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A Look Inside Me

Updated on June 18, 2012
Hey, it's me! josh3418 (aka: Joshua Zerbini)
Hey, it's me! josh3418 (aka: Joshua Zerbini)

My Story

If you do not know me yet or are not currently following me, it doesn't mean you have to leave. Rather, you should stay, read and learn who I am and what I am about. Then we can become friends and share each others' works and learn more about each other.


I am currently 25 years old and single at the moment. Anyone looking? Just kidding :) I recently graduated from Baptist Bible College with a degree in Youth Ministry and am now attempting to pay off my loans working the overnight shift at Nichols Village Hotel in Clarks Summit, PA.

I was born and raised in Ellington, CT, you know that small state that no one has a clue about! Do you know where Massachusetts or Rhode Island are? Are you still clueless? Ok, I guess the best thing to do here is to pull out a detailed map. Once you done that, proceed to look for the two smallest states and pick one! You have a 50/50% chance now!

I have a younger sister named Katie who is an exceptional couponer; in fact some people would refer to her as a professional! I also have a twin brother named Jon who is 24 years old. Now wait a second some of you are asking: How is that possible? I thought you just said you had a twin brother? Just cool your jets and relax; again I am only teasing! I was blessed to be raised by an incredible mom and dad, and if you do not believe me read this tribute I wrote to my father. They have loved me unconditionally and have taught me, by their lives first and foremost, to love and honor Christ in everything I do. For this, I am incredibly grateful. I could not of asked, hoped, or imagined beyond my wildest dreams(and I have been known to have some wild ones) for better parents than my mom and dad.

This is where I grew up!

A marker5 Hotel Lake Rd Ellington Ct 06029 -
5 Hotel Lake Rd, Ellington, CT 06029, USA
get directions

Yes, be very jealous. I grew up on a lake! You should swing by some time! Our house is very small, but you can tent outside if you want to :)

Let's Get Down to Business

I have entitled this hub "A Look Inside Me". Before sharing more about my personal life, I wanted to share with you the inspiration for writing my story. If you are not familiar with billybuc here on HubPages, let me just pause and say that you are definitely missing out! I have been on HubPages for almost two weeks now, so in comparison to many of you veterans out there, I am a newbie hubber. Billy has taken me under his wing, if you will, and has helped me get started on this wonderful journey of hubbing. The other day, I was reading an incredible hub of his that has become very popular: The Human Experience: Taking A Life. Upon reading this hub, I was very touched and honored to be following such a loving and tenderhearted man who is able to reflect upon his life and share with deep emotion. So, we began talking back and forth, and I promised him I would publish a hub about my personal life; something that has framed me and made me who I am today. So, here goes; I hope I can touch someone out there and maybe inspire some fellow newbie hubbers as well.

Trials that Have Polished and Defined Me

Family's Financial Issue As far as I can remember(which is playing on the playground with my dad and brother at the ripe age of two), my family has endured financial hardship, one after the other. There has never been a time where one would say that we have been rich-by any stretch of the imagination. There have even been times when we have had to live week to week, hoping and praying that we could have food on the table. Fortunately, this did not happen too regularly, but there were definitely some hard times. After thinking about it, I guess you could say we have never had money falling out of our ears. I guess you could say that for the majority of the time, we were able to live "comfortable", (meaning getting by with what we had and enjoying it for what is was worth) but this is because of being an American. I am so blessed to live in this country! I take so much for advantage; after being in several foreign countries on missions trips, I can look back and say that we all should be proud, truly blessed to live in this country. Those countries have nothing compared to what we have! So yes, times were rough growing up, and still are to this day. But, it has been these hard times that have carved me into what I am today. If I had been born into an extremely wealthy family, do you think I would be as grateful and thankful for the little blessings that come my way? I know I would not be!


Family's Health Issues I want to start this section off by saying that my brother and myself have been fairly healthy our whole life. Besides a very few cases of the flu and some broken bones(I broke my left arm three times), we have been healthy, for which I am truly grateful!

So why I am writing about my family's health issues? Because of my sister, mother, and father.

Jim, my father If you have read my tribute to my dad, you will know that he has had health issues and has been unable to work for quite some time now. It has been so hard for me to watch this. What man wants to have his wife work full time because he can not do it myself? He has sometimes had it rough emotionally, because of this, and it has pained me every step of the way(I am becoming teary-eyed as I type) I love my father so much, and it cuts me deeply to see an honest working man unable to do the "manly thing", taking care of the family and providing for the "food on the table". Even with this ongoing trial, my dad has had a very positive outlook on life; this had been a tremendous encouragement to me!

