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The Manic Side Of Bipolar, When It's Not Fun Anymore

Updated on December 11, 2015
Ups and downs of bipolar
Ups and downs of bipolar

Serious Erratic Thinking

This hub focuses on what life with bipolar is during the manic phase is like. There are those people in life who think being manic is like touching the moon. I suppose briefly it is like having the best high of your life, but eventually you start aiming for the landing pad, and that is not exactly a comfortable target to land on. The days went like this...

I had been UBER manic for exactly 2 days at that point in time. I believe the 160 mgs of Geodon boosted my mood right into outer space. It's a good thing all the money I had been saving for my move to Florida was with my mother. Or I would have been shopping, playing, partying, and having wild encounters with strangers with it.

Yeah all that sounds utterly crazy huh? Well I decided Geodon was not the medication for me. I mean when I am that manic I should be safely ensconced in a mental facility where it is safe. Those two days I felt totally invincible. Luckily I still had some logic and KNEW I was NOT God. But I sure as heck felt like I could take on anything, and that included fun things God gets to do.

Me and Doctor Get Wellington were not doing so great with finding some stability in the medication department. But I still adamantly refused Clozaril and electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) treatments. My mother very kindly suggested that might be the answer for me. She had them several years ago when they were not exactly nurturing. Excuse me mother but are you nuts? I can't remember my birthday now, imagine what shock treatments would do with it? Thank you for suggesting it, but maybe later.

I was hoping the Seroquel and Ativan would bring me down a few notches or I was going to take my pennies to the bar and have a jolly good time. Or accept a DATE with one of those chaps in my apartment building who has boogers for brains. Again logic told me having to many shots of tequila, dancing on tables, doing the wild thing, getting pregnant, eloping, ws one gigantic boo boo.

No sleep for a few days made me type faster. It even made me think I was funny. Ha Ha! Can't write when I am that manic because I got busy doing 1,739 other important things like cleaning, arranging furniture, pacing, talking to loud, driving my mother to the point of rolling her eyes. Yes rolling her eyes. That can be so irritating sometimes. So that was me for two days, I was working on getting down to an acceptable level or seriously considering a visit to the emergancy room if the medication combonation didn't kick in immediately. Being in a manic state like that is just so exciting up to a certain point, then I just want to jump off a building to see if I can fly. And we all know how that would end. A day in the life of a flying bipolar, well you get the idea...

Eventually the calm comes

So his lasted well over a few weeks before another medication to replace Geodon was given to reign in that severe manic episode.The manic phase of bipolar can often be very enjoyable, but there comes a point that it starts interferring with your daily life. You become restless, lose sleep, and become frustrated because you are just to erratic to keep up. The calm eventually comes. You fall back into a normal state or more often than not into a depression. These episodes can be treated with a good psychiatrist who prescribes medication to keep the mood swings under control. The more you know about bipolar, the easier it gets keeping moods in check. By defining what triggers episodes, when it's time to consult a doctor and knowing when you are not entirely well.

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    • crazybeanrider profile imageAUTHOR

      Boo McCourt 

      8 years ago from Washington MI

      Hi DzyMsLizzy-I am doing much better these days on a nice combination of medications. It was a bad period there for awhile. With bipolar you can never tell when it is going to change. So I am grateful when I am well. Thank you for your kind words.

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      Liz Elias 

      8 years ago from Oakley, CA

      Hi-

      I hope you find the right combo. I can't even imagine what it's like to be THAT "up" for whatever reason--drinking too much doesn't do it for me--just puts me to sleep. (And I've never tried any other drugs..) I'm sure the coming down side must involve complete exhaustion after doing all that high-energy stuff.

      Best wishes to you!

    • crazybeanrider profile imageAUTHOR

      Boo McCourt 

      8 years ago from Washington MI

      Hey Huntgoddess-I have done extensive research on shock therapy, and it is only my last resort. At one time it was the route I was going to take, my manic episodes were so bad. But I am fairly okay for now. So that option is not up for debate right now. it was that or Clozaril.Thank you for commenting, it is great having you here at HubPages.:)

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      Huntgoddess 

      8 years ago from Midwest U.S.A.

      Don't let anybody talk you into shock treatment, and don't sign anything, if you can possibly get out of it. I know they try to put gigantic pressure on clients, to sign away their rights.

      God bless.

    • crazybeanrider profile imageAUTHOR

      Boo McCourt 

      8 years ago from Washington MI

      Hey BlogggerOne-Oh I am doing much better these days. That was just one day not to long ago. When I was having trouble trying to find the right medication combination. There are so many layers to bipolar/manic depression. So many bad days and so many good ones too.

      Thank you so much for caring :)

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      BlogggerOne 

      8 years ago

      Hey, hope you find a great treatment and SOON. You poor baby!

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