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It Only Takes A Spark: To Keep The Fire Going

Updated on August 14, 2012

"It only takes a spark to keep the fire going."


It was all too good to be true and whatever is too good to be true is oftentimes backed up with some creeping fears of "what ifs"...what if this situation that I am enjoying won't last? What if he will change? What if I am just living in a dream and suddenly I wake up and ooops!


The house we rented was beautiful and new; three bedrooms three bathrooms, the spacious master's bedroom had a beautiful and spacious jacuzzi inside it. At the back of the house was a beautiful cottage for the servants. We had a stay-in housemaid named Lourdes who did all the chores for us in this wonderful house. My 14-year-old daughter Jean, my late husband Adrian and me were the only occupants in this house.


The neighborhood was perfect; across the road was the Korean Mr. Kho, at the right over the fence was the American Mr. Fisher and on the left side was the Filipino Engineer Ratunel.


My New Zealand-er (Kiwi) husband, Adrian Shiels was co-owner of three hotels. There were 16 Australians and New Zealand citizens who pooled together their resources to form a corporation then ran the hotel business in Balibago, Angeles City, Philippines; they ran three hotels there.


I used to work as the bookkeeper and at the same time the manager for the Filipino employees in one of the hotels. But then there were lots of things, activities, and situations in the business that were contradictions to my values system.


So one day I had decided to leave the job; decided to "burn bridges".

In my core belief system was the conviction that I was a born teacher and/or a public speaker or lecturer. The job situation in the hotel had nothing to do with my accepted natural inclinations. I liked the money and the comforts of life alright but what about me? What about my "real me?" What about the "born teacher" that was screaming deep inside me?

I had been a teacher since time immemorial; even when I was barely 9 years old, I was already a "Sabbath School Teacher" every Saturday for children's department in the church. It went on and on even when I was a Missionary/Bible Woman student in the International Missionary Society.

I am the tallest girl, middle front; this is a Seventh Day Adventist Church School. I am 7 years old in this picture.
I am the tallest girl, middle front; this is a Seventh Day Adventist Church School. I am 7 years old in this picture.

To be working in a hotel especially patronized by sex tourist in our country was a great insult and challenge to my core values system. I had then realized that money and comfort in living is not all there is to satisfy the longings of the soul.

Deep within me was a vacuum that demanded fulfillment; I cannot ignore me, I cannot ignore the "Self" which I call Senotiza, who screams for justice in her existence to this world. She always reminds me of who I really am and that I don't belong to the situation in my job; the prostitutes, the sex tourists, the vicious and lascivious clients that filled the hotel premises were not the types of people that I can tolerate to see in my every day life.

I remember the honor and dignity of the job that I had been into for years and years of my existence. Honor and dignity versus comfort in living and money without dignity is just rubbish for "Senotiza". There has to be a balance; honor+ dignity=money+comfortable life=fulfillment

It only takes a spark for us to be reminded of who we really are and then we burn bridges to separate us from everything that is not our personal reality. And once the fire starts burning then we will be back to our original state of existence. The most fulfilling and perfect life that each of us can choose to live in the individual level.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Thank you for the visit and the encouraging comment.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      MsDora,

      Thanks MsDora for dropping by and the comment. Yes, I found my fulfilling job. I had been a College Professor for more than 20 years. The 3-months job I had in that hotel was just an ad-lib that proved to myself that I cannot be other than a teacher in its many forms.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Hi Express10 ,

      Thanks for reading and yes, each of us has abilities unique to us in which we can only share efficiently when our heart and mind are focused on what we are doing because we lve doing it in the first place.

      God Bless.

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      H C Palting 4 years ago from East Coast

      This is very inspirational. We all are happier and can give more of ourselves when we do those things that are innate and speak to our core beliefs.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      cynthtggt,

      Yes, a "pillar of salt" must have originated from the Bible, the wife of Lot when they were coming out of Sodom. That's what the angel said.

      Thanks for your encouraging comment. Blessings.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      cynthtggt,

      Yes, a "pillar of salt" must have originated from the Bible, the wife of Lot when they were coming out of Sodom. That's what the angel said.

      Thanks for your encouraging comment. Blessings.

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      cynthtggt 4 years ago from New York, NY

      Your hub here reminds me of that often used metaphor that we should never look back lest we turn to a "pillar of salt." You're right: a great flame follows a little spark. Voted up and awesome.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Rbostick

      Thanks Rbostick for the comment. Sorry that I just read your comment now. Yes, there is always a niche that is intended for each of us under the sun.

      Thank you for reading my hub. It's my joy to inspire people.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Rbostick

      Thanks Rbostick for the comment. Sorry that I just read your comment now. Yes, there is always a niche that is intended for each of us under the sun.

      Thank you for reading my hub. It's my joy to inspire people.

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      Rick Bostick 4 years ago from Ruston, LA

      Keep doing what you feel is best for you and your family, very inspirational article.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Jaspals,

      Thanks for reading my hub and for understanding my point of view in this situation. I know that not many will agree in my decision but I also know that a few, just like you, can see the value of the inner person that dwells in each person. To listen to it and to follow its leading would be the best life that one could ever have.

      Thanks once more for the comment.God Bless.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      Jaspals,

      Thanks for reading my hub and for understanding my point of view in this situation. I know that not many will agree in my decision but I also know that a few, just like you, can see the value of the inner person that dwells in each person. To listen to it and to follow its leading would be the best life that one could ever have.

      Thanks once more for the comment.God Bless.

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      Jaspal Singh 4 years ago from India / Australia

      Very inspirational hub. We all have few qualities hidden deep inside and we should try to be according to those instincts. You have very nicely narrated your experience. Thanks for sharing.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      MsDora,

      Thanks MsDora for dropping by and the comment. Yes, I found my fulfilling job. I had been a College Professor for more than 20 years. The 3-months job I had in that hotel was just an ad-lib that proved to myself that I cannot be other than a teacher in its many forms.

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      Jenny Pugh 4 years ago from Marion, Indiana, USA

      MsDora,

      Thanks MsDora for dropping by and the comment. Yes, I found my fulfilling job. I had been a College Professor for more than 20 years. The 3-months job I had in that hotel was just an ad-lib that proved to myself that I cannot be other than a teacher in its many forms.

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 4 years ago from The Caribbean

      Hope you found the job that fulfilled your calling. Really, we are happier when we are operating in our God-give gifts. Thanks for sharing your experience.

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