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A Life in the day: Addiction

Updated on September 24, 2012

Addiction is a powerful drug; every waking moment is consumed with the insatiable desire to appease the beast. It starts off innocently enough, the acquiescence to ‘take off the edge’ of life’s hard knocks. Then one day the addict awakens to find their servant has become their master. The Genie is out of the bottle, in a manner of speaking.

As a single digit alcohol addict, I submit this epiphany is the first step toward the reclamation of one’s life. Growing up in the early 60’s, alcohol availability was all encompassing; the generational societal attitude toward alcohol was promiscuous. I indulged in the access of ‘hard liquor’ between the ages of 7 to 17. I should add I knew it would be a matter of consequence with my parents in the form of ‘the belt.’ thereby, earning my badge of deceit. Deception is an essential qualification to be a successful alcoholic, or any substance abuser for that matter.

The relevancy of the circumstance is to understand the state of mind of an addict; the significant factor being the ability to recognize the signs of deception. When the tricks are known, the proverbial bells and whistles cannot be silenced. It’s akin to knowing how David Copperfield performs illusions. In time, the tailored eye recognizes dysfunction and erratic behavior as the ‘tells’ of an accomplished addict. The caveat being, those whom choose to intervene shall pay a dear price for doing so.

The intervening outsider should expect the ultimate internal battle to ensue from within between good and evil; the self serving mortal agenda versus the moral righteousness. The intervening outsider should expect the ultimate external battle to ensue from the resistant addict. Then there is the spectator whom has a ticket in the cheap seats whom simply don’t see what you see, simply doesn’t know what you know. The path of least resistance becomes exceedingly appealing to the prospective interventionist.

In these times of conflict, one tends to question motive and justification toward such involvement. The philosophy and self reflection of being viewed as a fence sitter, a flip flopper, a hypocrite, or worse an enabler? “To Glimpse at one’s soul, a weakness this power… In times of doubt, I weep as I cower…” these are the conversations inside the mind of one whom has been there, one who has done that.

Speaking strictly for myself, at the age of 17, I needed to reset my mind. The self destructive behavior I had exhibited required a force more powerful than the substance I was addicted to. Basic Military Training placed my mindset into a survival mode. The amalgamation was no longer a shade of gray. The man in my face stated in no uncertain terms things were either black or they were white…and it scared the devil out of me!

Appealing to our better Angels is exceedingly more appealing than succumbing to our alternative demons. At least it is for this man. We are gone in a blink of the eye with respect to the scheme of time. It is our obligation to do all in our power to set those free of their shortcomings. It is a privilege to assist one to soar above their limitations.

Addiction is a powerful drug; every waking moment is consumed with the insatiable desire to appease the beast… the pleasure center. If you can turn off the ground noise of your critics because you’re being too harsh, glory is likely one step closer. Maybe, and only maybe, one can live beyond their years if one achieves success in their fight for the righteous.


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    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      Hello Tillsontitan,

      Indeed we all do. 'We must win the ultimate internal battle or perish.' well said my friend. Give the city a kiss for me.

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      Mary Craig 

      6 years ago from New York

      We all have weaknesses and addictions...mine is cigarettes. None is better or worse than another, an addiction is harmful no matter what. I am attempting to kill my demon a little each day. It is not easy. We must win the ultimate internal battle or perish. Voted this inspirational hub up and useful.

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      Well said Ms. Valerie. Tell the 30 year old health nut the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. It's a cautionary tale, of that I assure you.

      Indeed the story only scratches the proverbial surface as you surely know all too well. Anticipaton is typically follwed by the foreboding reality of a future unknown. Such is life and once again serves as a cautionary tale.

      Gonzo's @ 7 should shed some light on what you are privy to more than most...

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      Valerie Berry 

      6 years ago

      Fabulously written! Being formerly involved in the life of a serious addict, then battling the residual addictions that one gains during the enabling process, this hub actually gave me an interesting insight into the whole process. Fortunately for me, I have been sent a savior in the form of a 30 year old health nut who has an affinity for eating healthy and exercising and posseses the dedication of a monk and the patience of a saint! Overcoming demons is certainly easier when someone believes in you.

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      The road is one which is long and winding. Anticipation of what is in our future has, is and shall always be a great mystery. Yet, I embrace it, and I am comforted knowing I do not travel alone Michele.

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      Michele Travis 

      6 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

      I know, been on it and can help you travel on it also.

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      Your comment reminds me of the closing lines of my favorite novel...allow me to paraphrase from memory...

      'Its a far far better thing I do than I have ever done, it is a far, far better rest that I go to, than I have ever known.'

      I'm in a foreign land here, so hang on tight and enjoy the ride. Unlike politics, the tightrope has distinct personal ramifications.

      Thanks for your comments as always femme...

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      femmeflashpoint 

      6 years ago

      GJ,

      I agree.

      Living with a soul God refines in me is far, far better than living with one I've tried to refine on my own.

      Mine would be over run with dross.

      Excellent read.

      femme

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      Hold on tight Michele, this road is about to get a little rocky...

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      You know better my friend, your opinion means a great eal to me. It ceases to amaze me how some of my closest friends are those I have never met. Thanks for the thumbs up FJ.

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      Michele Travis 

      6 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

      Well, as I have said before, and this is true. You are not alone, in this. There are many. You are not alone. We are friends, and will travel together.

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      FitnezzJim 

      6 years ago from Fredericksburg, Virginia

      Not that my opinion matters any, but you done good on this one.

    • gjfalcone profile imageAUTHOR

      gjfalcone 

      6 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

      I'm struck by your profile ALUR.

      "Love to live life without insult to others. Speak about my passion for the slightly altered side of life. My goal is touch others by my fiction and monologues."

      Well said.

      I choose to do the same with the exception of adding the word 'non' before to the word fiction.

      Thank you for your inspiring words specifically, " all artist are depressed people."

      Finally, I can't put into words what it means to me when I read commentary proclaiming my articulation as Insightful and Provocative.

      I am sincerly left with a humble thank you.

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      ALUR 

      6 years ago from USA

      Insightful and provocative. I have several weaknesses, though NOT drugs per say. Addiction is a mind and genetic disposition. I write about the role of depression in my life, hoping the former of the quote I read once pertains to me, "All artists are depressed people, but not all depressed people are artists"

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