some one dead and would rather keep the image of the living - just my thing. But this time I worked up the courage to be with him at his last moments - I owed it to him - he was my baby.

I woke up in the morning and made the call to the vet to set up a time - 11:10am was my appointment. I cried like a baby after making that call. It seemed to horrible. I got my kids off to school and devoted my morning to being with him. I gave him some food, while in my head I had thoughts like - I am giving him his last meal he would ever eat. He did not eat much it was too hard for him. My husband got him to drink some water from the tub faucet, but later I found he had thrown that up along with the food he had eaten.

He asked me to go out and I knew if I let him out he probably would not come back. But I did let him out as I followed behind him. He loved being outside and I wanted him to have his last time out in his yard. We did not stay out long it was cold and he was good.

I then took him and sat with him on my chest and he purred like crazy all over my face. The guilt I felt knowing his time was soon coming to an end was so heavy on my heart, the guilt, the racing thoughts - it was horrible. It was like he knew and he was telling me it was OK - it didn't matter I felt like crap. I tried not to cry holding him, but it was impossible - my heart was breaking - we had 15 years together and now it was over.

I then let him down and gathered what I needed to take with me to the Vet. When it came time for us to leave Bugsy was missing. I ended up finding him hiding under my son's bed - he knew. I wrapped him in a towel and held him as my husband drove and I tried to build up my courage to do this. My husband knew what was ahead, but I did not. We cried on the way to the Vet and Bugsy cuddled on my chest, looked out the window taking it all in and purred really load the whole ride there.

We knew we had made the right decision there was no doubt, but going through with it is so hard. When we arrived at the Vet I was a mess of course and no words were exchanged really. They brought us to a room where they had a red fleece blanket set up on the table with paw prints on it. I held Bugsy tight in his towel for a while while my husband and I talked to him. I then put him on the table and he crawled back onto the towel on the table and laid down. We pet and loved him for about 20 minutes and the Vet came in to ask us if we were ready.

Of course I am not ready - this is my baby, but I knew it was time. Bugsy laid there looking at us and my emotions were all over the place. I knew I had to do this for him and I had to comfort him as he crossed over. My husband and I were in the front of him and the vet was at his back side. I had my arm around him and I stroked his head with my husband. The Vet said she had to shave his leg first and as she did Bugsy seemed ok. He just looked at us with his big eyes as I tried to control my crying. She then asked if we were ready and we said yes and I saw her inject him. I started to cry so hard at this point. It was only second and I could feel his body get heavy on my arm. I remember looking at his eyes and as them seemed to look as though they were black and white and lost their color to me at the same time the Vet said his heart has stopped. I closed my eyes and kissed him on his head and then quickly turned around - I did not want to see him lifeless - I could not do that. I was crying so load and was close to hyperventilating - I could not control it. A piece of my heart was gone. My husband pet him for awhile and said his goodbyes, but I never turned around - I just couldn't.

The Vet looked into his mouth after he had passed and I could hear her say that it was really bad. She said we did the right thing. His mouth was full of tumors and his tongue was displaced and there was such a small opening to his throat and that the pain must have been horrible for him. Even though it was the hardest thing to do I knew we released him from that pain and he was now in a better place.

I continued to cry uncontrollable and when my husband said he was done he handed me the towel and I held that so tight and had to get out of there. I cried all the way home and pretty much all day long - I kept the towel close to me and held it when I needed to - it had his smell on it.

All my other pets seemed to know and all seemed sad as well. I got through the day and I remember constantly looking at my clock thinking he has been gone for 5 hours, 6 hours etc... All the days events replaying in my head. I took the towel to bed with me and placed it above my head on my pillow where he slept with me. I know in the end it was what needed to be done and it is so hard, but he is free of all the pain and he was spoiled rotten and loved. I will see him again one day.

Bugsy will be privately cremated as my other pets have been and they will all be buried with me when it is my time so we can be together forever.

The Last Photo ever Taken of Bugsy - 1-12-2010

This photo of Bugsy was taken the Last Day of his Life. He was sleeping on my son's bed with Sushi one of my other cats. He was Peaceful and that is how I like to think of him now - At Peace. RIP Bugsy - you brought us 15 years of Love and Joy - you are missed everyday.

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    • Missmerfaery444 profile image

      Missmerfaery444 7 years ago

      Nicole this lens made me cry. Very brave of you to share this difficult journey with us. We were fortunate that our 19 year old cat passed away in her sleep, but some years ago our Golden Retriever suffered an internal hemorrhage and had to be put to sleep. Holding her, having her look in my eyes knowing what was about to happen, was the most painful thing I have ever done. Bugsy was lucky to have had a long and happy life with you x

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      Barbara Radisavljevic 7 years ago from Templeton, CA

      The tears are still streaming down my face after reading this. You made me feel as though I were there with you. I'm so sorry you lost your much loved pets. I hope you will continue to heal.

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      Rhonda Albom 7 years ago from New Zealand

      Beautiful tribute to a well loved pet. Sorry for your loss.

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      BuckHawkcenter 7 years ago

      Feel with you - tears and all. Have had to make that descision for many beloved darlings in my life and it is never easy. I mourn the loss of every one. I have a 10 year old Great Dane who will need that descision soon and I know writing about it will be therapy for me, also. Thanks for sharing your beautiful story.

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      hlkljgk 7 years ago from Western Mass

      i'm sorry for your loss.

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      happynutritionist 7 years ago

      Awe, so sweet and sad, my mother's cat had a cancerous tumor in the intestinal tract removed over a year ago, so far, so good. She is doing pretty well, though digestive system is very sensitive. Stars and tweets to you. ~claudia

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      Sandy Mertens 7 years ago from Frozen Tundra

      I feel your loss. I had a cat with cancer and put a dog down to relieve her suffering. It is something you never get over. I'm sorry for your loss.

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      anonymous 7 years ago

      I"m so sorry for you! It hurts so much when we lose our pets. They are a part of our family.

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      Jeanette 7 years ago from Australia

      Our pets certainly find a way into our hearts. This is a very touching lens.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @GonnaFly: Thank You

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @anonymous: Thank You and yes they are just like your children

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @TreasuresBrenda: Thank You and I hope maybe just maybe I have helped someone see the warning signs before it is too late

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @SandyMertens: It is so hard to be a Pet owner when it comes to this point, but I love pets and will continue to have them even though it can be very hard very hard in the end.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @happynutritionist: Thank You and I hope your Mom's Cat continues to do well.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @hlkljgk: Thank You

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @BuckHawkcenter: It is always hard - I have a 15 year old Dog - we got her right after Bugsy and I think this may be her last year with us, BUT she is amazing for her old age. You never know.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @RhondaAlbom: Thank You for taking the time to read.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @BarbRad: Thank You - I have not really read it again all the way through because it was so fresh when I wrote it - not sure I want to feel that again.