Kathy, my mother My mom has also been sick a lot throughout my life. Several years ago(before I was born) she was diagnosed with diabetes. Since then, she has often battled with high blood pressure and other related symptoms. i can remember one time back in college where she was emergency-helicoptered in because something had triggered due to her diabetes(sorry for using wrong terminology, I do not want to call her and wake her up, she has to get up early tomorrow for work). This scared the living daylights out of my brother and myself! There we were living the "care-free" college life, while my mother was dying, at least we thought so at the time! Two years ago, she fell in the bathtub, again another symptom due to the diabetes. She was knocked unconscious, and remained so for a good three hours! You think we were scared at college the first time, imagine the second time! Unconscious for three hours! I will honestly tell you that was the longest three hours of my life, unless you count the SAT's, but still-not even a close second! Just a year ago, my mother was watching Lifetime(you know the television network for women with the sub-par actors and actresses) and out of the blue, became incoherent and starting mumbling random words that fit together kind of like a puzzle with only half the pieces. Again, my brother and I had to sit and pray; we were three hours away , in college, yet again. Miraculously, she made it through yet another time to tell about it. There have been several other instances as well, like the time she was hospitalized for over a month for other issues. But, that is a story for another time. On the top of all this, she is in desperate need of two knee replacements because one the aids she works with(she works at a nursing home as a LPN) failed to place the "wet-water caution" signs on the bathroom floor. But because of my mom's gracious love for everyone she meets, decided against taking her to court over it. So, yes, she needs two knee replacements, and we do not have the money to afford it. So, she just goes to work every day with a positive outlook and amazing attitude. How does she do this; I do no have the slightest clue! All I know is that I am truly grateful to call her my mother!

Katie, my sister This is the most heart-breaking story of them all. my sister is 21 years old and loves to babysit. She is excellent with kids(if you are from Ct, Julie DeNeen, your profile tells me you are from Clinton; she would love to babysit for you, hehe). Katie has a heart for everyone and just loves life; except for one major setback. She has the now-common disease known as celiac disease, so she can not eat anything with gluten, or wheat in it.(Would you believe me if I told you that the first ingredient in Twizzlers is wheat? Well it is!) So she can't eat anything with wheat; it can't be all that bad, can it? If that was the only problem, then no, it would not be too bad. The problem lies in the fact that she still has the symptoms of one with the disease if she were to eat wheat(she would refer to it as baby-sickness), when she does not eat wheat at all! She is constantly puking and other things that I will choose not to go into. This is so painful for me to have to watch! I hate seeing others go through pain; and when there is nothing I can do about it. Even the doctors do not have a clue of what is wrong with her. Now thankfully, I can say that she is not sick 100% of the time; but rather maybe 60% of the time. But even still, she is a loving person who should not have to undergo such painful and harsh treatment.

I love my sister, mom, and dad to death and hate to see them go through this pain and hurt!

My Reaction and Emotion to These Health Issues

So, how have I responded to all the health issues my family has had? Simple, why not me? Why do I get the luxury of being healthy while I get a front-seat-view of all their pain and hardship? I struggle to be happy sometimes in my own life, because I know that they are probably struggling to live sometimes! Why them, Why not me? Why must my dad not be able to work, why not me? Why must my mom have issues with diabetes and need two knee replacements, why not me? Why must my sister have mysterious symptoms, why not me?

What keeps me going is that I know God is watching over them every day; He is protecting them every step of the way! I must be strong for them! It is these issues and even others that I have not mentioned, that have framed me into what I am today. Made me strong, courageous, loving, compassionate, caring, humble, serving, and willful! These trials have molded me into the young man I am today!

I will try to culminate this message with this quote by Richard Nixon:

"Only if you've been in the deepest valley can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain." These "valleys" that my family has encountered are what makes the "mountaintop" experiences even more enjoyable. We have not had it all bad; that was not the idea of this story. We have had several awesome moments as a family; and we are truly grateful, thankful, and blessed to have shared them with each other!

Thank You!

Thank you very much to all of you who have stopped by to read this story. I really appreciate it; it means a lot to me. It took a while to process it in my head and I can but only hope that I was able to clearly convey the message I was attempting to get across. You all mean so much to me; and I can proudly say that I love HubPages because of it's wonderful community!

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      Debbie Carey 4 years ago from Riverton, KS, USA

      Josh, You ARE a fine young man! You are right, these trials are what makes each of us who we really are. I will add your family to my prayer list! God's purpose is hard to see sometimes, but it is there! You are rich in heart! God Bless!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Awwww, thanks so much prek, I really appreciate that! :)

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      Mandar Karandikar 4 years ago from Ratlam, India

      Hello Josh,

      You r doing extremely well on HP.

      Another touching hub. I really like it.

      I hope everyone in your family remains healthy.

      Good Luck. :)

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      IAmForbidden 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      Awwtzz... Hi J.

      You're such an amazing person, loving son and brother to your family. I am so proud to know you. You are an angel to your family; a gift that God has given them. Life is rough but when family sticks together, I'm sure that every trial they will pass.

      Thank you for letting us know your story. I just wish that more people (especially in my place) think like you do, and love their family too.

