Dear Sugar...

Dear Sugar,

Let me start by saying your the sweetest thing I've ever known. You have been there when I was sad, needed a pick me up and even when I was only a little girl. You have given me such nice memories like ice cream on a hot summer day, a cold bowl of cereal after midnight, and even that second slice of cake that I knew would make me sick. I have to be honest though, you have also been a big disappointment to me. When we are together it is the sweetest thing, yet after you leave I feel sick, tired and plain don't feel good. You've made my jeans smaller, my favorite dress my most hated one and have kept me up one to many nights simply craving you. I have felt badly about myself for so long now that I simply have had enough. I want my favorite dress to fit me so my fiance can enjoy my figure without me feeling ashamed of it. I want my skinny jeans to fit me again and well, in that way they use to. I want to sleep good and feel good too. I guess what I am trying to say is that enough is enough. I don't need you to be happy and you certainly don't make me any healthier. I remember when I went 3 months without you and I felt fine but one day I gave in again and there you were in my hands. I don't love you anymore and I don't need you anymore. We both know where this is going. I don't regret ever knowing you because you have brought me great memories. Yet, I find myself heavier than ever and simply out of place. I won't say I will never see you again, because I am sure I will. But, for now I just need my space. I need time to reconnect with my body but more importantly my waist line. So this is a simply goodbye for now. We may meet again for ice cream or possibly a birthday in the future but I know now that this is better for both of us. So on that note... Goodbye Sugar, my tongue will never taste a sweetness quite like yours.