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      thepartyanimal2 7 years ago

      @Missmerfaery444: Thank You so much

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      tssfacts 7 years ago

      I know how hard it is to put down a pet that is a "family" member. Patches also had cancer, pancreatic. We did have some great years together. Thanks for sharing your story.

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      Mona 7 years ago from Iowa

      I am so sorry for your loss. I lost a dog of mine several years ago to a cancer in his mouth that after multiple surgeries and several vets we finally decided to end his suffering. I miss him still. Thanks for sharing your story.

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      Lorelei Cohen 7 years ago from Canada

      My sympathies - it is so hard to lose our friends.

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      Heather Burns 7 years ago from Wexford, Ireland

      cried my eyes out reading this. So sad for you. I'm an animal lover too and it is really hard to lose them. Hope you feel better soon.

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      Heather Burns 7 years ago from Wexford, Ireland

      congrats on your purple star!

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      Mary 7 years ago from Chicago area

      we lost one of our kids 2 years ago to either cancer or severe inflammatory bowel (tests were inconclusive), after tons of medical intervention...it broke my heart & still does. thanks so much for sharing your experience here; I think it will help many

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      Cynthia Sylvestermouse 7 years ago from United States

      We do love our pets. This was a difficult lens for me to read. I knew when I saw the title I would struggle through it. Our beautiful lab died last September and it was believed he, too, had cancer. Even though the biopsies did not confirm the vets diagnose, the ensuing months and subsequent death did. It was horrible to watch. We felt helpless. I understand exactly how you felt when your precious Bugsy died. You certainly have my sympathies.

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      JoyfulPamela2 7 years ago from Pennsylvania, USA

      Pets are very precious - thank you for sharing this special story. Thoughts will be with you.

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      The-Java-Gal 7 years ago

      I bawled like a baby through Bugsy's story. I brought back memories of my childhood manx cat Stubbles, and that was in the late 50's. Their personalities sounded very similar, and Stubs got cancer of the liver. When the vet had to explain that he could no longer hold food, and he would starve to death, we had to make the same decision that you made. It creates such a loss and void. I hope sharing your story helps the grieving/healing process for you, and you know you have friends who understand and share your pain.

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      AuthorNormaBudden 7 years ago

      Congrats on your purple star! It is featured in my Purple Star Series. If you follow the trail from https://hubpages.com/community/purple-star-directo you can find your featured location. Do you have other purple star lenses? If so, please let me know. I would love to feature those as well.

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      Jennifer P Tanabe 7 years ago from Red Hook, NY

      Thank you for sharing this story about Bugsy and his cancer. While it's a sad and painful story you told it beautifully, a great tribute to your precious cat.

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      anonymous 6 years ago

      This story of Bugsy was of particular interest as I am unfortunately going through the same thing with my 15 year old cat Benny. He has reached the point where he can no longer eat or even drink much so I will have to make the horrible decision. It is so heartbreaking as he has fought this disease gallantly and still acts fairly normal in so many ways. Feline oral cancer is something I hope I won't have to ever see one of my cats go through again, it is terrible. Thanks for your story. RIP Bugsy

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      anonymous 6 years ago

      Thank you for sharing this. My 11 year old cat Calvin was just diagnosed with the same thing earlier this week. I really appreciated your honesty in sharing the emotions that you experienced after his diagnosis. I believe that I am going through some of the same feelings- I want to cherish the time that I have left with him, but every time I see or think about him, I am a complete mess. I don't know how much longer he has, but every time he acts like his old self, I wonder if this will be the last time I see a "healthy" Calvin before his condition truly declines. I know that the decision to put him to rest will be one of the most difficult ones for me to make, but I don't want him to suffer-although part of me fears he is hiding a great deal of pain already. Anyway, your story really means a lot to me. Your and Bugsy's story has helped me cope with ours more than anything the vet has provided thus far. Thank you.

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      anonymous 6 years ago

      Well, I sobbed my eyes out while reading your story. My Sable will be 17 Nov 2, 2010, but she was discovered to have oral cancer only a few weeks ago. In that short time, the hideous mass has run the length of the side of her tongue underneath and turned it sideways. Anything I do to give her pills or the tiniest drop of liquid medicine produces bloody slobbering. I know her time is very near, and I found your article while looking up what to expect. Unfortunately, what you have written, and what I have seen in other posts here tell me Sable will not simply go to sleep and not wake up, as I'd hoped, but she will essentially be her normal self, except for the beast eating her mouth up while she is hungry and thirsty, and eager to love and be loved. It seems so unfair. She has survived many brushes with death in her lifetime. She has been dealing with an enlarging heart, hypertension, and early chronic renal failure, and has been holding her own against them all, with the help of medications and dedication. This is something none of our most heroic actions and desires can overcome, and it's so hard to admit defeat. Thank you for helping me see, no matter how it hurts, I will have to make the ultimate decision for Sable when the time comes. I'm so sorry for your loss of Bugsy, but I can tell you gave him a wonderful lifetime on earth.

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      anonymous 6 years ago

      my 14 year old cat has been diagnosed with oral cancer a week ago. im such a mess now, worrying about what to do with my cat as she lives with us in the house and im scared that her drooling will cause any infections etc to human. called up a few vet and their solution is to keep her hair short and keep cleaning her so that will keep her comfortable and clean. poor Kenit (my cat), she has never been a problem, was never seriously sick just this once. after reading your experience, it gives me some insights and thoughts of how to take care of Kenit. My heart goes to Bugsy. Im sure hes in cat's heaven swimming in milk river.

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      Lisa Marie Gabriel 6 years ago from United Kingdom

      I lost my first beautiful Persian to a mammary cancer years ago, it was spotted and dealt with very early but cancer is so aggressive in cats. She had about a further 18 months with us, 14 months of that was healthy following the first surgery. After the second, the ending was inevitable. It brings tears to my eyes to read this knowing what you went through. Hugs to you, and a lens blessing today. Lisa

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      Thank you for sharing your story. My heart goes out to you. I just lost my little girl today who had the same thing. Perhaps they are all in Heaven telling each other about what great parents they had.....

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      I am crying my heart out as I type. My baby girl Bailey was diagnosed with the same thing 2 weeks ago. So far she is still eating, drinking and going outside. She sleeps a lot under our bed, but comes out at night to sit with me on the couch and to sleep with me. I'm not sure how much time she has but I am spending as much time as I can with her with what time she has left.

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      thepartyanimal2 5 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so so sorry to hear that. Cancer Sucks flat out. Hang in there and give your baby lots of lovin' - your heart will tell you what to do. This was one of the hardest things for me to deal with. Again all I can say if follow your heart and u will know when it is time.

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      thepartyanimal2 5 years ago

      @anonymous: I bet they are !!!

