Being Pregnant and Being A Teen
I remember when I was always out and about with friends and didn't have a care in the world. I thought life was all about having fun, with no worries. I think that the teenage years are the very best. You should enjoy those years, and make the best of it. Make plans for the years ahead and prepare for adulthood. That advice is what I should have been telling myself, because I somewhat went down all the wrong roads.Living that care free life, turned in to not even caring for the road ahead.
As a teenager I just knew that I knew everything and no one could tell me nothing. I guess that is the typical teenager. I made some terrible choices, and paid for them in the end. I grew, and noticed more and more people that I grew up with were making better choices, and I had to do something about my life immediately. While trying to change, I ended up meeting someone. That someone I thought was my world, I felt like it was just me and him in the world alone. I loved his voice, the way he walked, the way he made me laugh, and he was oh so talented. Great conversations, artistic and could sing ever so lovely. I knew all of those things about him, and I wanted to explore more of him. As a year passed, I decided that I would go further, not knowing that all of those feelings were just lust, I proceeded to enjoy our moments together. Well time went on and to everyone's surprise, I ended up pregnant. My life changed, people around me changed.........I had to take care of two lives, at the age of 18.
Finding out that I was pregnant, was something that I just could not grasp. To know that I was not married, didn't have my life together, was so young, and disappointing my mother was way too much for me. I kept asking myself, how could I be so irresponsible, what will my family think, what will my friends think, will the father be there for us? I asked those questions for a while until I was ready to tell my loved ones the big news. The look on my mothers face was something that I will never forget, she had disappointment all over her face. Soon after, my family found out and I felt like everyone was against me. Almost like the black sheep, like I had a label stamped across my forehead and everyone had an opinion. I felt like I failed myself, my mother, and most importantly, my unborn. I had to face the fact that I was going to be a mother, and I will have to work much harder to take care of myself and my child with no education. I had to put my education to the side for a moment, and focus on getting my life together.
You Live And You Learn
Life.....Learn From it and Move On
I can't begin to tell you how many times I just wanted to give up. I was too young, dropped out of school, living at home with my mother, and I could not provide for the child that I was about to have. All I could do was cry to myself at night, and try to figure out what I was going to do. I had to be strong through it all, and I can admit I made mistakes along the way. I also ended up having two more children, but I went back to school, received my G.E.D. and I recently finished my associates degree in Health Care Administration with a Concentration in Medical Records. I could not be more proud, and I am my own role model. One thing that I learned while growing up being a mother and becoming an adult, is that we most often mistake our feelings for other feelings. Love for lust, anger for disappointment, sadness for bitterness. We as humans often think we feel one way, when it is completely the opposite. I learned from my mistakes, and I'm moving forward. I will take those lessons learned and apply them in my everyday life, and near future.
Advice To The Teen Parents
Coming from a mother, and person who had children young, it will be tough but you can push through. You will have times where things get so rough and you just don't know what to do or who to turn to, but believe me......days do get better. People will be disappointed in you, they will say things that may hurt you, but believe me.....days do get better. Teens, please if you decide to have sex, be protected, and you want to save yourself, that is the best thing to do. Having sex with someone doesn't mean that you will have them in your life forever. Wait for that special person who loves you for you, family loves that person, and you have walked down that aisle together. Remember to not mistake lust for love.......