      And by the way, you're so cute. (*blushes)..

      Ok..now stop smiling. Just want to lighten up after I read your hub. It's really sad.. but always think of the positive to keep you on the right track. there are many reasons to be happy and to give thanks to the blessings God gave us. Will always pray for you and your family.

      Take care J. xoxo.M.

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      Civil War Bob 4 years ago from Glenside, Pennsylvania

      Excellent hub, Josh...voted up, useful, interesting, and beautiful. Just prayed for healing (Pv. 3:5-8) for Jim, Kathy, and Katie, and $$ for Kathy's knees (Phil. 4:19)....daily strength for all of you, too. (Dt. 33:25)

      So...What's it feel like to be a Doppleganger Closeup? Are you the lefty or the righty? (Twins have been part of my life and there's usually one of each.) The thrice broken arm tells me you're the clumsy and/or adventurous one! ;P

      Oh, technically, you grew up NEXT to a lake...yeah, I read picture captions, too...unless you walked on water at an early age!

      One small English tweek at "Family Health Issues"..."my brother and myself" should read "my brother and I"...nominative case and all that! ;)

      Can't tell you exactly how all you've detailed "works together for your good," (Romans 8:28) but following you has certainly worked to mine! Grace and peace, Bro!

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      Terrye Toombs 4 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

      Josh, another fine piece, written from the heart, making it also very beautiful. You have the heart of a lion, the soul of an angel and the mind of a scholar. You will do much with your life, I can feel it.

      If life were easy, we would have nothing to write about. :) It gives us the experiences to feel much and to share much. With all that you have endured, you will be able to connect with many. Use the power wisely. :)

      Voted up and all across. Keep up the great works and I'm looking forward to more from you.

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      WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

      Get out there and find that youth ministry job! You are a shoe in.

      Why Me? You know this one . . . lean not on your own understanding. It looks like you know where to take your load. God Bless You!

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      iamaudraleigh 4 years ago

      I am glad you were able to tell your story. Thank you for writing it! I will continuing reading your work indeed! Any friend of Bill's is afriend of mine :)

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      Mary Green 4 years ago from Alabama

      Josh, anyone with a complaint about the "youth of today" needs to read this piece. They would eat their words. Your family has met all their crises with faith, hope and love and in doing so they have produced children containing the seeds of greatness. I am honored to meet you and will follow your writings with great interest. I think you have a great future ahead of you.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Coming from the family you have come from, I can now see why you are such a great guy! I'll tell you what, Josh: you are, and this is my highest praise, a good human being. No wonder why I like you!

      You didn't have to mention me in your hub but I thank you sincerely for doing so. This was a pleasure to read and I am grateful that you allowed us to see a glimpse of your family and the lessons you have learned. Keep doing what you are doing here at HubPages and good things will come your way.

      Blessings and peace to you today and all days,

      Uncle Bill

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      Shining Irish Eyes 4 years ago from Upstate, New York

      Josh, you are SUCH a fine young man. I want to thank you for sharing such a bittersweet but oh-so-full-of-love history on what sounds like a beautiful group of people. How lucky you are. More importantly, how lucky they are to have you. I was certainly impressed when you started this off with Billybuc - A good man I consider having been blessed for crossing his path.

      I am also quite sure that this was an extremely difficult subject to write, actually giving away a piece of your heart and soul. You are a wonderful human being with a great insite for someone so young.

      I wish you and all your special and unique loved ones blessings and prayers.

      Make sure you say thank you to them for having provided you to this world.

      You take care friend.

      Your faithful follower.

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      Christy Birmingham 4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      I have a close friend with celiac disease and it does seem so difficult for her. I feel for your sister. Thank-you for introducing yourself here. I also follow Bill and he is such an inspiration. I wish you much success both at HubPages and in general life Josh. Take care.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Mandarmk9, thanks for stopping by, I appreciate the sentiments! Thanks for the good luck!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      M, I am smiling, whoops! :) That was an encouraging comment! I do not even know what to say; except thanks so much(big smile on my face) You are welcome for sharing the story :)

      Yes we will get by, because we are sticking together, thanks! And yes many reasons to stay positive, god is with me! :) Thanks so much my new hub friend; so glad I found you too, and thanks for the prayers!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks for stopping by CWB, I appreciate it! :) And for the prayers for my family, that was very thoughtful of you! And yes, I can walk on water :P

      And yes definitely adventurous as opposed to clumsy :)

      And thanks for the grammatical correction, shame on me! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks TT for the encouragement! Aww, feel very honored to have met you, and glad we can be friends and have fun doing it :) Yes, we would have nothing to write about, so true! :) And yes I will use that power wisely, thanks mom! :) And thanks for the votes too, appreciate the read TT!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks WD for stopping by, and for the encouragement. Yes I do know where to go, I was just letting out some emotions. Thanks for the verse and comment though, very thoughtful of you! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Iamaudraleigh, thanks for stopping by and reading my story; I appreciate it! Yes, lets be friends! I will stop by as soon as I get the chance!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Wow, Lacy thanks so much for stopping by, that was very thoughtful of you to say! :) I will follow you to, and head on over to your works as soon as I get the chance! Nice to meet you! Thanks for the comment about my family enduring, very nice of you! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Awww, Bill thanks so much for that praise; Aww, You are making me smile outward and inward! :) And you are totally welcome for me adding you in it, it was thanks to you though for inspiring me to do it! :) So thank you! Thanks so much!