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      My 15 year old cat was diagnosed a month ago with dental problems. One month later after 2 bottles of antibiotics and a bill of $1,000, she was no better I took her back and was told it was oral cancer and she had only a couple of weeks left. She had a knot on her jaw, tongue sticking out, could not eat, bad breath, bloody nose. Could the vet really not have seen this a month ago so the $1,000 could have been spent on something that would help her? Today I am taking her to be put down and it breaks my heart. I am hoping it's the right thing to do.....do we ever know?

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      My 15 year old cat was diagnosed a month ago with dental problems. One month later after 2 bottles of antibiotics and a bill of $1,000, she was no better I took her back and was told it was oral cancer and she had only a couple of weeks left. She had a knot on her jaw, tongue sticking out, could not eat, bad breath, bloody nose. Could the vet really not have seen this a month ago so the $1,000 could have been spent on something that would help her? Today I am taking her to be put down and it breaks my heart. I am hoping it's the right thing to do.....do we ever know?

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      thepartyanimal2 5 years ago

      @anonymous: My heart goes out to you and being right where you are I know just how hard it is. I wish the vet would have known this when you 1st brought her - I think it would have given you so much more time to prepare. My vet fortunately knew right away and I was the one that did not want to believe it. You did the right thing !! Hope you are doing ok. Sending Hugs.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      My cat Jub-Jub was supposed to have his surgery to remove this cyst. The doctor didn't complete the surgery because it was discovered to be the cancer. Instead I was given the option to not wake him up from anesthesia. Needless to say I left work early and went to pick up JubJub with my fiancé. We brought him home where he was happy to be and he ate a little bit. I am very thankful to have this time with him for a while. The only way I will have him put to sleep is if he stops eating, is in pain or can not function. Don't get me wrong, he is sick. But his day to go was certainly NOT last Tuesday. He rests a lot and gets up to eat, go for short walks.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      @anonymous: That is because she's worth it! :) My JubJub is certainly worth the extra effort it takes to help him on a little longer. I am so sad, too. The one thing that keeps me happy is that no sickness, nothing at all can EVER end the love we have for each other. That is one thing that this sickness will never EVER have! I think that it's beautiful that you both have this time together. Me and Jub too!

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      This cancer sounds exactly like what my 16 year old cat has... It's been about a week and my family and I cannot afford a vet... We have to put her down tomorrow. I feel miserable about it and wish I had seen this site sooner. I might have been able to do something for her then. Thank you for making this site. I intend to find out if cancer is the cause.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      I LOST MY TABITHA MARIE TODAY TO ORAL CANCER. SHE FOUGHT HARD BUT THE CANCER WAS TOO ADVANCED. THIS CANCER IS VERY AGGRESSIVE AND DESTROYS THE ANIMALS WHO GET IT. I HOPE SOME DAY THEY CURE IT. YOUR STORY MADE ME FEEL BETTER BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL ALONE ANYMORE

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      I just need someone to walk me through this. I am so devastated I can't sleep or think. Are they in pain? I DON'T WANT HER IN PAIN! I know she is going to die but I can't stand this. Please help me get through this. I want her last days to be pain free and as good as they can be, Please help. :( Kat

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      thepartyanimal2 5 years ago

      @anonymous: Kt I am so so sorry. This was so hard for me as well. Depending on how far long they are it can be painful for them. It is never easy to watch our loved ones go through anything like this. All I can say is that you will know when it is time - that is what happened for me. I felt just like you do. Just put their well being in front of your own and show them your unconditional love. Hang in there, but I will never say this is easy.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      I just found out my cat has Squamous Cell Carcinoma.....She was unable to drink water last night or this morning. It was so sad!! She just sat and looked at the water like, why can't I drink? I gave her some in a medicine dropper, but cats like to lapp up their own water. I just put my other cat down last June due to cancer, and now will have to put this one down. My heart aches, I start crying when I think about it....but she never has had to live in pain, so why should I let her now? Keeping her alive is for me, not her. Please pray for me as I do this.

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      thepartyanimal2 5 years ago

      @anonymous: Jordice I am so sorry to hear your news. IT sucks so bad trust me as you know I have been there. Just think of your baby and be strong - you will know what to do - your heart will tell you.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      If I should get too frail and weakAnd pain shall keep me from my sleepThen you know what must be doneFor this last battle can't be wonJust hold me close and talk to meUntil my eyes no longer seeI'm happy now and free from painMy beloved carer, 'til we meet againHope this helps,My cat has cancer above his left eye and I know it's only a matter of time but he'll be in good company with my other cat Lucy and my lovely dog Dippy who both dies 10 years ago.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      Oh my, I cannot stop crying after reading about Bugsy. You are a dear to have done this. My 13 year old kitty, Tango, was diagnosed with the same cancer just over a week ago. She too has a swollen lower jaw which is increasing from the left over to the right. It is so aggressive and multiplies so very quickly. She has a tumor under her tongue and it has doubled in size in just 2 weeks. She is still able to eat the special soft food the vet brought us and drinking is still ok too, but you can see she has to go about both in a different manner. Our wonderful vet makes home calls only and will be here when the time comes for her to "fly with the angels". I know it will be obvious when it is her time. He says it could be as soon as 2 or 3 weeks - I cannot bear the thought. I try to keep a stiff upper lip for her, but as you know, it is impossible. Her buddy Jazz will miss her so much. Tango, we love you so very, very much - you will remain in our hearts forever my darling little Princess. Life will not be the same without you. xxxxoooo

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Hi. My name is Terry. Zacky's Mom. I'm sitting here reading your story, tears racing down my face. Last night, my 15 year old kitty Zacky and I spent 4 hours at the emergency Vet. We arrived at 9:00 PM and we arrived home at 1:00 AM. Our story is identical to yours with Bugsy down to the last detail. The Dr. took Zacky from my arms and was back within an hour or so. When she came back in the room she said "your cat has a massive tumor on his tongue on the right side that stretches from the back to withing centimeters of the tip of his tongue. She told me that this type of cancer spreads quickly and that we were talking about a matter of weeks unless we choose to treat his cancer with radiation, chemo etc. My mind was racing as I attempted to absorb this information. I'm absolutely numb and I spent all night asking myself how I could just sit back and treat the symptoms without treating the cancer. I cannot bear to watch my kitty suffer. He's only had symptoms I've been able to recognize for a day or two and watching him in pain, unable to eat or drink has been unbearable. Our Dr., as did yours, sent us home with a 2 day supply of Buprenex (painkiller) . It was in a syringe that we give him orally every 8 hours. They shot him up with a powerful antibiotic which will last 2 weeks and a 2 day supply dose of his pain meds.. The Doc then sat with me and explained our options. We either go to the extreme with chemo etc or keep Zacky comfortable as long as possible and we would know when it was time. My heart is breaking. Again, how can I sit back and do nothing? Zacky is my love. My husband and I bought him for my son when he was just 2. He's a part of our family. I want to thank you so much for posting your story. I felt so lost and so alone. Reading about Bugsy helped me to understand that whatever we do, we will do out of love. I just need to know that I'm doing this for him...to relieve him of pain and not for myself because it's too painful for ME to watch. When we got home, Zacky was still drooling like crazy but he drank like a fish and ate like I've never seen him eat. The doc gave him a prescription moist food called a/d which he loved and was able to eat with no problem at all, In my own twisted mind, I had myself convinced that she was wrong and that he's on the mend because after all, she didn't do a biopsy...maybe her diagnosis is inaccurate. After reading your story however, and viewing Bugsy's photos...I'm convinced now more than ever, that my sweet kitty has Cancer. Biopsy or not, our decision will be the same. I cannot put him through the pain of Cancer treatment. She even said we could insert a feeding tube when he stops being able to eat. I don't think so!Thank you so very much for sharing your story. I know I'm reaching out to another cat lover who can sincerely feel my pain. I just hope I can find the strength you found during a horribly difficult time.Prayers to Bugsy up above and to you for continuing to love Bugsy by helping others.Terry (Zacky's heartbroken Mom)

