Distractions

There are a lot of times in my life when I get distracted. I can not find the source of it but it is very annoying because I can barely finish anything. Recently I have had the devil on my back, I have a dark cloud on my head and it is following me around making me crazy. I feel insane. Why do I keep walking through the same door expecting there to be something different on the other side. Typically when my head is like this the last thing I would do is pull up this site to write an article, but I decided that to break insanity is to change the routine. So instead of turning on the TV and zoning out I decided to see what would come of this.

I can not speak for anyone else but if there is someone who has ADD or something similar then they can relate. It is not my fault, is is certainly not your fault. I am just wired this way as is anyone else with this horrible issue. I would not call it a disease, but it is definitely not normal. Once I start something it goes along just fine up until I remember something I may have forgotten about earlier or something I know I do not want to forget later. So I make a decision on which is more important. Continue the task at hand or do the next task. It is a bit of a toss up because both tasks or equally important, or simply pointless. Oh something needs to be cleaned as I am putting something away, but as I go to throw some trash away I notice that the trash can is full and needs to be taken out; well I have to take it out. So once I am outside then I see how the outside trash is dirty or maybe the grass needs to be watered. That is an entirely new project there, and who even knows what I was originally working on because I have already forgotten. Oh well, must have not been that important, so I drop it and move on.

This does not seem like that big of a deal, because well those of us who suffer from ADD do however stick to the things that we enjoy. Sad as that sounds, we get hyper focused and can sit and do something we love doing all day. Horrible at prioritizing as well as getting things done in a timely manner. So there are some of us who make the lists. That is right, we make the list monster and I would say I am one of those. I would not be able to function if I did not make a list. That is a bit harsh, let us say that we could function without the lists but it would be dramatically harder and chances are that we would almost always forge at least one thing on a "mental" list. So what is the harm in jotting a few things down? There is none.

So we have a list, as well as a very spastic atmosphere. It is fine, I am hyper and I stick to what I like doing. I can sit and finish this article or a game I am playing. But what about when loved ones are involved? That is a touchy subject because I can say from personal experiences that, it appears that the outside party is not up to speak and can not think like we can. They are slow and confused, why can't they just understand and leave us alone? It is not that simply because they will never understand. Our brains, the ones who have the disorder are one of a kind. We think a million miles a minute, which may appear erratic but we just need to slow down and it will all make sense. The problem is making us slow down, we have a hard time doing it on our own. When people are talking, I get bored halfway through because they simply will not get to their point. Yes, it comes off as rude and disrespectful. It is quiet the challenge to constantly force my brain to be slow. I need things done simple and fast. I am a simple person and when people start throwing all this extra bullshit in, I start to get confused.

Once again, the bug is hitting me and I am surprised I was able to sit here this long. I wanted to write more as I am sure you guess, it is not very orderly. But lest you forget, I have been bitten by the ADD bug and I am having a hard enough time as it is to leave this on a respectable note. I think that is good enough.

Yeah.. distractions SUCK. End of story.