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No Roots to My Tree

Updated on February 21, 2018
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From the ground up..

Adoption-- i believe it's a good decision. I also believe that an adopted child has the right to know where he/she came from. I am an adoptee, I was adopted when I was six months old by my wonderful adopted parents thirty eight years ago from Los Angeles county. My childhood was fine, my adopted parents raised me with plenty of love. As I got older I began wondering about who did I come from,who do I look like and questions like that. When I had my kids that made these questions something I would think about daily, especially when I'm filling out forms asking about my medical background, and I don't know is not really an acceptable answer but maybe should be? Not only is it situations like that but not knowing any type of blood line or any blood relatives can be hard for someone like me. Growing up I was around "family" but it wasn't my family. My parents and I never really talked about my adoption, I've seen my adoption papers but I'm still left feeling empty. I've researched everywhere on the internet about finding my birth parents but it's so confusing Im not quite sure where to start. Now I feel that looking for my birth parents may do more harm than good or the outcome would be something I'm not prepared for. Being adopted has left me with abandonment issues and trust issues(just to name a few). Anyone looking to adopt needs to realize that this child being adopted will have questions one day and deserves answers. I am now more accepting of me being adopted but the little things that someone else may take for granted about their family, I will notice and then I can't help but wonder what that would be like. I see the difference in the love my adopted mother has with me and the (natural) love I have for my kids. Therefore, I believe there is a difference between an adopted love and a natural love. When I look at my kids I can see my characteristics and my traits in them, when I look at myself in the mirror, I don't know who I'm looking at.

That's me. Do I look familiar?

Do I look like anyone you know?
Do I look like anyone you know?

© 2018 Stina Nikatina

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    • Destany Dillon profile image

      Destany Dillon 

      6 months ago from cedar hill

      i think i added u on facebook

    • nikatina profile imageAUTHOR

      Stina Nikatina 

      6 months ago from California

      No haven't read anything, it takes like 3 days to get approved.

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      Stina nikatina 

      6 months ago

      I feel u...I have my Facebook... Christina Duran....

    • Destany Dillon profile image

      Destany Dillon 

      6 months ago from cedar hill

      have you read my writing?

    • nikatina profile imageAUTHOR

      Stina Nikatina 

      6 months ago from California

      What's your story? I mean if you don't mind telling me. U know if u ever need to talk or have questions or anything, u can get a hold of me. I'm flattered that u enjoyed my writing.

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      Destany Dillon 

      6 months ago from cedar hill

      i am 17 years old and im located in missouri.

    • nikatina profile imageAUTHOR

      Stina Nikatina 

      6 months ago from California

      Thank you for reading. Just wondering how old are u?and where are you located?

    • Destany Dillon profile image

      Destany Dillon 

      6 months ago from cedar hill

      This touched my heart so much because I know exactly what you mean. Im still in foster care though and havent been adopted.

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