      Nephew Josh :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww Shining, and that was SUCH an awesome compliment:) Really appreciate you stopping by! Yes it was difficult to write, just ask Bill how many times I had to say, it's coming, it's coming, tonight I promise, hehe :)

      Yes, I am very thankful for my family! :) Thanks for the blessing and prayers my loyal hub friend :) Appreciate you!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Christy, thanks for stopping by and offering your sentiments, yes it is hard for my sister, but she is strong-willed and has a big heart! :) Thanks for the kind wishes too! Thank you so much, take care! :)

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      Shauna L Bowling 4 years ago from Central Florida

      Thanx for giving some insight as to who you are, Josh. I see why you want to go into the ministry; you have a caring soul. My son was considering becoming a youth minister, but he's not pursued it. Yet. Everything happens for a reason, right? And in its own time.

      When you speaking of your twin, you mentioned he's 24. You're 25. You didn't tell us how that is. Was he born at 12:59AM 12/31 of one year and you came out seconds later as a New Year baby?

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks very much for the comment! I really appreciate it! Yes, everything for a reason! About the age thing, no I was kidding, mentioned that after it :) said I was teasing, hehe :) I just wanted to add some humor before the emotional part.

      Thanks for reading fairy godmother, hehe :)

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      Suelynn 4 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hi Josh - what a story! You are an incredible young man and I see that you have grown in strength whilst keeping your heart loving. They say that the finest swords are tempered in the hottest fires and that God never gives us more than we can handle. I sometimes have found that a little difficult to digest, but here I am. My wish for your family is healing and smooth sailing and I know you will soar wherever you find yourself. Bravo, Josh... keep writing and thank you for sharing your personal story with us. You already are a success story! :) Voted up and across (did not include funny!)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, Sue, thanks so much for stopping by and leaving your kind sentiments! Really appreciate it! Yes, will keep writing as long as I have my loyal support group, with people like you! :)

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      mwilliams66 4 years ago from Left Coast, USA

      I am so very sorry to hear about the health problems your family has to endure. It is terribly difficult to see loved ones ill and in pain. We feel helpless, but you need to know Josh, your love and emotional support is invaluable. You are such a good and kind young man. I am sure that your family feels rich in love. This is something that no amount of money can buy. It is also something that is enormously helpful with chronic illness.

      Your description of the man you are "strong, courageous, loving, compassionate, caring, humble, serving, and willful" could not ring more true. I feel truly privileged to have had the opportunity to get to know you.

      Just a note; I have celiac disease and have researched it quite extensively. I will be publishing a hub about it soon. Hopefully it will contain some bit of info that can give your sister a little relief. It is very difficult to completely stay away from gluten, particularly with all the processed foods these days.

      Nicely done Josh. I thank you for giving us this peek into the man that you are. It is a beautiful scene.

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      this is a wonderful hub Josh.. You are an awesome hubber.. You have great parents and sister and you have the love of Jesus in you.. You are my brother in Christ. I am praising God for sending you my way.. Great hub here if you need anything ask me if i can I will help. God Bless you for being so honest.and full of life

      Debbie

      p.s. BILLYBUC is a wonderful hubber to follow

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Josh your family are in my prayers.. I am adding this to our prayer page on Facebook..

      God Bless you again

      debbie

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      Joyce Haragsim 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

      Josh, your have such a big heart loving your family which is great news. I hope your family gets well soon.

      Vote across the top except funny, Joyce.

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      LABrashear 4 years ago from My Perfect Place, USA

      Hi Josh! Deborah Brooks shared your hub...I'm so glad she did! You are an amazing and strong young man. You are an inspiration and yes, God is watching over you and your family. It doesn't always feel like it, but He is! :) The blessing is that you are healthy to help them! Your family is in my prayers and I hope you continue to keep your positive, amazing outlook! Voted up!!!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Joyce, thanks for stopping by! I appreciate it! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank very much LA, appreciate the sentiment, and encouragement! :) Thanks for stopping by and for the vote :)

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      WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

      Hey Josh. The Lord never gets shook about smart people thinking. He knows where it will lead.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      What do you mean WD, sorry I do not understand.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you very much Melissa for stopping by and leaving such a wonderful and encouraging comment! :). I am glad I was able to meet you to! :)

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      WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

      Exploring your emotions, wondering about things, expressing yourself, even doubting God. We are made that way. Even when an atheist rails (which is far from what you are doing), it all leads to Christ.

