Bonne Chance Scott and Kathleen
October 2006..it hardly seems possible that they left and now are back home. And we couldn't be happier that they are!
In one week it will be Halloween….Josh and Jake will be here to trick or treat…Ill try very hard not to cry when I think that this will be the last Halloween I will have their little bodies bouncing around my house, all dressed up in their current craze costumes. Next year….they will be in what seems to me to be the other side of the world…….Tucson, Arizona with their mom and dad and a brand new life..one which, I am sure, will be a really great thing for all of them.
And how can a new job and a chance to make more money NOT be a good thing?….when someone comes up with the answer to that..please let me know….for right now..all I can think about is the upcoming holidays without all of them.
I think I must be pretty selfish to want them all for myself and not to want them to make a better life for themselves. But I also know that if I am selfish, its for all the right reasons and I know that Ill get over it..and in time be happier, but for now..my heart breaks just a little when I think of those 2 little boys and their sweet faces and their voices as they come running thru the front door…yelling "hi gramma, I’m here"
They say you give your children life only to give them wings…so it must be true..but they didn't tell me it would hurt so much when they fly away.
Every time you open up your heart to love, you open up your heart to hurt.
Ive had a lot of love…I guess I can handle a little hurt.