You Let Her Fly
For years every night while you were sleeping, she talked to you, asked questions, protected you, and promised that she would give you everything… But she could only give you what she had.
Now, she visits you at night and talks to you in your dreams. She comes to let you know that she is still protecting you, holding you, and kissing your eyes filled with tears.
You understood she had to go. She knew it was going to happen. Many times, while flying with her to the stars you pleaded, "Please, don't go." She would answer, "My love will always care for you; my love will always embrace you." That was the way it had to be. She always said that a bird cannot be caged because it belongs to the sky, the breeze, the sun. "The love of a bird is too big to be restrained," she used to say. "The same way our love has moved and danced throughout our lives will stay alive forever because we built it that way."
You let her fly because you love her and she loves you. You screamed her name to the stars and cried until your eyes and heart hurt. After the cry, you would wash your face to start the process of loving her from the distance. You both practiced this before her departure. Many times she would walk to a corner of the room few feet away from you, and sitting on the floor she would asked you to close your eyes, "I will be flying up-above looking for the best views we can share. Whatever I see, you will see. My wings will take you wherever we want to go. You will touch me with your thoughts, and I will kiss you in your dreams." Now it was your time to let her see that her efforts were not in vain.
You lived with her the most beautiful moments, but the most specials were to wake up in the mornings near her body, soft and warm; to look at her in silence while she was still sleeping. She was to you the most amazing, funny, smart, pretty and kind lady on the face of the earth.
Everything in the house reminds you of her. She does not need anything now, only your love and understanding. She just wants you to be strong, take care of yourself and continue living as you both used to do. Keep in mind that she gave you what she had although she wanted to give you everything. Do not worry so much, she knows you gave her everything you had.
That was the way it had to be. She is that bird that needed to fly, and because of your love for her, you let her go. Be happy for her; her body does not hurt. Her spirit is free, at last, the way it had to be.
She visited you last night in your dreams, and again, she held you and kissed your eyes. Last night she told you, "See, my love, I am here with you. I am protecting you as I promised. Be strong, my angel. Tomorrow, when you get up, open the window and let the morning breeze come in. Keep the memories of us alive and enjoy the new way of life, we are both experiencing now. Thank you for letting me fly; the love of a bird is too big to be restrained." You replied, "Fly, my love, fly. You belong to the sky; you belong to the sun."
You dry your tears, and start a new day.
© 2012 AnnaCia