      I have a strong feeling that you will help many find their way.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks I am not doubting God just wish they didn't have to go through the pain! I know He is in control and is working everything out according to His purpose!

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      Trinity M 4 years ago

      Very touching hub Josh. It’s nice to see that despite all the difficulties your family has faced you are still all close and love each other deeply. In the end love is really all there is. Thanks for sharing your story.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you very much for stopping by and sharing that encouragement, I appreciate it! :). Yes love is the most important thing! In fact are you a follower of billybuc on hubpages? If not read his article and watch the video on The Human Life: Taking A Life. Wonderful hub about love! Thanks for stopping by! :)

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      Blurter of Indiscretions 4 years ago from Clinton CT

      Well golly who knew we had some things in common? You are a fellow CT-ican!!!!! I'm sorry to hear about all the trials in your life but you seem like a remarkable young man. If your sister lived closer, we'd totally hit her up for babysitting. Billybuc was one of the first people I met on hubpages as well- and I agree, he's a wonderful person and a great encourager. It seems we are also both Christians :) Anyway, thank you for giving a shout out to be in your hub!! Maybe that's why traffic picked up today. You've done a lot in 14 days and I am sure you will be a success story on here. Voted up and beautiful!!!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww thanks so much Julie, I really appreciate it: That means so much to me! Yeah born and raised in CT! Thanks so much for the read, the encouragement, and the votes! :)

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      mwilliams66 4 years ago from Left Coast, USA

      Oh Josh, I'm so happy to see that so many people have read your story. You are an inspiration and I know that many people will benefit from this look inside of you. :D

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks again! Thank you so much! :)

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      Bill 4 years ago from western pennsylvania

      Great hub. I wish you much success on hub pages and a big welcome. Great Hub

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you very much, glad you liked it! :) I am feeling very welcome, thanks! :)

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Hi Josh,

      This is an amazing story. Thank you for sharing about your life as well as your family. You are a young man of faith who loves and honors God and his family. I do hope that God restores their health.

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      I forgot to vote. vote up awesome!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much LD, I really appreciate you stopping by to comment and read and vote :)

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      Lot Rillera 4 years ago from Philippines

      Hi, Josh, pls. allow me to follow you. This is a nice intro to yourself and the family. Hoping that your family always in good health and yours too! God Bless ! Lot

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much for stopping by and reading, I appreciate it! :)

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      Mike Pugh 4 years ago from New York City

      Touching mini-autobiography and intro to the inside of you Josh, I know your knew to hubpages, but surely not to the struggles of this world, this life, and to the love of family.

      I like how you've taken your full experience and summed it up here into a god loving experience and display of your love for your family, the compassion you possess will definitely carry you a long way into success & all throughout your life.

      It shows your humility, your level of caring for the likes of others besides yourself, and your determination to spread your faith in a higher power. Awesome hub!

      Bill Holland is my good friend as well, and if you would like to join us outside of hubpages, let me know. We are gathering on many networks of our own to help in this awesome sharing factor of the hubpages community & paying it forward for one another.

      Inbox me whenever, and welcome to hubpages, voted up & getting shared across the board, Bill is sharing your love everywhere cause I found you through his FB post's there.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww Cloud that was the sweetest comment ever! Yew Bill us an awesome guy! Thanks so much for stopping by and reading and for the awesome encouragement! I will email you later on tonight when I get the chance :). Thanks for the welcome votes and share :)

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      Linda Bilyeu 4 years ago from Orlando, FL

      Thank you for sharing your journey and your families journey with us. I've been hearing more and more about diabetes for some reason and that's one scary disease. A couple of my friends have celiac disease. Not fun! You sound like an awesome son and brother...your family is lucky to have you! So is Hubpages :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks for your sentiment and for stopping by my new hub friend! :) I appreciate so much! :)

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      I thought I had read this. Lol.

      I like your opening paragraph. It makes the reader want to keep reading. Voted up again!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      hehe :) thanks so much doctor! :)

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      Aaron-Clark 4 years ago from Northampton, Massachusetts

      Josh, I know right where Ellington is. I'm in Northampton (Massachusetts) so I'm maybe about 45 minutes from there. My wife is from Washington, CT (near Litchfield). This was a nice read. As others said, you seem to inspire all those around you. I love how detailed you got. It's very personal. Thanks for sharing! Voted up beautiful

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks for the votes, and wow, what a small world! Thanks for reading and for the compliment! :)

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      Susan Ream 4 years ago from Michigan

      Josh, an amazing peek into your life. I see an incredible young man who is filled with compassion and gratitude. Your parent's must be so very proud of you.