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Hi. My name is Terry. Zacky's Mom. I'm sitting here reading your story, tears racing down my face. Last night, my 15 year old kitty Zacky and I spent 4 hours at the emergency Vet. We arrived at 9:00 PM and we arrived home at 1:00 AM. Our story is identical to yours with Bugsy down to the last detail. The Dr. took Zacky from my arms and was back within an hour or so. When she came back in the room she said "your cat has a massive tumor on his tongue on the right side that stretches from the back to withing centimeters of the tip of his tongue. She told me that this type of cancer spreads quickly and that we were talking about a matter of weeks unless we choose to treat his cancer with radiation, chemo etc. My mind was racing as I attempted to absorb this information. I'm absolutely numb and I spent all night asking myself how I could just sit back and treat the symptoms without treating the cancer. I cannot bear to watch my kitty suffer. He's only had symptoms I've been able to recognize for a day or two and watching him in pain, unable to eat or drink has been unbearable. Our Dr., as did yours, sent us home with a 2 day supply of Buprenex (painkiller) . It was in a syringe that we give him orally every 8 hours. They shot him up with a powerful antibiotic which will last 2 weeks and a 2 day supply dose of his pain meds.. The Doc then sat with me and explained our options. We either go to the extreme with chemo etc or keep Zacky comfortable as long as possible and we would know when it was time. My heart is breaking. Again, how can I sit back and do nothing? Zacky is my love. My husband and I bought him for my son when he was just 2. He's a part of our family. I want to thank you so much for posting your story. I felt so lost and so alone. Reading about Bugsy helped me to understand that whatever we do, we will do out of love. I just need to know that I'm doing this for him...to relieve him of pain and not for myself because it's too painful for ME to watch. When we got home, Zacky was still drooling like crazy but he drank like a fish and ate like I've never seen him eat. The doc gave him a prescription moist food called a/d which he loved and was able to eat with no problem at all, In my own twisted mind, I had myself convinced that she was wrong and that he's on the mend because after all, she didn't do a biopsy...maybe her diagnosis is inaccurate. After reading your story however, and viewing Bugsy's photos...I'm convinced now more than ever, that my sweet kitty has Cancer. Biopsy or not, our decision will be the same. I cannot put him through the pain of Cancer treatment. She even said we could insert a feeding tube when he stops being able to eat. I don't think so!Thank you so very much for sharing your story. I know I'm reaching out to another cat lover who can sincerely feel my pain. I just hope I can find the strength you found during a horribly difficult time.Prayers to Bugsy up above and to you for continuing to love Bugsy by helping others.Terry (Zacky's heartbroken Mom)

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Our much loved and spoilt soppy siamese has this awful thing too,he has had it a few months now, and Im sure we will have to make that heartbreaking decision soon. He too has all the syptomds of Bugsy, he is now losing weight, smells awful, despite our help in grooming, the smell comes from his mouth, we got a second opinion, hoping our lovely vet was wrong for once, but the 2nd opinion vet wanted to put him down there and then !! He is not in pain we are sure,but he gets nearer his end daily, im sitting here writing this with tears running down my face , for Bugsy, and for anticipation of what we have to come. Our only consolation is , he was a rescue cat, and he has had the best of everything since coming to us, loved so much and spoilt terribly, adored by the whole family, he has had a great life, the best cat ever.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Very sad as Ashby, our 18 year old cat seems to be exhibiting the same symptoms as yours! I'm in tears reading your story!

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry to hear that - I know how bad it hurts, prayers being sent ur way

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry to hear this - it is so hard and I am sure you gave him the best life and all ur love. Follow your heart and I am sending prayers your way. Xxx

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I am crying just reading your story. We took our Half Pint, 13 years old, to the vet today. He has the same exact symptoms that your Bugsy had. We were told he could be in the early stages of cancer or the FIV virus is progressing. I am so sorry. My Half Pint looks just like your Bugsy as well. They were almost twins.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you for writing Bugsy's story. I just said goodbye to my cat today, he would've been 17 in a few months. He had the same cancer and his story is almost identical to your kitty's. We were lucky to have him for 3 mo after his diagnosis and controlled his pain as much as possible with bupernophine and an anti-inflamatory drug. It's still unbelievable that he won't be slinking around the corner wanting a snuggle. RIP Dolomite "max" McElroy. I hope he and Bugsy's are playing together while they wait for us by the rainbow.:)

