Life is good
I don't know about you but I want to die happy. I am happy now. It would not be a bad time to die. I have not got any major sins to unburden and I owe nothing to anyone except love.
My only real problem is that I am enjoying my life too much and so I don't want to go quite now and yet now would probably the best time to go.
I would not contemplate euthanasia or suicide. Though I am not against either in principle and I am both sympathic and respectful to most who take those routes. Definitely something to consider for the future should fate not lend a hand.
It is by fate I have been living my life these past few years. "I may get hit by a bus tomorrow so I will live today." Not just live either but love too and enjoy every day...and I do. I have enjoyed practically every hour of every day since I broke free of the shackles of conventialism...and I doubt I was ever very conventional in the first place.
No, in the words of one of my favourite poets, Roger McGough, "Let me die a young man's death."
Let Me Die a Young man's Death
Let me die a young man's death
not a clean and inbetween
the sheets holywater death
not a famous-last-words
peaceful out of breath death
When I'm 73
and in constant good tumour
may I be mown down at dawn
by a bright red sports car
on my way home
from an all night party
Or when I'm 91
with silver hair
and sitting in a barber's chair
may rival gangsters
with hamfisted tommyguns burst in
and give me a short back and insides
Or when I'm 104
and banned from the Cavern
may my mistress
catching me in bed with her daughter
and fearing for her son
cut me up into little pieces
and throw away every piece but one
Let me die a youngman's death
not a free from sin tiptoe in
candle wax and waning death
not a curtains drawn by angels borne
'what a nice way to go' death
I enjoy my life immensely. I enjoy my work. I am enjoy my play. I enjoy my rest. Death holds no fears. Death is as natural as birth and I look forward to it as an adventure yet to come. I am not religious and I follow my own Gods. They are good to me. I don't expect to go to a heaven or a hell and don't believe I will come back because I don't think that I will ever really go.
My only difficulty in life is money, or rather lack of it. And there I don't want to be a millionaire or rich even. I just want to be able to choose sometimes and be comfortable.
If I had to choose how I would go it would probably be by a heart attack during a Soapy Massage or perhaps whilst making love. Alternatively I could pass away in my sleep, hopefully in a happy dream. Then there are the physical choices. I think perhaps my favourite would be that which took the philandering husband in the Tagalog movie 'Best Friends Forever'. His wife says she loves him and he jumps up and down with joy and straight into the path of an oncoming vehicle.