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Committing Robbery

Updated on July 8, 2012

"BE WARNED, I WILL RETURN"

Fear, Worry, Stress, and Worthlessness is the company he keeps. Will I be ready for him?
Fear, Worry, Stress, and Worthlessness is the company he keeps. Will I be ready for him? | Source

PERSONAL DEMONS

The demon has come back and he is trying to take over my life again. All throughout my life I've dealt with this struggle. I've been to therapy and on medication. I've trusted in God to take care of whatever is missing. To no avail, this devil seems to creep back in.

My soul is in danger at all times. I try to confess to release my sins. I am dying inside and no one understands. There is no one who can really help me.There are a few who can assist with the pain but only momentarily. In those few moments I feel strong, confident, worth while and beautiful. He will be back, I know he will. When he returns I need to be ready.

I take my tme and use it wisely. I tell myself that I am somebody, and I make great strides. My world is good and my spirit sings. I am confident again, I am a queen, strong minded and strong hearted. Enjoy the time because Yes, he is going to return. I don't think about him coming back, so I ain't scared. I convince myself by chanting out loud "deal with him when the time comes, for now stay focused and stay happy.

He is a constant threat to my well-being. Stealing my happiness, my joy, my time, my friends. Now he is trying to steal my confidence, my life, and my soul. He tells me I can't when I know I can. Sometimes he makes me cry so hard that my chest screams with pain. Robbery is his game and he takes much pleasure in it. I can't resist him. He is too strong.

Is this truly a mental issue. With each return he gets stronger and stronger. He is opposite of everything I stand for. I am a child of God, daughter, wife, mother, writer, teacher, nurse, lover, and supporter. When he arrives he tells me that everything about me is ugly, dirty, sinful, stupid. He reminds me of all the disgusting things that I have ever done. Doesn't he know that there are people who love me, people who depend on me to be there for them? I believe he knows and he's counting on that. This derelict is trying not only take me but also all those who depend on me. I must be strong, I have no choice.

So the rumble is on and the next time he shows up. I will be ready. He can no longer deceive me into thinking he is my friend and he'll keep me safe. I know him too well now. I"ve already heard his entire strategy so it won't work this time. See, his last few visits he's made some mistakes. He has a habit of not allowing me to sleep. He whispers in my ear, "who do you think you are? Remember, your nobody. How many times did ya daddy tell you that you are nothin' and you won't ever be nothin'." He thinks that depriving me of sleep will keep me weak. I now know his plan. He can't fool me anymore.

I am prepared to take him out. The deceiver, menace, thief, my demon, my devil. So beware, because you can no longer treat me like crap. You can no longer keep me chained down with fear. I am not afraid of you anymore and I will fight back. I will fight you with all my mind, with all my heart and with all my soul and I will win. I can now call you out by your real name.

"DEPRESSION"



PLEASE GET HELP!!

Depression is a mental health illness. There is help out there. If you suffer from symptoms of depession you can get some help.
Depression is a mental health illness. There is help out there. If you suffer from symptoms of depession you can get some help. | Source

Depression Help Websites

Depression is a feeling of being extremely unhappy. A medical condition in which a person is so unhappy that they cannot live a normal life.

There are many online sites where you can get help with depression. I have listed a few sites that are very helpful.

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

www.webmd.com

http://helpguide.org/topics/depression.htm

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      mekamook 5 years ago

      Yes, Inspiring words your article. So many people forget that they are not alone. It can happen to the best of us. Its always helps me to remember, "Be strong in th Lord and the Power of his might. Put on the Whole Armor of God that ye may be able to stand against the wilds of the devil." Demons, acknowledge their existence but don't own them.

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      dsblue1946 5 years ago

      the words in this article are so true....the lord is good....the devil will always try to bring you down but as long as you put God 1st in your life all will be ok...thanks for this article and i look forward to reading more

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      Nique 5 years ago from Philadelphia County PA

      Thank you.

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      briars2roses 5 years ago from Texas

      I believe... and I so know what you were talking about. Been through deliverance myself and I find that sometimes it tries to sneak back in and I have to boot it back out. I hate to see how many of us suffer through this. Bless your heart, and man were your words just right on point

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      Nique 5 years ago from Philadelphia County PA

      Hi Briars2roses, Yes I have deliverence through the Blood of Jesus. However, being human we will go through troubled times. Believe me when I say I trust the Lord and believe in His promises. As I go through these difficulties He has always been there to guide me through it all. Thanks for your thoughts and comment : )

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      briars2roses 5 years ago from Texas

      Yeah you said it right when you said demon. Have you tried deliverance?