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      So hard reading because I am going through this now with Koda, my cat of 10 years old. He was diagnosed with OSCC on July 23, 2012. I thought too, I would never hear those words...cancer, and to top it off the worse kind he could get. Right now I am trying to keep him comfortable with meds and trying to get him to eat enough and drink. Reading and seeing the pictures helps me to prepare for what will soon have to happen. My cats are my babies, and it will not be easy to make that call. But Koda will let me know his life is not fun anymore and I need to set him free from this pain and turmoil. The mass has grown in less than a month and it is getting difficult for him to eat and drink. Grooming, I have been helping him also cleaning his fur as long as he lets me. I am so sorry for your loss, but it's people like you who find healing in letting others know what you have gone through. I believe it helps people like me now having to go through it, push forward. This Oral Squamous Cell Carcinoma is a nasty disease. I wish that no one had to go through it. Bugsy will be waiting for you, but for now his love will live on in your heart. I hope I can be strong for my cat, Koda and can share my memories so tears will be replaced with smiles.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I am so sad of the loss of your beloved Bugsy. I am now facing this same fate with my 10 year old cat, Koda. He was diagnosed July 23, 2012 with what I thought was an infection to a tooth. To my horror I heard the vet say there is something under his tongue. It was OSCC and the worse kind he could have. There is nothing that can be done other than trying to keep him comfortable with meds. It has been almost a month since hearing those words and I am seeing my baby Koda fade every so quickly. The eating and drinking is becoming almost nonexistent, and it pains me to see him this way. I cry every day knowing I am one step closer to having to let him go. I have done lots to prepare myself with taking pictures and soon going to do his paw prints. Hard to try to do pictures now as at times there is a stream of drool coming from his mouth, and the bottom of his jaw is looking swollen. My vet said he may have between 1-3 months, and right now I think 3 months is pushing it. I don't wish this on anyone, it is a cruel disease. But reading about what you went through made me realize I am not alone. I too have 6 cats, which includes Koda. I have adopted them from shelters and had them as strays that someone left on a side road as a kitten. They all mean the world to me and I had hoped to never have one go this way. There will be a big void, but I know I will have to push on for the other 5 when Koda crosses that Rainbow Bridge to be with my other fur babies who have since crossed over, Niki, Miko, Missy, Mindy, and my dog Sam. They will be waiting to greet him and take care of him until I join them all one day. For those reading this, and who are going through it my heart breaks for you, because mine is breaking now. RIP Bugsy, you were loved and still are. Thank you for sharing your story.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Monday, August 20, 2012 I had to send my almost 11 year old Siamese mix Kitty Girl over the Rainbow Bridge due to oral cancer. Huge tumors were in the back of her mouth. She could still eat and drink water, but stopped grooming a year ago and had lost her voice. Always was pushing the rt side of her neck into my hand and was drooling a lot. I could have done the antibiotic/pain med thing, but since she was a feral I knew she would not let give her meds. So I did my last act of love to my sweet kitty who was born in my backyard in 2001. I held her as she went over the bridge. I'm so broken now. No kitty to great me each day. :( RIP Kitty Girl I love you.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      thank you for sharing...we are going through the same thing..

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      My cat has this same diagnosis. I am very sad. I was hoping the cancer would be slow growing, the vet didn't say it was fast growing. I'm still numb.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I just read your blog about Bugsy. I am going through this exact thing right now with my cat, Bailey. She is 16 1/2 and we just found out 1 1/2 wks ago. I'm afraid when we go to the Vet this Friday that it will be to say goodbye. That SUCKS!! I've been feeding raw to my girls for six years now and the vet was really impressed with the excellent condition Bailey is in other than this horrible cancer. I am not ready to lose my girl, but I am NOT going to let her suffer, even if it kills me. I lost my Eskie dog two years ago this month, too. She was just shy of 16. My only consolation is that Bailey and Muffy will be reunited at Rainbow Bridge, waiting for the rest of us. I pray that Bailey's sister, Bear, DOES NOT get cancer. This is too hard. I have a new Eskie who will be 1 year old on Sept. 13. My heart is breaking. Thank you for writing the blog because now I know I'm not alone.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I am just in the beginning stages of squamous cell carcinoma in my 22 year old little girl, Minou!!!! She's been such a trooper throughout her life. She survived the surgery of removing the tumor, but it was throughout the tissue, so I'm sure it's in her jaw. It's just a matter of time. I did get some naturpathic meds on line for kitties with cancer and am anxiously awaiting them. I know it's not a cute, but it could increase her time with me. I know your pain well. Thanks for sharing your experience. It helps me!!!!

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      im so sorry for ur Bugsy. i still can't keep from crying as i read his story. ive had my Boots for 17 yres now and he has cancer in his cheek. i look at him everyday and think of all the luv hes given me these yrs. i know he will be going soon and i will be forever grateful to have had him in my life.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you so much for this. It has helped to get me through the same thing.. I have so much grief and miss my girl so much. She was about 14 yrs. old. We got her from a shelter 8 years ago and they weren't sure of her exact age. I loved her so much. I can hardly believe she is gone.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      i had to put my cat down today, it was hard, i couldn't be selfish and let her suffer anymore. we found her on the street, all she ever wanted was love and comfort. when we found her she was a mess, we took her to the vets and had passed all things with flying colors. all time she spent outside in the sun killed her without us knowing. we all cry here and now i know i will see her once again all animal go to heaven. it was her time and GOD BLESS HER LITTLE HEART. CAN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT HER, ITS HARD.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I cried all through this , Im going thru the same thing trying to come to terms on letting him go and after reading how much pain he was in , is helping me to let go. we had it removed and now he is drooling and the smell they put him on more antibotics , I guess I needed to come across this article so I can know this is the right thing to do ! thank you

