Before and Now
our first pregnancy together
12 years later
My baby is 12 years old and I found out not too long ago that I am going to have another baby! I am 33 years old and I am so nervous and excited!
What a difference from then and now a big difference. For me when I was 18 years old and had my first child I didn't think about anything regarding my baby's future and planning out her life I just went with the flow. Whatever happens, "happens"! Don't get me wrong I took care of my little girl the best way I could and the best way I knew how. Three years after my first daughter I also took care of my girl the best way I knew how, I went with my motherly instincts most of the time! Believe me I made some mistakes but overall I must say that my daughters are good girls of course being young I wish I knew a lot of things while they were growing up and I wish I did some things differently but never the less I think I did alright! However now that I am going to have another one (my daughters are from the same father but this baby is from someone else whom I love very much) but, this is my significant others first baby and he is so excited!
This time around I am so expereinced and prepared to raise another child but I feel a little bad because I know that this baby is going to be raised so much different than my girls. I know that the father of this baby is going to be around no matter what and is going to be a great dad. I have already made a lot of decisions on how I am going to raise this baby but I guess I shouldn't feel so bad because the one major difference is that this baby is going to have two wonderful sisters in it's life and I am grateful for that. I guess what I am trying to say is that I am so fortunate to be able to have another baby after so long it seems and now that I am older and wiser I have made better choices and decisions now compared to over a decade ago and it seems to me that it is better to wait to have children when you are well prepared in mind, sould and spirit! well only time can tell but I am sure having a plan and being prepared is better in raising a child rather than going on just your instincts and with the flow!