My Son Got Shot In The Head

I don't know how to act right now. I don't know what to think. I am at a loss for words since I found out that my son got shot in the head. Shot in the head after responding to an ad on craigslist for a car. Robbed, beaten and shot.

I am still in state of shock and feeling guilty, because here I am one of the biggest Craigslist advocates there is. I would have have never thought in a thousand years that something like this would happen to my own son.

He is recovering, thanks to God. It could have been such a different outcome. I could have been grieving the loss of my son. When I think of how he must feel my stomach churns because I can't imagine. I can't imagine getting shot in the head and the trauma that he must feel.

My heart aches for him. My heart aches for our family. We are all in shock and can't imagine something this bad happening to one of us. I think about the people that shot him , and hope they catch them soon. Hope they take them off the streets so they can never ever do this to someone else. I think about the betrayal of it all, the loss of trust, the loss of innocence.

All I can think about is my son, his feelings and my feelings right now. I know one day I will write something more about this - I will write a hub about the dangers of Craigslist, but for right now all I can think about is dumping my feelings and thoughts out on paper to get this off my chest. Even though I am getting the words out on paper, the words are still stuck in my throat. I feel like screaming. I am afraid to looks at the news now, afraid to pick up the phone.

I am traumatized and I don't know what to do,. where to turn or who to talk to. I feel stripped, afraid, tired and exhausted. I don't know what I should be feeling or doing at any given moment. I guess I am still in shock.

(This was written a few days ago....my son is recovering.. and with each day that goes by - things get a little better.....I am still afraid to look at the news....or watch the news on the TV....)