ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

Two Birds...One Stone.

Updated on January 9, 2015
Sallie Mullinger profile image

Sallie is a retired mother and grandmother who has written short stories for most of her life. Her stories are from her heart to yours.

Mothers Day 2010 caused me to, once again, remember

So today is the 46th anniversary of my Father’s death.

WOW! I have difficulty getting my head around that.

Daddy: I hardly knew you!

Ive been married longer than I knew you.

Ive had my children in my life, longer than I knew you.

I am older (by a lot!) than you were, when you died.

You were so young! So many things you were robbed of. So many memories you didn't have the chance to make. So much of life, stolen from you.

I still miss you. You were an amazing influence on me. You taught me the meaning of family and how important it is to stay close. You taught me about unconditional love and not judging people. You made it easier for me to survive the years after you died by knowing how much you loved me.

There were times, I was sure that I would never have known what love was, had it not been for you. And I am sure that I could not have made it through those lonely, frightening years after you died, had I not remembered the strength you showed as you were dying and the love you were still able to give to all of us despite knowing that your end was near.

You taught me to fish and bait a hook and oh how I looked forward to Saturday mornings, being awakened at dawn to go out with you to Lake Louise.

Oh! the memories I have of you! The lazy, crazy days of summer and family picnics. The yearly drive to Florida and knowing with you at the wheel, we were safe. Friday nights and popcorn made the old fashioned way. Saturday nights with Millions hamburgers in a brown paper sack, long before McDonalds. Sunday morning, you, dressed to the nines in a suit and tie and your alligator shoes. Me full of pride, at Mass, because my Dad was an usher. Your voice, all those many years ago, singing the songs of your youth and teaching me to harmonize. Sitting on summer nights on the porch, listening to crickets and knowing that all was right with my world. Being proud of the father who served his country.

I also remember the pain of your dying. Of letting you go and knowing that you knew, you were going.

I remember our last Christmas together, just after the JFK assassination and how I felt, somehow, a kinship with Jackie Kennedy because I knew that soon, we would lose you. I remember you walking the house, late at night, full of pain and unable to sleep. I also remember a night, when you thought I was asleep, and you sitting on the edge of my bed, stroking my hair, tears falling from your eyes. I wish Id had the courage to open my eyes and sit up and tell you I loved you and that I understood (in my 13 year old way). I wish I had hugged you then and kissed you and told you that I would miss you always, but I was frightened of the inevitable and wasn't sure what to do or how to say what was brimming over in my heart....And so I missed an opportunity that I wish I had back.

Somehow though, I think you know that all these years later, I still love you Dad. It matters not that you haven't been here for the milestones, it only matters that I remember you and that I try very hard to make sure my children and grandchildren know you.

Thank you for being the wonderful, loving man you were. I can't imagine not having had you in my life and even though I wish I had had more time with you, I was lucky to have you for the time I did.

And to Mom: Happy Mothers Day. Its easier these days to talk to you. Life moves on, as they say it does.

But I don't discount that I wish, in some magical way, you and Dad could be here, with all of us, forever. I like to think that both of you are together and are happy. It gives me some comfort to think that what you couldn't achieve in life, you may have found in death.

As I grow older, I feel closer to both of you. I think that must be normal for all sorts of reasons.

Tomorrow is the day we celebrate mothers. I just wanted you to know that I remember and always will.


This website uses cookies

As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at:

Show Details
HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the or domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)
ClickscoThis is a data management platform studying reader behavior (Privacy Policy)