      My Dad was paralyzed at the age of 40 when he was thrown out of the front window during an auto accident. He had an incredible work ethic and it was very painful watching him struggle to adjust to a different kind of life.

      God does use all things; the good, the bad and the ugly for our good. In everything He is at work to shape us and fit us for our eternal home.

      Blessings to you Josh for opening your heart in this special hub. Voted Up and beautiful.

      Mekenzie

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      Sueswan 4 years ago

      Hi Josh,

      Thank your for letting us see inside you. I see a caring, compassionate and loving young man.

      My thanks also to Debbie Brooks for sharing your hub on our facebook prayer group.

      God Bless

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks for stopping by and commenting! I really appreciate it! And yes, Debbie was very kind to post it for me :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you so much for that very encouraging and insightful compliment Mekenzie! :)

      p.s. did you get that email I sent you?

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      CrisSp 4 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      Hey there Josh! I'm supposed to be checking my email only because I have other pending works to do and bills to pay and lots of catching up on FB and HP. Lol! Then, I came across this hub and couldn't stop reading anymore. What a very fine man you are! We are all on a mission here Josh and you'd do well on yours, I bet! Thanks for this wonderful inspiration. As my mother taught me, no matter what happens in life, do not forget your devotion to your family. Obviously, you are one devoted son and brother. Your family is very lucky to have you and I'm happy I followed you. This hub is a reflection of your soul - kind spirit. May you continue to be blessed and be a blessing to others. *hub hug*

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks so much for leaving such a wonderful comment Crisp, I really appreciate it! :)

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      Susan Ream 4 years ago from Michigan

      I did get your email josh but haven't yet gotten to the site. I will ... really I will. ;)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      No worries! Sounds good! :)

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      Ann1Az2 4 years ago from Orange, Texas

      Josh, you not only gave us insight into your family background. You gave us insight into you and your family's heart.

      This story is an inspiration to us all. Voted up, awesome and interesting.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you so much for that encouraging compliment! :)

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      Jessee R 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      Now Josh.. that I read and I know a LOT more about you.... I am more honored to be your friend mate...

      Your writing talents are endless... and You have a great path of success in front of you... just hang in there and keep the effort up

      Great to have u as a friend Brother

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much Rah! I really appreciate you stopping by and reading, and commenting! So very thoughtful of you. I am glad you are beginning to be a loyal fan and I hope I am doing the same for you!

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      Jessee R 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      Oh! You surely are....

      And BTW... u r welcome anytime....

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Well that's good and I intend to keep it that way, so be prepared to see comments from whenever I am given the time to do so! :)

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      Jessee R 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      Oh! I am prepared brother.... come on in any time :D

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      Ashish Joshi 4 years ago from India

      It's an irony that I've to tell you it was beautiful...the way you've put out your world on a page is incredible!

      voted up and shared.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much for stopping by and saying that, very thoughtful of you!

      Thanks for the vote and share!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Hahaha, ok sounds good Rah! But, it will have to wait til tomorrow, because I am working on a hub now and about to fall asleep :)

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      Jessee R 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      Alright Josh... have a fair share of rest...

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks will do! :) And you have a great day!

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      Anan Celeste 4 years ago from California

      These are the experiences that shaped you as the fine young man that you are today. And in the future, it will help you to help others. Blessings.

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      poojasd7 4 years ago from India

      i am a big fan of your writing. this is so emotional(can relate to some part of it)! you have lots of courage to give the words to your thoughts. i wish i could do it. god bless you!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks anaceleste for stopping by and commenting!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks so much pooj for that encouragement!

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      kelleyward 4 years ago

      I'm so glad I read your story. Your family sounds amazing. I also have diabetes and although negative for celiac it does run in our family so we have chosen to limit gluten as much as possible. There is a connection between diabetes and celiac disease. I'm so glad you're here and Billybuc is an amazing hubber! I wish you the best! Kelley

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much for reading and for the encouragement! I really appreciate it! :)

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      Audrey Howitt 4 years ago from California

      Thank you Josh! I didn't know you, but I feel like I do now--

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you very much Audrey! :)

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      Audrey Hunt 4 years ago from Nashville Tn.

      Dear Josh -A look inside of you is a peek inside of greatness. Your humilty runs deep within your beautiful soul and radiates a warm passion for human awareness and courage.

      You are a blessing for your marvelous family as well as hubpages. I am beyond honored to meet you and look forward to many more of your hubs and your poetry. "Hublove" radiates throughout the community and you are now a part of it.

      Voted way up and sharing all over the place. I predict wonderful surprises in store for you Josh.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww, thanks so much vocal, that was very nice of you! I really appreciate! And thanks for the email, I couldn't respond due to technical problems with my email. But, I will now be writing intros to my poems, thank you so much!

      Thanks for the votes and support!

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Voted up and awesome. You are a great person Josh. Thanks for sharing and introducing your family. All of them especially your parents sound great. God bless you all.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww thanks so much for stopping by and commenting! Thanks for the encouragement as well, yes my parents are awesome! :). Thanks for the votes.

