How to get through a dismal day
How to tell when your ego has taken over
How to get through a dismal day?
There are some days when awakening in the morning is hard. It can be compare to those mornings when we really do not want to start the day. Our body, mind and soul just do not feel in sync. The sounds or lack of sounds resonate an exaggeration to our ears. We sort through our minds looking for anything that is schedule today that could give us a glimmer of excitement. Instead, our mind is a grey blank slate. The storm clouds have circled in our mind, and awakening to this day cloaks us in dark drab garb.
We all experience days like this. It could be a perfect picture summer day, yet the storm clouds have penetrated our mind, building pressure. If only we could take a bottle of glass cleaner to wipe away our bleakness. If we can do this, then our mind would have a clear picture. How odd that we assume only light can bring us answers. How often do we run away from the shadows of grey in our mind? We are frightened of them because they suggest something negative about us. We treat these shadows as demonic, and linked to craziness. We declare depression and other hosts of psychological maladies. We use a variety of methods to escape this dreaded grey mood, from drugs, alcohol to excessive exercising. Often if we just sit in it and acknowledge there are times life is not too inviting, the mood will pass.
We have become a society of running from our emotions. We are constantly looking for that high. The cost though often is too expensive. We have forgotten to stop and listen to our own mind, body and spirit. We have become disassociated with our very own essence. This was my state of mind the other day. My mood had plummeted into a depression. My will power had no drive to fight it. As I sat with my laptop, my mind had searched for some type of help to release this feeling of dread. Playing solitaire did not elevate my mood. Talking with my boyfriend did not help either. The many titles of self-help audio books did not entice me. There seem to be no out from the chains of depression, or so I thought.
It is interesting how I discard my own written material, especially those that have come to me through spiritual intervention. My usual tendency is to look towards other authors, but on that day I opened the e-booklet I wrote and the first chapter grabbed me. Believing was my issue for that day, as well as the few days prior. My believing got muddled with what my ego felt was best, instead of letting go and let God. The circumstances brought old patterns that have hindered my emotional state in the past, and my spiritual self was not capable of shouting over my ego. My projection of how I perceived the day events, distorted my true senses. Believing I did not deserve this was my clue that my ego was doing the projection dance. When I read the first chapter of the Crystal Fairies twenty lenses on how to self-heal, I realized my ego was distorting, and by their means, I was able to put the spirit path of believing back into my daily perspective.
This was a valuable lesson for me. What I learned is that we always have to be on guard with our thinking. There will always be events that will throw us, and it is best to accept this. Through being diligent with what is going on internally we can see the shift and guide it to a healthier state of mind. Life will throw you curve balls, so do not try to find an instant way to bury these obstacles. Go within and see where your ego has taken a stand. It is at that spot that you can then begin to detach your ego from its’ behavior, and begin using believing without the attachments of judgment, or how deserving you are, instead believing is the laws of the Universal Consciousness. To understand this concept better you might wish to refer to my blog on believing.