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Fire Haunts my Dreams

Updated on September 12, 2013

The fire in my dreams

It's no pleasant thing to wake from fire in your dreams.

To be shaken by an unforeseen force that rattles your thoughts.

Your deep sleep comes to a sudden halt as you take in a blast of air hoping it's not your last.

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What does fire mean in a dream?

I have to be honest. I'm not one to really depend on dream interpretation to evaluate the pictures that haunt memories in my sleep.

There's something to be said for the fact that perhaps dreams are just our subconscious minds filtering out yesterday's brain mail and sorting them out into the escape hatch.

When it happens repeatedly, not several nights in a row or every time you have a fever, but over a course of years; it then must mean something unexplainable. Because how would it be possible to dream about something over and over again if all a dream really did was clear our minds of over-active thoughts that space in our memory no longer needs?

Have you ever had re-occurring nightmares?

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The first nightmare.

The nightmares began when I was pregnant with my first child. I had just moved in to a new home. My feet swollen beyond recognition and forced to wear house slippers everywhere, the idea of trying to get up and down the staircase was too dangerous.

Sleeping on a make-shift bed in the living room, I had frightening life-like dreams that I concluded must have been from pregnancy hormones.

The dreams lingered over time though. They became so frightening that I started leaving lights on outside and around the living room.

The haunting visions of fire plagued my mind nightly as I tried to wind down and go to sleep.

The story was the same time and time again. Someone set fire to my home.

Each time, I managed to escape unharmed. Usually, I would wake up before any irreplaceable damage occurred to my dreamy possessions.

Have you ever dreamt of fire?

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Why fire?

I don't have a lot of memories from a certain point in my life.

I began to wonder if these dreams about fires had something to do with the memories my mind is blocking in order to save me from the despair and hurt it secretly holds within the deep confounds.

There is no record of me ever being in a fire or escaping from one. Yet until the time I married and had children, I was deathly afraid of fire to the point where I wouldn't ever go near a campfire, light a match, or cook on a gas stove.

Now I do all the above with ease. I'm no longer afraid of fire, but for some reason within my dreams lie this force coming from deep inside that plagues me nightly and prevents me from feeling the peace that one enjoys from a deep restful sleep.

Guilty conscience? Not likely. I've determined that the fire in my dreams represents something that I've hidden from myself. Even I cannot unlock the meaning.

Hot burning flames in my dreams

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What if you don't get burned?

In no way was I ever harmed from any of these dreams. Nothing from them ever became real. Why then am I still afraid?

Last night's dream was different. Years ago when the dreams first started, I had no children or pets. Now in addition to other humans lives I care for, I have devoted pets. My dream last night turned to terror as I raced down the hardwood staircase in my nightgown and slippery socks in search for what awoke me from sleep.

It was one of the most peaceful, deep sleeps I have experienced since I had children. I've become such a light sleeper because I have others to care for now.

The power of my dreams haunted me until morning.

Checking over everthing from outside the perimeter of the house, down to the basement where the night lights dimly light the cement floors, to the rooms where my children sleep, I assured myself it was ok. Everything is alright. It was just a dream.

Paralyzed by fear

Fear paralyzes my thoughts as I obsess over the facts of my dream. Every detail comes in to play as I memorize each one over a cup of tea in the middle of the night. Sitting by my side are my faithful canine companions. Each one wondering what's going on in my mind. I breath heavily, a sigh of relief that everything appears normal.

What's wrong with me? Waking up in the middle of the night, fearful that someone is setting fire to everything I love because of a silly dream.

I take my words to the internet in hopes of finding a cure for that which plagues me.

I enter my words carefully. What is the meaning of dreaming of fire?

Meaning of Fire In Dreams

Good
Bad
Prosperity
Punishment
Loving partner
Impending doom
Adoring children
Guilt
Profitable business
Unforgiveness
Strong Roots
Memories that hold one back

The question remains, are the fiery dreams burning up past traumas or are they trying to ignite them again?

Dream interpretation is unique to each individual.

While dream interpretation is unique to all individuals, "Memories that hold one back" hit home with me.

Could the fire in my dreams symbolize what my memory holds under lock and key?

For over 35 years, I have been holding something in.