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      theseus 4 years ago from philippines

      Awwww...I was not quite prepared for this. The tears just came and it was too late to stop them, not that I tried, anyway.

      Keep the faith, it will keep all of us going through the tough times. Keep the love burning, it will be your motivation to hang on when times get really bad. Trials are a part of our lives not to cripple us but to make us stronger. And I'm sure you have found that out yourself. God bless.

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      Marisa Hammond Olivares 4 years ago from Texas

      Hi Josh! Well aren't you just a wonderful soul? I love you already! This is a prolific look into your life and your wonderful family. You have a keen sense of awareness and an obviously beautiful and warm heart - a great sense of humor too! Did I mention I have a 19 yr old daughter? :)

      You know, I've ALWAYS wanted to visit Connecticut and your childhood home by the lake sounds like a great place to reflect on what life throws at you - it also sounds freakishly cold too! eek! A far cry from my tropical south Texas.

      I'd like to extend another warm welcome to HubPages and I look forward to reading more! Glad to follow.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww thanks so musch theseus for that encouraging comment, yes trial make us stonger, you are so right! Thanks! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much for stopping by and taking the time to leave such a wonderful comment olive! Thanks for the warm welcome again, and yes a little bit cooler than Texas I am sure :)

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      Nell Rose 4 years ago from England

      As my mum would have said, what a nice young man! seriously, you got your head on straight, after all you have been through, and its great to meet you on here, you broke your arm three times? what did you do? lol! hope you are right handed otherwise that would have been a pain! saying hello from little old England, can't wait to read more, cheers nell

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks for stopping by and commenting! :) Yes I am right handed :) First time flipped over my brother in a roller blade race, second time, jumped down a flight of 13 steps, and third time, a 250 pound guy landed on my arm in a basketball game. LOL

      Thanks again! :)

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      Nell Rose 4 years ago from England

      13 steps? you should have known that would be bad luck! haha!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Haha Hey I was in 9th grade and dared by my best friend, did I even have a choice in the matter? Lol. And btw I cleared the steps! Just nit my left arm flailing behind me lol

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      glmclendon 4 years ago

      josh3418, you sound like a fine young man. Take care of yourself. Life is not always easy, but it is always life. Don't give up, don't give in, and don't give out. You will be fine.

      Stay Well

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks for the encouragement! :)

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      oceansider 4 years ago

      Hi Josh,

      I didn't know you were a hubber here at H.P., until I was reading unkown spy's latest thank you hub # 5, and I saw that you were one of the people she honored.....so, I decided to read some of your work, and I like what I read! I too, am a Christian and love Jesus very much & live for Him!

      God bless you & it's nice to meet you.

      Helen

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      That's awesome! Yes, M was very kind to give me a tribute, and thanks to her, maybe a follower in you! Thanks for stopping by and commenting! I appreciate it; nice to meet you too! :)

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      Richard Ricky Hale 4 years ago from West Virginia

      Josh, had to vote this up and all the way across. You have so much going on around you and you still find time to smile, write, ect. You have a big heart, one I can see just by reading what you have wrote down. I am glad you are grounded to earth, more so that you are appreciative for the great things you have in life. Many people do not see what they have, especially at a young age. Your family has went through a lot, more then most. But as you said, God will watch over them. I am no Christian by any stretch, but I do believe. Everything in the world and universe is to perfect not to have design. Your a good son and brother, a best friend. You should be proud of yourself. I know it is hard to always block everything out, but you should just smile because your doing a great job and I believe everyone else would agree. Take care and see you around.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Aww thanks so much for that awesome comment of encouragement thelyricwriter! I really appreciate it! :) You take care as well!

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      Diane Blanchette 4 years ago from New Hampshire

      As I told you previously I followed your life story. Finally getting to comment! I feel your sister's pain and your dad's discouragment, with good reasons. Your family might not have the best physical or mental health but you have the glue. Many, many families are lacking this. You are indeed a rich man! It will get better. The only way past the pain is through it, so you're approaching it the right way. I'll keep on trucking if you keep on trucking!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks for stopping by and for the encouragement dlegendre! I appreciate it! :)

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      I read your profile, Josh and it led me to this as you have put a link. That's great! What an admirable person you are! There are so many young men out there that I hope would come across your hub(s), this hub especially about you, and in your own world outside HubPages as a great comrade to someone.

      You are a very unique and loving person especially to your family. God will never leave his sight away from you. He's got a guardian angel for you too to protect you. You have strong, faithful and caring parents. No one can replace them the way they have kept the family together and still are.

      They must be so proud of you, Josh, because I am.

      Until then, my new friend. It is nice to know you even virtually. Take care now and may God and Jesus be with you always! :)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thank you so much for that awesome encouraging comment. I really appreciate it! :)

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Dear josh,

      Only truly compassionate and loving people can discern this in others.