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      My heart is breaking while reading this . . . I will be going through the same thing shortly when I have to put my 18 1/2 year old kitty down. I don't know how I will be able to do it, but thanks for sharing your story. At least I know my feelings are not my own.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Your story is heart breaking. I've had to do it before and tomorrow I have to do it again. Midnight our cat also has mouth cancer. It's come to the point where I know it has to be done. He was my fathers cat. My dad died 3 years ago and I inherited the little guy. This somehow seems even worse -my heart goes out to anyone who is faced with this.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      My baby Minky was just diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma. Her tumor is located under tongue and is the size of a large marble. I was so focused the past couple of months on my other cat who was diagnosed with diabetes that I missed all the signs. She had bad breath, she meowed different. The guilt I feel is huge b/c this is my baby. My first animal who has been nothing but there for me. She's rare - a female orange tabby. So, no surgery can be done and they say she has about a month to live. She just started drooling and is having difficulty eating although she does not give up. This will be the first time I ever put an animal down and I just don't know how I'm going to do this. I'm single and live alone with my two babies.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I am afraid that I need to call the vet tomorrow to put down my kitty Morgan. She is six years old and very shy but very affectionate as well. She was diagnosed with Squamous Cell Carcinoma in her ear that has already eaten through her eardrum and part of her brain two weeks ago. I took her to the emergency vet on Saturday because she suddenly couldn't control her back legs. Tonight she fell face first into her water bowl and couldn't get back up without me. I hate to think of her drowning because I can't watch her every moment. I have a nine year old son with depression and I am struggling with letting her go because I don't know what effect it will have on him. I can't manage to sleep because I fear him waking up before me and finding her dead. I wish there was some sign she was sick but she never meowed and always wanted to cuddle. The first sign of a problem was when she shook her head and blood came out of her ear. By then it was too late to help her. We are all heartbroken.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: OMG I am so sorry to hear your news. All I can say is you will know what to do and it seems you already do. It is one of the hardest decisions you will have to make, but you have to think of the cat. Sometimes being a pet owner is so hard. MY heart breaks for you and your family during this time.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      My cat, Sadie, has the exact same problem. I didn't realize she had the huge mass on her face and jaw until a few months ago. She became deaf and blind almost at the same time a few months ago. She started drooling, and then it became bloody drool. She has a lot of difficulty eating, so I have been feeding her canned food in the morning and dry food soaked in milk in the afternoon. Her mouth look HORRIBLE inside. She even has a hole which is bleeding. The only think that makes me wonder about her is the fact that she is eating like crazy, like she can't get enough to eat. Her face, though, looks like Bugsy's (only much bigger). I feel almost certain it is cancer but can't be sure. She is approximately. She is such a good cat.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I can't even tell you how heart breaking your story was to me. I'm in the same situation with my cat Fuffins. She's 13 years old and I just found out last Friday that she has a tumor in her mouth. It's pretty large and encompasses the right lower jaw. I too noticed something was wrong when she began drooling more than usual and pawing at her face. I felt around and noticed it was swollen. I made an appointment for her the next day and the first thing the vet said was it was bad news. I won't torture her with chemo and radiation because I don't think it would do much but make her suffer. I found some homeopathic medicine and am waiting for that to come in to see if it'll help. Maybe it'll shrink it at least. I've been praying over her every night in the hopes that our merciful God will heal her. I have three other animals, another cat (Sneakers) who is 24 and two dogs (Brandy - 10, and Rocky - 3). I don't want to have to put her to sleep. I imagine it would be so terrible to make that decision for her.....but on the other hand, I don't want her to suffer. I'm sorry you have had to go through this, and I wish I wasn't going through it. I am confident though that our loving pets are waiting for us on the other side. I hope you can find some comfort in that. For me, that's all I have.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Today I put my loved TJ down due to cancer. I took him to the vet because he had a little loss of appetite. He only started drooling two days ago. The vet knew as soon as he looked in TJ's mouth. He had lost his own kitty to this horrible cancer a couple of years ago. My heart is broken as TJ is only 10 years old. I rescused her eight years ago, and she has been my love for these eight years. I wasn't prepared as I thought she only had a tooth problem. Our pets rarely outlive us so we should be aware of this possibility, but the loss of those we love is always devastating be they human or animal. RIP TJ...thank you for all the love.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thankyou so much for sharing your experience with us. Bugsy looks very much like my Ollie, who had cancer and made his journey to rainbow bridge today. There is no pain like it but I thank God that we got 3 precious weeks with him, I know I had made the right decision when I wrapped him in his blanket for his final journey. I'm sure Ollie & Bugsy are frollicking with the butterflies as we speak. :)X x

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you for sharing that. Our cat Harold has SQCC and has deteriorated massively in just a week. He's 22 and is having trouble eating. The vet has given him some painkillers but he doesn't look right to me. Your account above gave me some idea of what I should be looking for. He's still drinking ok thankfully. But we're due to go to the vets tomorrow. Let's see what they say. Thank you....Your story has REALLY helped.xx

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry for this news - it is never easy. All part of pet ownership, but the worst part for sure.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry. ;0(

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry for this news - I really hate this part of pet ownership but you did the right thing for your little one. Never ever easy.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am glad you found my page, but also wish you did not have to look for it. I miss my Bugsy everyday still and it was not easy to go through. I am sure you have made the best decision you needed to and it comes from the heart.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am sorry for the delay in my response, but this is never easy. I hope things went smoothly for you and it has been some time since you wrote this - I could only hope it was not this at all, but something tells me I am wrong.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you for posting this. It was very hard for me to read, as my cat (who is 15 and a half years old) was just diagnosed with oral squamous cell carcinoma. She also has an abscess infection on the outside of her neck, opposite the cancer on her throat inside. Of course, it is inoperable. We don't know if we will do radiation or not. I am sorry, truly, for your loss with Bugsy and Hubcap. I have had Feisty since I was 6 (and I'm 21 now).. and I don't know what I will do without her. I've grown up with her, and I can't imagine a day without her. I hope that we can make her life easier and happy for whatever amount she has left.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry for what you are going through and having been there I know how very hard it is to watch. All I can say as I have written in the page is that you will know what to do when it is time to do it - follow your heart and put your baby first which is so very hard. She is your baby and do not let any one tell you how to handle it. Good luck and my prayers go out to you and Feisty.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      We are experiencing end stage oral squamous cell carcinoma with our 20+ year old cat, Fred. Our hearts go out to all of you and thank you for sharing your experiences. Our sympathies on your loss of Bugsy. We have fed raw for the last 10 years and Fred loves to eat and we, too, learned that it's easier for him if we "hill" it up on the plate so that he can grab it. This is also the time to mix in their favorite foods, whatever they love to eat - be it tuna with water, sardines, etc. Kitties with cancers tend to suffer wasting and anorexia and it's important to keep them eating as long as possible by making their food extra enticing. We also take him outside daily, carrying him in our arms, for fresh air and to keep his spirits up. I think when they indicate they want to go outside it's a sign of their deep wired wild ancestry - to go off into the woods to pass. We know that we're down to our final days with him (we've rescued 19 cats over the years and unfortunately, seen more than our share of cancers). We've arranged with our vet for her to come to our house for euthanasia when his time comes. I try not to cry in front of him, but it's becoming exceedingly difficult. It helps so much to share with others that have gone through this - Hearts to you all.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I can't believe I am a full grown man but your story left me in floods of tears. My poor little baby that we got from a shelter after he was found in a plastic bag in a bin (appox 8 years old) when we got him that was 12 years ago has got a tumour on the underside of his tongue which we believe is OSCC took him to the vets today and he is now on storiods and antiboiatics hoping it will shrink and that the vet is wrong. I don't know what I will do if I have to put him to sleep I can't bear to be without him, but I don't him to suffer, at the moment he is still eating and drinking, but the smell and his drolling is awful and I blame myself for not noticing it before. I pray for him to be better and I cherish every minute he is with me and would willingly take the growth for him. Sorry its so hard to write this and I just seem to be babbling on. I am taking photos everyday of him and spoiling him more and more as each day passes to ensure his last days are the best ever. My heart goes out to everyone in this positon and my prays are with you all and I hope you will all pray for my little BOB as well.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry you are going through this and I will pray what Bob has is not this, but sounds just like it. Thank You for sharing your story and I will pray for him and all I can say is follow your heart as hard as it may be. I miss my Bugsy still each and everyday.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: Thanks for haring your story and I know all to well how hard this is. As I say to all just follow your heart. I will keep u in my prayers.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      @thepartyanimal2: Thank you for your kind and heart felt words

