I'm what?... FIRED?
Lesson Learned in Failing
Normally, graduating from college is a good thing... eh, not for me. I graduated, oh yes I did, but I left with this empty feeling as if I was missing something (and I'm not referring to the signature on the degree). I'm missing that self assurance; dude, I'm just not ready. But, of course, we all have to be good little citizens in society and apply for those white collar jobs and get us a nice desk in a corner office. I applied for a job- the top ten best paying job for a associates degree (guess I'm a slight underachiever, eh?)-and got it. I became a suit wearing young driven professional living in a conference room; I got a job in advertising.
I am the MASTER
I could tell you anything in regards to marketing and advertising but there was just one small issue- I didn't believe it. How was I going to convince some small local business to invest thousands of dollars in branding and advertising with my local television station when they DON'T HAVE THE MONEY? It's not like 2009 was the greatest year economically. It's not that I couldn't do it, not that I wasn't good at it, I just didn't know how to convince someone to spend money they didn't have-even if it would have helped their business grow. So, because I did not show any progression during my six month session of being, what looked to be, successful, I was fired... along with some other guy; not sure of his name though.
It's an ego buster when your fired- You're a failure, your unemployed, your searching for jobs only to put on your resume that you were fired from you last one... it's a terrible feeling. So I needed a job asap. I applied at a local calling center because, well, they hire about anyone. So, I'm working at a job that I don't even need a degree for... what a waist of student loans. I could apply for another job in my field but what sucks is that my living expenses would out way my income. Life's just not fair, is it.
So I'm back where I started. I feel that same lack of self assurance knowing that this is NOT where I saw myself. The only conclusion I came up with was to go back to school and that idea changed everything. When I graduated, I didn't feel like I was done; I didn't feel like this is the direction I should be going in. Life is tough but I'm not going to fall into that daily routine of unhappiness. The point of this article isn't necessarily to tell my story but to help others realize that you can change whatever you don't like about your life. If you're bored with what you're doing, if your falling into this cycle of nothing, if you HATE waking up and going to work but you know you have to in order to make ends meet, the only person that can change your life is you. So stop complaining and do something about it.
Before I started my degree in Broadcasting I majored in Behavior Health. There is such a need for Psychologists it's unbelievable. I'm going to finish that degree. It's going to talk me an additional five years but I have my scholarships for forensics and after a couple years I will retain my academic scholarships. Knowing this gives me hope that not only will I make myself happy by achieving this goal but also the peace of mind knowing that someday I'm going to change someones life.
What to do now?
I applied at a juvenile detention center. Look at it this way, if I can help some kid with their issues and make some kind of impact then there would be no need for Psychologists. Solve the problem before it becomes a big issue later in life; save a kid from becoming a criminal, giving a child hope that there's more to life than what they expect. You know what really sucks is that no matter how much of an impact I can make, a child is still going to subjected into the same environment-as if forced to perform the same actions. This world is cruel, but I hope to make some kind of difference.
Food for Thought
Don't settle for less, don't feel trapped and most of all, don't be scared to try something new. You have less than a 100 years to live; think how fast your life has gone by so far- that is not much time at all. So, if you're fired, take it as an opportunity. I may be 22 and know absolutely nothing but I do know this: if life is going to push me around, then, damn it, I'm fighting back.