      I am honored to now have found your writing and part of your story as your profile guided me here. And I know your town of Clark-Summit having worked over 15 years in the state mental health system in PA.

      For a young man, you have learned much wisdom, good values and wonderful life priorities, reflective of a solid and decent family.

      I will greatly look forward to reading your wide array of work.

      Voted UP & UABI. Hugs, Maria

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Thanks so much for the warm comment and all the votes! :)

      Maria, I really appreciate it, and hugs back at ya! :)

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      Kalux 4 years ago from Canada

      You sound like a wonderful person, this was a heartwarming hub. I really like how personal this hub is, a getting to know you theme is a great idea!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Kalux, thanks so much! I am glad you liked it, and thanks for the warm comment!

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      Janine Huldie 4 years ago from New York, New York

      Josh, I am finally reading is one by you and am no sure why I never got to read this hub before this. So glad I did and totally have a bit more insight into the man you are today and why. You are truly a wonderful person and reading this only made me see this more. Voted up and shared too.

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      I came back to revisit. your first paragraph made me laugh. I'm sure that you won't be single for too long. Lol. Single women are here, there and everywhere. You seem like a nice person and a very talented writer. Keep up the good work. Voted up!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Janine,

      You are too kind! That was really sweet of you to say, and really encouraging! Thanks so much for your support and kind words!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Marlene,

      LOL, thanks for stopping by again! I appreciate it, and thanks for the encouraging words.

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Your welcome:) hahaa

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      catgypsy 4 years ago from the South

      It is so touching of you to share your life with us. This hub brought tears to my eyes. You are an exceptional son and brother, you can be very proud of yourself.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      catgypsy,

      Aww thanks so much, now you are going to bring tears to my eyes as well. That was very encouraging, thanks so much. You are too kind!

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      Teresa Davis 4 years ago from Moscow, Texas

      Josh so sorry for all the things your family has gone through. It was very strong and brave of you to open up your life to everyone. Thanks :-)

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      tjdavis,

      Thanks for commenting, and leaving me your sentiments. It is much appreciated.

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      Jeani Nugent 4 years ago from Cumberland, Wisconsin

      Great hub! I am also extremely close to my family, I live a mile away from my parents and often spend weekends and vacation time visiting others. I find it interesting when others find family a chore, because I can honestly say I love spending time with mine. It is an attribute I hope to pass down to my daughter

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Jeani,

      Thanks for your awesome comment! Family is a beauitful thing!

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      Michelle Simtoco 4 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

      I'm glad I picked this hub to read today. I will be attending a church service in a couple of hours and will definitely thank God for my family and oh so many more. It's nice to know you and your story. Keep shining your light and touch lives of many people. God bless.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Ripple,

      Thanks hub friend! I appreciate the comment; we should always be thankful for our families!

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      rdsparrowriter 4 years ago

      Hi Josh, I'm glad I came to read your experiences. You are very encouraging. God has strengthened you with His undying love and grace. I hope and pray that your dear sister would get healed completely. Joshua 1:9 has always encouraged me. You are a blessing to those who are around you and the hub readers. http://youtu.be/Dv-m5D8tLAA . Stay blessed!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      RDS,

      Thanks for your beautiful feedback and encouragement!

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      Stacy Harris 4 years ago from Hemet, Ca

      Well hello Josh - it is nice to meet you. Ok - so I have seen you around here and there but it is nice to read about who you are. It shows how truly strong and compassionate of a person you are. Bravo for your strength in being able to talk about this because speaking from experience... anything personal can be really hard to put into words and share. Well done and great hub!

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      moonlake 4 years ago from America

      Sorry to hear about your families health problems. Prayers for all of them. Voted Up and more.

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      Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Hmmm . . . did you get my message from earlier in the evening, Josh???

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Vicki,

      The comment on my lesson learned hub? Yeah, and I commented!! :)

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      Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Oh!!!!!! I guess I thought it was this one I commented on! sorry. My bad! Dang, I need some sleep!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Well hello Stacey,

      LOL. I am glad you enjoyed this introduction about me hub! Yes it was hard but also rewarding.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Moonlake,

      Thanks for your condolences moonlake! Much appreciated!

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Vicki,

      No problem Vicki, it has happened to me before as well! Have a good night!

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      Katheryn 4 years ago from United States

      Josh, It is very nice to meet you also. You are a very enlightened young man. I'm sorry about your family's health problems but I'm glad they have Jesus in their lives to help them cope. I'm so glad I found your hubs as I will be reading more of them. The young lady you eventually find will be a very lucky girl indeed! Don't be in a hurry for the right one as God will make sure you meet her in his time! Blessings to you and your family.

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      Joshua Zerbini 4 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Travel,

      Thanks for your encouragement here Travel! Thanks for your encouragement!

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