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Unfortunately, on November 15, 2012, with a terrible flood of mixed emotions and extremely heavy heart had to place my 8 yr. old Fuzzy Nuzzler to rest due to Oral Cancer. Fuzzy's cancer was aggressive, within 3 weeks of noticing a red mushroom shaped growth under her tongue, I had to lay her to sleep. Fuzzy was scheduled for surgery in the hopes that the growth was benign and that Fuzz would be comfortable eating and drinking once again. On a Friday before her surgery, her liver count was in the 20's, by the following Wednesday (the day of surgery) her liver count was over 600. And the growth now covered more than 50% under her tongue. By this time, Fuzzy had been exactly as Bugsy was up until taking her to be put to sleep. Every moment which I spent with her was cleaning her up from her constant drooling, feedling her wet food through a syringe, giving her water through a syringe. That Wednesday (the day of her surgery) I just couldn't find the courage within myself to lay her to sleep then, I didn't want to believe that which I was witnessing in front of me...I couldn't help or fix her and it broke my heart. I found Fuzzy, well, more like she found me when she was approx. 4mnths oldand I was approx 1 mnth pregnant with my only son. I remember the day like it was yesterday, and to write it now, just makes me sad and cry more just writing about it. Fuzzy was more like baby, and I was her mommie. Fuzzy was not interested in being with anyone else in my household, and was by my side no matter where in the house. So back to Wednesday night, I brought home to make her comfortable and be with her one last night. I had asked her vet how much longer could I wait to bring her, she advised that it could be up to 2 days. Knowing how rapidly felines progress in any stage of illness, I knew deep inside that I most likely wouldn't even have 2 days. Fuzzy always sleeps with me, that night she was interested in sleeping with me (she slept in my late grandmom's rocker curled in a ball), nor was Fuzzy interested in anything other than sleeping. I fed her some water, food was completely out of the question as Fuzzy had started vomitting food and water that very evening I was bringing her home. My mind raced and wandered all night and the next morning with dread. I had older cats than Fuzzy and I just took it for granted that Fuzzy would be around longer...but my heartache was worse knowing that I wouldn't see her grow into an old lady. And that my four-legged child was going to be gone! You know, courage is wonderous ability one can have, until you really need to have it. And my inability to get one ounce of courage was higher than my ability to have an ounce. After hours of fighting within myself and still no courage mustered, I called the vets office and told them that I just couldn't do it. The Vet Tech, who knew Fuzzy really well and knows me even better, gave me some insight of what could be Fuzzy's demise, within most likely the next day, if I couldn't go through with it. I work, so I certainly didn't want Fuzzy to be alone or in pain, and that's the reality, whether anyone likes it or not of what could possibly happen. I wanted to believe, as most loving pet owners do believe, that our sick pets will pass peacefully and silently in their sleep. And I can say without a doubt, that the only way that dream is a reality is truly by making the decision we so often do not want to make or witness. I have had to put a couple other furry family members to sleep due to renal failure, liver failure etc.., so I knew what to expect, and peaceful this process is compared to not doing it. And I hate it no matter how I'm told its for the best and how I am now typing to all who reads this, its for the best. It really is for the best interest of the one furry family member, who've watched grow, whom you have rescued and for whom you've dedicated to be entirely responsible for no matter what. I borrowed my Vet Tech's courage November 15, 2012. And I drove with Fuzzy in my arms, vomitting when we parked, Fuzzy barely wanting nothing (by now she was not interested even in me). I sat her on the table, and she was nothing like she had ever been. Fuzzy's liver damage reared its ugly head. Wednesday she showed only small sign of liver failure, but within 24 hours her underbelly, gums and inner ears were yellow, as if I had used a yellow highlighter to color her skin. Now, I was more distraught and ashamed that I had not gather myself and my courage together to take her earlier that day or placed her to sleep the night before. I stayed with her the entire time, just like I had with the others. But this time was so so different, muct more painful. I always tried before to hold back tears until it was over, so that my feeling were not transmitted entirely to my departing furry family members. This time I couldn't hold back my tears and wept while apologizing to my Fuzzy Nuzzler. I feel the same now as I did then, only time has forced me adjust to her absence, not a day goes by that I don't somehow find a way to shed a tear about her or speak her name. I lost my mom 2 years ago after a serious 4 yr. battle with her 20 yrs of having diabetes. There are a lot days when I wish my mom was here, esp the day I had to let my 8yr old furry child go.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      @thepartyanimal2: Well today was the day of bad news, took Bob back to the vets after his trail on his tablets etc. The vet said that the tumour had shrink a little but was still causing Bob problems, we were offered an operation to try and remove the tumour and part of his tongue without any garuntree that it would work or that it would not come back. The vet is a friend and was very honest with me and offered to let Bob have the operation and if he thought that it had gone to deep etc then he would let Bob go to sleep on the table, I asked the vet if Bob was his cat what would he do and he said it would be best to let him go to sleep in my arms today with a loving and friendly face to help him pass over. As Bob was having problems eating, drinking and grooming over the last few days I decieded to do what's best for him and let him be in peace and pain free, so I held him tight in my arms and cuddled him looking into his eyes telling him how much I loved him and that I was letting him go for his sake and that I didn't want him to suffer, I sat with him in floods of tears and let him pass over to a happier pain free life. Never has an animal touched my heart as much as my dear old best friend Bob. I love you Bob and not one day will pass that I wont miss you. Wait for me in that special place over the rainbow and one day we will together again to play and love.Thank you all for your prayers to help Bob along on his special trip.BOB gone but never forgotten xxxxxx

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I type this with tears in my eyes knowing exactly how hard this is to do, but do know you did the right thing as hard as it is. Send you big hugs.

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: The tears are flowing down my face as I read your post. It brought me back to my last days with my Bugsy. You are right no matter what the situation is having to make that decision stinks each and every time even though we know inside it is the right thing to do.I am so sorry for you loss, but Fuzzy with always be in your heart as Bugsy lives on in mine as well. Hugs to you

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you for writing this. Helping our beautiful babies cross the "Rainbow Bridge" is never easy. My Duchess has this nasty, nasty cancer (of course, all cancer is nasty), but what I haven't been (and still am not) prepared for is that my Duchess acts PERFECTLY FINE! Her cancer has grown immensely (hers is in her right front tooth, upper jaw, now reaching up towards her eye and slowly taking over the upper jaw). When the vet told me just to take her home and love her, I expected her to go into an "all body" failure type situation. Not the case. She is acting as if nothing is wrong, yet this tumor is so horribly nasty. The vet feels she must be in pain and she is on pain meds now while we finish our goodbyes. I guess it would be "easier" if she had other signs of being sick, but she has none. Bless you for sharing your story. XO

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      thepartyanimal2 4 years ago

      @anonymous: I am so sorry for your news. Do as the vet said just give her extra love and you know your baby the best. When the times come she will tell you, but for now spoil her rotten. I am sending you big hugs!!!

