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How can stress impede our thoughts?
Depression and meditation
How can stress impede our thoughts?
Well I have been suffering with depression for....well,actually I can not actually tell you. Since I can remember. You see. I was never actually helped with it as a child. My mother was of the train of thought that children could not suffer from ailments such as these. How wrong was she!?
I took an overdose at 15 years old. Managed to almost do it. My mother refused to take me home until they " sorted me". They referred me to a therapist who said I had a problem with authority. Well you would too if your father was a policeman but all you saw was him nearly killing your mother. That kind of took the rose tint off the big safe policeman impression.
She also stated that my mother needed to be more caring and listen to me a bit more. Yup, you guessed right. That was the end of that and I never got taken back to visit that therapist or any other. She had not got the answer that she was wanting. She wanted confirmation that I was a problem child. And not a child who had been damaged through seeing her mother being beaten and lack of affection off her mother, Anyway, boo hoo. I grew up and dealt with it on my own. There is always a lesson to be had. Mine was that I am a survivor. Well, on my good days I am. On a bad day I struggle to get through the monotony of life. Everything is hard work. I am lucky if I remember appointments, dates, times, things I need to get done.
In my head I would feel stressy and like I was running around like a headless chicken. Hundreds of disorganised thoughts running through my head, but not one I could pin down and get a handle on.
By the time I got to bed time, I realised that I had not done more than was necessary to get through the day. And then because things were a mess, the mess upset me and stressed me out even more.
Finally I could not take any more. I went to see my doctor and begged for help. No, this was not the be all and end all. You see, the doctors must get loads of people trying to pull a fast one, and they don't want to throw pills at every one. So I was sent away to live in my own hell. With the words from the doctor that I was dealing with stress and anxiety and it was just my workload that was doing it.
However. I could not breathe and felt like things were collapsing in on me. With three children and a husband to look after, that just wasn't an option. But I could not organise myself at all. So I went back. I think this was what the doctor was waiting to see if I did. I saw a different doctor who gave me the time I needed to explain everything. He put me on Fluoxetine, otherwise known as Prozac.That was far from the end of my problem and I am still on the tablets now. However, I can now think straight and only have episodes of depression instead of one big long one. Funnily enough, I do not think it is stress and socially related as that first doctor did. I also had the Mirena Coil fitted after having my fourth child, and the hormones in that seem to have made me feel calmer also.
I do not know how long I will be on these tablets. And I no longer feel any shame in taking them. I have met so many women who are embarrassed and in awe that I am so honest. But that is what is needed, because that is half the battle, having confidence in your recovery.
I now have room in my head to think, make organised thoughts and it does not feel so crowded in my own head any more.
Short term memory is affected with depression and stress because of the hormone imbalance. So give yourself a fighting chance and get some help if you even feel similar to how I use to.
Comments
AuthorThank you very much Mary. I am on a kind of level, I am always suffering from periodic bouts , it is horrible.
I do hope you are feeling better now than you were when you wrote this Hub. I've been through some pretty bad events in my life, but thankfully I was able to survive without depression.
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Thank you for the support. I have my good and bad days but writing plus seeing an income starting to dribble in is also helping me feel a bit more worthy.x
You are brave for sharing your own experience. Depression can be a difficult condition to muster, and master.People should never be ashamed to seek help when they need it, for it is a condition like any other. It leads to a lot of stress, and I can only imagine your difficulty. I am glad, though, that you seem to be getting better!! My blessings.
I am so happy we can help each other.Take one day at a time.You are not going to help matters if you are sick and can't help out where needed.Remember stress we can create and we also can eliminate.Take a deep breath and smile more.It is so hard to be stressed and smiling at the same time.
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Oh Dream On, you are a magical person. Yes I have had struggles in my life, but that just brings out the "sink or swim" mentality. People like you make my days lighter and easier. People underestimate the kindness of a word meant of kindness.
I really wish I was less easily stress, yet I almost live on the energy my stress gives me. I accomplish most when I am under pressure.
I look forward to reading your hubs and you are welcome for the follow.x
I find your story moving and courageous.With so many obstacles in your way you keep finding solutions.You have a wonderful family that can learn from the many disappointments and now successes that you continue to reach.I often have many scattered thoughts.I have found as I put them one by one on paper they fall into place.I don't worry or fear.I just do what I can each day and then share the happiness that I see.I see love that isn't bound by anyone or anything.I find peace in myself even if noone cares.I often wonder what different people go through and how my life would be different if I lived their life.You have shared a personal story of struggle and triumph.I have never dealt with real physical problems just imaginary ones that speak to me to do better.To drive me when everyone else is lazy.To always question when other people don't care.I keep saying it will make me a better person.I don't let stress into my life.I smile alot and find things that make me laugh.I enjoy reading about special people like you who keep reaching for the stars.I want to bring the stars closer so you don't have to reach so high.I still don't have the answers and sometimes the stars slip away.I will be their trying and when that day comes I will laugh the best and longest laugh that anyone has ever laughed.I can say I made it and it was possible.But for now I am just standing with my hands in the air.So when you are having a bad day you can think of me.How silly I look trying to bring the stars from the sky to you.Have a wonderful night and thanx for the follow.
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Yes Brett, I am very glad I do not live in the time where electric shock therapy or worse was the "cure" to this ailment.
Thank you very much for stopping by and commenting, appreciated as always.x
Voted up and Awesome, a very honest and personal hub. The old ways of dealing with it were, well, SCARY! But, nowadays it is quite normal to suffer from stress.
Thanks for SHARING.
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Thank you Myfavourite bedding. It is extremely unfortunate that depression in children is not taken seriously. Hopefully it will change.x
Unfortunately, even today, many kids that are suffering from depression are viewed as "problem children" instead of searching for the true answers. You wrote a great hub, and even if it helps just one person, it will be well worth it.
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You are welcome. I know I come here to get motivation some times. Thank you for dropping by my hub Wrieract.x
Thank you very much for sharing your story, it always helps a lot when someone tells you their story, how they got out of a situation. Thanks a lot for motivating and helping us at the same time. I look forward to reading more of your hubs.
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Thank you Spsingh
Thank you for your comment Wil C
It is not fair to suffer in silence when that makes the illness more unbearable. Thank you for your comment.
Thanks Ddraigcoch for taking the time to share. I believe the more people realize they are not alone in this depression the more people will seek help. Whether it be through doctors, books or just talking to friends, depression should not be ignored. The world is a harsh, cold place sometimes and people like you make trying to shed some light are always appreciated.
helpful voted useful!!! thanks
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Thank you Fetty. The only problem is with writing is, the more you do it and see improvement. The less happy you are with your first pieces. I really need to go back and improve my first few hubs. Thank you for your kind words also.
Beautifully written. You were very brave to go to the doctor in the first place but you were very wise to go back. Never, never be ashamed of helping yourself. Very awesome hub for a person who HAD too many disorganized thoughts in her head once upon a time. Congrats.!!!
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Thank you Cogerson. The best part was realising I was not alone,, so hopefully some one else will realise that reading this.
Glad to see things worked out for you...thanks for sharing your personal story which could help out people in similar situations...voted up and useful
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