Why does our memory serve to block memories? Is it to protect us from emotional harm that could come from releasing the truth of the past that we have never known?

In search for self-help and healing, I found the term "repressed memory" online.

Repressed memory can be defined as a person's unconscious effort to block memories out of one's life due to the high level of trauma contained therein.

For years, these repressed memories have plagued me. It's the not knowing that I find difficult to deal with. Having no control to release them. Perhaps that is what is going on with my dreams.

How to unlock repressed memories.

According to the American Psychological Association, some repressed memories are false. Another word for repressed memory is amnesia which is when one can't recall important information about their own life. This usually occurs after a stressful or traumatic event and it lasts too long to be deemed forgetfulness.

Amnesia is a state in which memories are placed in long-term memory storage. Sometimes they are partially forgotten, erased so to speak. (Sometimes due to brain injury.)

Sometimes these memories can come back years later, often triggered by an identifier similar to the lost memory.

Other times psychotherapy can help.

It haunts me.

I certainly know well enough the memories that my brain has chosen to hide from me could have been caused by events in my childhood.

Having no recollection of a period of at least three years, perhaps the incidents that occurred during that time were the cause of blocking my memory from me.

After suffering from re-occurring fiery nightmares since hormonal changes due to pregnancy, I have to wonder what the secrets are that my mind wishes to keep from me.

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My new attitude.

I've lived through so much, accomplished so much, and have overcome.

My new attitude is I'm no longer going to allow these dreams of hot fire to disturb me from restful sleep.

I'm not going to search my mind for that which plagues my soul and tries to reach me through the midnight stories we call dreams.

Goodbye dreams. Goodbye past. I'm moving on to where the sun comes up in the morning, the moon hangs with the stars at night. There is no more need to be afraid of the fire that plagues my dreams.

I've come to the point of realization that there are things in this life that we simply cannot change. And, we do not have to be a victim to it over and over again.

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      Lori Colbo 3 years ago from Pacific Northwest

      Crafty, I know this horror of vivid nightmares. I am going to tread carefully here. What recurring nightmares, the same nightmare, means to you or to me may be completely different. But it is indicative of a need for action if you can't find peace with it. I don't know if you suffered a trauma you can't remember. It was in my case. But there is something to it. Have you been praying and have you sought the help of a professional counselor? Perhaps it will help to unlock the key so you can deal with whatever is going on.

      Fire, as you say, could mean many things. I don't know the specifics, but the fact that the fire leaves you in terror says one thing for sure, that you somehow, consciously or unconsciously have felt in danger of something. Whether it is of something tangible, like an actual fire you can't remember, or some other trauma you experienced, or you feel fearful of something else that is hidden, I hate to see you suffer alone. Find a professional and take it to the Lord. I will be praying for you.

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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I especially love the last paragraph and the truths contained in it.

      I rarely remember a dream and I mean rarely. I will wake up knowing I had a dream but no recollection of it. As for nightmares...none. When I was in my early twenties after my father died I had them for a couple years, but honestly, in the last forty years, no nightmares.

      Yes, I am lucky!

      Thank you for sharing your experience. I think it is so important for writers to share things like this so that others can learn and not feel alone.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Lambservant, thank you so much for taking the time to stop by, read, and comment. It means a lot.

      I do know that there are a few years in my past from a turbulent childhood that I cannot recall. I've heard of terrible traumas that happened to me. 1) I was thrown against a piano bench which left me needing stitches over my eye. I have scars. 2) I was beaten furiously by my mother's husband.

      I do not recall any of it. These are things I was told about by my mother and honestly she wouldn't know what truth was if it slapped her around like a ham & cheese on rye!

      The second thing is that she left. I was raised by my grandparents. After becoming quite accomplished in a career, marrying and pregnant with my first child, she returned. She came back with a vengeance.

      I had to step back and understand that despite trying to love me in her own way, she never could. She blamed me for having me at such a young age. A few years ago she told me to my face that I ruined her life because she had me so young and never got to do anything she wanted. I was the reason she missed out. And, that hurt. But, I got over it.

      She tries to control and manipulate my entire life. She has tried to sabotage my health. She also has been one to spread violent and wicked rumors which lack merit and others can see through.

