Another day Another Dollar_Isnt that what we say
I'd like to start by saying I work for a landscape company. Which means I'm a full-time seasonal employee who only works 9 months out of the year. That means I have 3 months of winter to do what I please. Most people would say the three months off is the best part but I disagree. I actually really enjoy my 9 months when I'm working. My only problem with my job is myself. I know it may seem like a weird thing to say, but it's true. As much as I love what I do I can't get past what goes on in my head that causes me to doubt my abilities and question my opportunities. If you keep on reading you will hear the whole story of what it is like to love what you do and at the same time fight with yourself over what happens on a daily basis. Maybe just maybe you or someone you know is the same and it might help to hear this.
I work for a big company in a small town. I say big because we service multiple cities in the surrounding area. I really like the company and their motto. The owner and people that run it are pretty good to work for. I mean they have their moments just like every company but all in all they are likable. I am in the maintenance division which is really why I am writing this because I want to share what it means to love your job.
Another day another dollar, that's a phrase all to often used by working middle-class people who feel their job is just another paycheck. Well don't tell my boss whom I'll refer to as K for this article, but I don't share that opinion. I love my job and I mean it.
Let's back up a bit and do some backstory. Four years ago I was let go from what I thought was going to be a great career in the AG industry, something I am finally at peace with thanks to the woman I am referring to as K. See about a year after I was let go I was working a temp job stocking flowers in local superstores when I saw a company was looking for someone with plant experience to work on there maintenance division. So I thought with my AG background, having taken horticulture classes and done gardening with my mother and grandmother most of life why not apply. I went for the interview where the owner, hr guy and K the head of maintenance was there. I was terrified, but K was there and when I talked her I was a lot less nervous. I don't know what it was but something about her, made me think I really wanted this job and not just because I was having no success getting back into the AG industry. I wanted it because I could tell this was going to be a unique experience with a woman I hope to learn a lot from. Well a few days later I got bad news they had picked someone else and you know what part of me wasn't surprised I had been let down a lot in my job search. I was mostly disappointed in a missed opportunity. Well, I kept at my temp job till it ended and then I got the call. The phone call that said we would like to hire you after all. I was nervous because they turned me down then wanted to hire me and I didn't have a clue why either happened. So, of course, I said yes when do I start even though in the back if mind I was saying they must not really want me because I was the second choice.
If you can't tell, I am really good at putting myself down. It is a very bad habit, one I have tried to rid myself of very unsuccessfully. Most people wouldn't know it but it's true as positive as I am most the time outside of my home inside I am not always happy go lucky me. So yes I was freaked out to have a job again when what I should have been was excited. Looking back now it seems stupid of me to have felt that way because now I wouldn't second guess my decision.
I know I am only a seasonal full-time employee who is fairly new to the game, but as of now, I keep saying I love my job. My first start with the company was rough I only worked a few months before we all were laid off for the winter. I was certain I was going to get a call stating I was not to come back for the next season. After all, I was the second choice. But one day K and I had a conversation, something you have a lot of time to do when you're two people driving around in a truck all day, she said something similar to the fact that I was her choice and I think she meant it. Again not good with positive self here so what I heard was just another line to me because I find it hard that I would be anybody's choice.Turns out the other guy who was picked before me was essentially a strong arm, muscle someone who could do heavy lifting and such, opposite of me (I'm short and don't have the appearance of being strong), but having heard that explanation and worked with the crew I could see the logic in the choice of him before me. Now knowing all this it has me all the more great-full and appreciative to be in the position I am in.
To be continued... Revised... and added to....
To be continued... Revised... and added to....
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