Extreme Dizziness Pity Party - Why I Was Not Being Able To Work

I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I am now on day 18 of not being able to work and being stuck in bed. This dizziness that has taken ahold of me just won’t let go. I have never felt like this before and hope no one ever has to feel this way. The good news is that the headache that goes along with it is now controlled with over the counter acetaminophen rather than intravenous morphine, which means I am now in my bed at home. Other than that, nothing else has gotten better. So I am having a pity party.

Because I can’t do much else without risk of falling face down on the floor, I have become somewhat of a computer junkie in these nearly three weeks. (Television drives me crazy right now – too much movement!) After reading many of the stories I have come across, I have discovered that, really, what I have going on is more of a debilitating annoyance. It still causes me not to be able to work or function in a “normal” way, but as long as I don’t move my head – or sometimes my arms and legs – at all, I can be “normal.” And at worst, when I do move, my world spins.

Other people I have been reading about have it a lot worse than I do. I might not be able to walk due to dizziness, but I do still have two arms and two legs that work perfectly well. I might have to be bedridden because I don’t like the spinning, but I do not have cancer or kidney disease or something more evil destroying my body. I may have unfound issues with my ears or some other part of my brain that affects my equilibrium, but I can still hear my grandsons’ giggles and laughs and cries. I may feel sometimes that I am going crazy, but there are people who have schizophrenia, severe depression, bi-polar disease and other mental issues that I don’t have to worry about.

Some people have many medical issues going on all at once, and have no one to help care for them. I have an awesome husband who has taken care of my every need, four children who call to see what they can do, friends and co-workers who check in on a daily basis to see how I am doing.

Some people are dealing with missing sons, daughters, moms, and dads. Some of whom will never return. Some have children, parents or other family members die from sickness or even worse, from being murdered. I, however, am lucky and blessed enough to have four healthy children that I communicate with on regular basis. (And yes - - I am knocking on wood!)

So, as I sit here having my pity party, my prayers are going on to those who have things in their lives that are far worse than what I am going through. I will stop my pity party and start counting my blessings. Because I do have many to count!