Now That You Know A Little Bit...
Did I Accomplish Looking Unhappy?
I didn't take that picture for the purpose of looking unhappy, btw.
So... anyway, as you know, it's been 2 years since I've seen that monster Ron! Woo hooooo, right? Right. So much for that after today. So I went to this talent show at my mom's school with my cousin. So we picked up my mom from work after and then brought my cousin home. So then my mom asks to stop at WaWa...
We pull into WaWa and my mom sees Ron parked in a truck in the parking lot. She couldn't even talk... Luckily I could. I started yelling, "Leave! Leave! Please, leave! Now!" I did not know what to do. All I knew was that I had just seen him for the first time in over 2 years and it scared the living s*@! out of me! After that I started bawling my eyes out I was so scared.
After that I did end up realizing I had no reason to be scared because well... NO ONE is ever going to let him hurt me again. :)
It's been a few days...
since I wrote this. I guess I'm feeling a little better about what happened though. I think that it seemed so terrible to me, because it took me by surprise. I always knew it would happen one day, but I also knew that I would never be prepared for it. It wasn't really something I could prepare myself for. Because no matter what I would've done to try to prepare myself wouldn't have done anything. I still would have reacted the way I did.
Now that I've also thought about it more... nothing would've happened anyway. I mean... it's not like my mom or my stepdad would've let anything happen. And I know that. I guess it just really scared me. It was unexpected, you know? I'll probably have the same reaction I did the other day if it happens again. I think I'll always have that reaction the first few times it happens. Not that I want it to happen again but... I think you get the picture.
It's always going to be hard for me, but hopefully it gets better over time.