ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

Alcoholics Anonymous ( Suicide never crossed my mind).

Updated on May 27, 2016

Alcoholics Anonymous ( Suicide never crossed my mind)


Alcoholics Anonymous ( Suicide never crossed my mind)

Alcoholics Anonymous ( Suicide never crossed my mind)

Alcoholics Anonymous Affiliates.
Narcotics Anonymous.
Angels on Earth.
Brothers and sisters.
Sons and daughters.

Alcohol consumption in our teens which is supposed to be socially exceptable, fun, almost clipped our wings as we would be reckless and lose all sense of sanity when intoxicated.

Having no opposing thoughts, when it comes to responsible drinking, 1 drink is too many, 100 drinks are never enough.

Spending a large portion of our wages as well as pocket money on the bottle.

Good times, along came the cash, with growth at work, bigger houses and faster cars.Living a dreams, the night life, pretty girls, and expensive whisky.

I started drinking on weekends.Then thursday to sunday.Then even during week days.

Even when I was at work all I could think of was getting to a pub, chilling with boys and ordering a few drinks.

Time flies when you having fun.

Before I knew it I would blow my months salary on one weekend, binge drinking. Left with the rent money, groceries, and petrol for the month.

It gets worse 1 drink is to many.100 ‎drinks, is never enough.

I have not paid rent in 6 months.My wife loves me, my drinking drove her to leave me, the irony. I have not seen my daughters in 3 months. It has been 9 months of hell.

I lost my job, bad references present on my CV hamper my chances of me ever getting employment again.

What have I done with my gift of life?How did I end up in this mess?I can't put the bottle down, I can see it clearly in my mind these booze are gonna be the death of me. Without my family I am nothing, how could I let down the purest form of support and love in my life, my wife and kids?

2 days sleeping on the streets.Suicide never crossed my mind, I do not want to die! Yet what is there left to live for I have lost everything.

I haven't bathed in two weeks.Sex seems like a luxury.I watch a red golf 7 GTI pass by, while I lay on the side of the street.I drank my wealth away, my wife, my kids, the house the car I lost it all.I still have a court of Castle in my hand, damn liquor, I have lost everything, it is just you I can't let go of you.

Where are the pretty girls?Where are my friends?Who is to blame?Where is God? If he exists how could he let this happen?What am I to do, I do not want to die, suicide never crossed mind.

God's Poet NkosiNkosinathi Ncala

Sobriety can mend broken souls. It all starts with a choice to sincerely never want to PICK up another drink again.

Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous is an unconditional medium to help save lives and reclaim your sanity.

Thank You Fellaz, God bless you ladies.

Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.


    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    No comments yet.


    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at:

    Show Details
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the or domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)