      Unfortunately, she is back. I often wonder if that is why I have these dreams. They started when she came back, around the same time I moved here when the dreams started.

      But in any event, I do have secrets hidden that my mind spares me from. I'm just not going to allow her or these nightmares to victimize me any more.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Yes, Billy, I too think it's important that through our writing we express ourselves. I find it very therapeutic not only for myself but for others who have suffered from similar circumstance.

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      Billie Kelpin 3 years ago from Newport Beach

      I just scanned this, but I do love your writing. I have to tell you, I was very fortunate to take a course in Dream Interpretation waaaaay back in the 70s in Seattle. This woman was fantastic and really had a unique perspective based on research, I believe. You're right every symbol is a symbol to that person alone, so finding universal meanings on the web may not be accurate. She emphasized the fact that we "pun" in our dreams and for me, that's definitely true after I've figured out a dream or two of mine. For example, I dreamt about my father "caroling in the hall" and figured out my dream years ago was about my friend Carolann Hall. A certain tribe also has the practice of helping a child who wakes up in the middle of the night with a nightmare, going back to sleep and "re-dreaming" the bear or whatever into something positive. They were found to have a very low rate of psychological problems in that society. Fascinating.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      That is very interesting Billie K! Thank you so much for sharing that and commenting here!

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      Elizabeth Parker 3 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      Sorry that you're suffering through nightmares but I am glad that you are choosing to move forward and say goodbye to your past. I have dreams often and I remember then just as much. I started a dream log because some were so real, yet some, so far fetched. I love both dreams and nightmares (I know, strange), but while they scare me on the night I have them, I like looking back and trying to analyze them later (which never, ever has worked).

      Interesting hub. Voted up and shared.

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      Megan Carroll 3 years ago from Boynton Beach, FL

      This is fantastic. I studied dreams for a while years ago, but made myself crazy trying to understand my own. Super interesting read, thanks for posting!

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Thank you EP! I was thinking about you when I wrote this because one of our first discussions on HP was dreams! LOL

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      Elizabeth Parker 3 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      I remember that discussion!! :) I love discussing dreams. So very interesting.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Thank you Tygher for your comments. Nice to see you!

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      Shauna L Bowling 3 years ago from Central Florida

      Crafty, if your fire dreams occur when your mother shows back up in your life, maybe the dreams are indicating that the relationship is a destructive one and should be extinguished. Perhaps standing your ground and telling your mother to carry on with her life will extinguish these dreams that leave you terrified.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Hi Brave! Yes, I know what you mean.

      There is power in numbers. I've stood alone against the pack and I've earned my freedom from it. I hope that makes sense.

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      wetnosedogs 3 years ago from Alabama

      When I was young, I used to dream of a fire chasing me and I had to jump the fence to escape it. I had that dream alot then.

      I dream silly dreams mostly now.

      Great hub. Sleep well.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Thank you wetnose. Amazingly, I've had undisturbed sleep since writing this.

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      Rebecca Mealey 3 years ago from Northeastern Georgia, USA

      Wow, this is a really interesting topic, and you gave such a great take on the subject of recurring dreams. Voted way on interesting, and I am sharing.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Hi Rebecca! Thank you for commenting. I haven't dreamt it again since I wrote about it. ;D

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      Devika Primić 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Fire Haunts my Dreams what an amazing write from you, this is so unusual and you have created such an interesting hub with explanation and deep though about fire.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Hi DDE! Thank you so much for commenting.

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      FlourishAnyway 3 years ago from USA

      Crafty, I don't know how I missed this hub. It is an excellent, intriguing hub that many people can related to. I'd recommend keeping a dream log of date/details/other things going on in your life to help you chip away at what this means for you. You may want to talk to a qualified professional therapist to help with the significant early childhood traumas. It sounds like you've been through some substantial difficulty and you could be blocking some of it. I'm so sorry for your pain, friend. Thank goodness your grandparents were there as a safety net for you. Sending you a big hug.

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Hi Flourish! Thank you so much for reading this Hub and providing thoughtful insight to it. You hit the nail on the head! I do have blocked memories. There are years that I blocked away, I think to protect my own emotional pain. They were all from my early childhood somewhere between ages 4 to 7. I was taken away at 7. I only know what others have told me, and I'm not even sure I've heard the truth.

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