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I know exactly how it feels. It just rips u apart. The only way to get thriugh it is to tell yourself you will be with your babies again someday.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Oh man, I'm so much in tears!!! my Boots was just diagnosed with cancer on Sunday, it's now Tuesday.. he is now eating and drinking. he is hiding under my bed right now sleeping. Boots is 16 yrs old I LOVE himto death i have never went thru something like this.. I had a mini rex bunny die in my arm s a few years ago he wasn't even a year.. Thank you for writing your experience about Bugsy.. what a wonderful cat Boots landed on my porch 16 years ago no bigger than my hand he was so tiny.. he has extra toes on his front paws so I named him BOOTS He has been the best cat so full of love & personality.. hugs to you

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      Thank you for sharing this, My lil 13 y/o buddy Dusty has a bump on his jaw. He's a rescue from 10 years ago, I wasn't a cat person, he made me one. Brought him to the vet she took a sample and they found abnormal traces of SCC in his blood. Thursday I go for a biopsy but the vet told me it's not going to be good. She was very against radiology, I got the feeling she feels it's inhumane and somewhat selfish to put your cat through that for such a small chance of survival and I can't say I disagree.I know her telling me this it's bad, next month it'll be 2 years since I lost my other cat Spot, who was also 13, to kidney failure and when that happened she was more on the positive side about treatments.What's killing me the most, aside from the obvious, is not only is dusty a tough little guy but out side the bump he's not showing ANY signs of being sick which is making this so much harder. With spot I KNEW something was wrong and was able to stay with him as he passed naturally. I hate that I won't be able to do this with Dusty.For now I'm just giving him more attention than he can handle. Thank you again for sharing this.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      I'm really glad I found this--just hearing other people's grief has helped some. My awesome sweet completely healthy 15 y/o Tortie has just been diagnosed with prob. squamous cell Ca of her mouth. I didn't even know cats got such a thing!! I'm in shock--I have 2 older cats who are chronically ill and I'd be ready for bad news with them. I thought this little sweetheart and I would have a couple of yrs alone together someday.My vet is insisting on a biopsy and I guess I need to do it to find out what is really going on, but I don't know if I should put her thru it--she's been losing wt for 3 months--unexplained wt loss in people most always means cancer. Please pray for us if you pray. And thanks for loving your cats like I love mine. The Rainbow Bridge is ahead. I hope what's between now and then isn't too hard on her.

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      anonymous 4 years ago

      devastated,my 18 year old cat,who i love dearly,was yesterday diagnoised with mouth cancer,i crnt stop crying,she was given 2 injections if they don't work we will have to have her put to sleep in 2 weeks

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      anonymous 3 years ago

      Thank you for writing this article. I cried like a baby reading it, but it did make me feel not as alone with what I'm going through. My 10 yr old cat, Lilo, was just diagnosed with this type of cancer this week. He showed very few signs & even had a teeth cleaning a month & a half ago & this wasn't caught. But it doesn't look good & he's hiding more & eating a little less. I lost his brother, Stitch, 6 months ago overnight due to a heart issue. My heart has never broken so much & now I am having to go through it again. I have never had to make this type of decision (when to put a cat down) & I wouldn't wish the pain of doing so on my worst enemy. I'm just trying to figure out when it's time, but that will be the worst day of my life. While nothing will take away the pain I have in all of this, it helped reading this & the Rainbow Bridge was so sweet to read. I'm going to print that out to look at when I am really feeling sad. I wish all of you peace in having to deal with similar issues that I am having to.

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      anonymous 3 years ago

      Thank you for this. I found a large maxillary tumor on my 19 y/o cat last night. I knew what it was as soon as I saw it. The vet today confirmed my- suspicions weeks to months. He's been my buddy since I was 19 y/o. I'm 39 now. He's still in good spirits, but I know what is coming... and the thought is hard to deal with. They are close family members.

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      anonymous 3 years ago

      Thank You, thank you!! My 12 year old himalayan cat was diagnosed with mouth cancer a couple months ago. It was extremely painful to watch him fade away. I found this and it helped me to accept the fact that he would be leaving our family. I actually was in denial about his diagnosis and felt so helpless and numb knowing there was nothing I could do to save his life! When I found your article and the photos of your beloved cat Bugsy I knew I was not alone and It was very helpful to me during my time of despair. It was such a cruel way for my cat to die. Everyday I could see that he was struggling more each. His quality of life became poor pretty quick. The photos you posted resembled how my cat looked with the cancerous tumor that was growing rapidly. my husband found your article and encouraged me to read it one night and at that moment I knew we were nearing the end. Thanks for sharing your experience. It was almost identical to what we were dealing with therefore I knew i was not alone. I have since then become a proud owner of 2 new loving ragdoll kittens in memory of my deceased himalayan that i loved dearly. Pets are family and it is painful to lose a pet.

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      anonymous 3 years ago

      @anonymous: This is the same thing thar happened to me. My cat when in for a cleaning and an extraction. 2 weeks later he was back at the vet but this time a diagnosis of mouth cancer!!! I could not believe it was not discovered at the time of his cleaning. Very devastating.

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      ChicagoDre 3 years ago

      Thank you for writing this beautiful story. We to had to make that horrible decision to let our Emma go when her kidney disease got the best of her. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do and even know it was the best thing we could have done for her the guilt is heavy on my heart.Now 8 months later we are faced with another challenge with out other girl. Like your bugsy, Sophia no faces the chance she has cancer in her mouth. We pray that her biopsy comes back cancer free put we are preparing for the worst and will give her the best care no matter what! God bless you for taking such good care of your fur children!

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      Anonynous 21 months ago

      Omg. Right now my 16 year old white Manx, Maxx was diagnosed with oral squamous cell cancer. He had radioisotope treatment for hyperthyroidism on June 30 and I was so looking forward to him having a better quality of life and be with us for a couple years longer. I took him back to my primary vet for a 1 month thyroid check and we both had seen a slight swelling on his chin. She looked inside his mouth and thought he might have an infection so he got a 2 week antibiotic shot. I returned in 9

      days and told her to go ahead with dental surgery if needed. She took an X-ray and came back

      comparing a text book picture and his X-ray to help me understand. His bottom jaw was deteriorating.

      We had spent the last few months trying to get his thyroid and diabetes regulated as he had lost a lot of weight. All this time not knowing about this insidious disease! She had given me a referral to a specialty vet surface. To be honest I still go back and forth calling them while this disease is getting worse but with the prognosis even after treatment is not much better.

      I have been giving him piroxacam and softening his food with warm water as someone else mentioned. I also have been trying spoon feeding and have some Hill's a/d on hand. I think it is like baby food.

      I am so heart broken as I had just did the iodine 131 treatment to cure his thyroid and now this! It is not about the money but the hope for him to be comfortable for a while. It is a cruel irony. I appreciate reading everyone's story and I hope some day that better treatment becomes available. I was going to look for clinical trials.

      My heart goes out to everyone.

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