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Rainbows of Gratitude

Updated on July 17, 2012

Perfect Rainbow

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Greeted by a perfect rainbow this morning
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Texas

"Texas, Our Texas! all hail the mighty State! Texas, Our Texas! so wonderful so great!"
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Becoming an American

I sit here, dear Reader, with a myriad thoughts swirling through my mind. This morning, I was up just before dawn and went outside to see which kitty cats were there to greet me. Mamacita and her two adorable kittens, Smudge the Siamese and Calico Katie, were glad to see me. The kittens have been fixed (thank goodness), and have had their shots and are good to go and will hopefully find loving homes. Mama is a different story. Twice I had her in my arms and inside my apartment but could not get her into a carrier. I will try again tonight. She is most probably pregnant again as three of the Tomcats here were attending her constantly.

As I stepped outside my apartment this morning, I looked up at a beautiful cloud formation, and then turned the corner to be greeted by a bright and perfect rainbow. I caught my breath as the colors were vibrant and the rainbow was a complete semicircle. I tried to capture it with my camera and hope that the pictures at least give an indication of the beauty that greeted me. As I took pictures, the rainbow began to fade as the sun showed her glowing face.

I have a great deal to be grateful for and I think it’s important to express my thoughts and feelings. Since the turn of the century, and actually, the turn of the millennium, I spent the first six years in Texas, learning how to be an American and enjoying married life with my husband. His heart attack, just a month before our sixth anniversary, was a bolt from the blue and gave me the biggest shock I have ever experienced. As it turned out, I was sworn in as an American citizen three days before our anniversary. My husband did not make the ceremony and was unable to pin me with the American flag, but he was there in spirit, I could feel him standing behind me. When I think back to the things he had been saying and the way he had been feeling about a month prior to his death, I remember that I could not make sense of it. I never thought I would lose him and was left extremely shocked, vulnerable and alone, wondering what I was going to do with my life.

Six years of happiness - six years of struggle

The next shock came six months later with a diagnosis of uterine cancer. I thought I would be joining my husband in the hereafter and was greatly surprised to regain consciousness after surgery. I began my next six years as an American and a different human being after my reproductive organs were removed and I was thrown into immediate menopause. It was an awful experience and I have had to see myself change radically from the attractive woman I was into an older, wiser and less feminine human being – one of the most devastating changes being the loss of my pretty hair. I was also, a middle-aged student and suffered the indignities of an older person in a largely youthful collection of young students learning a new skill. Don’t get me wrong, I was incredibly grateful to have won my place amongst four other students, but I had a hard time completing the course – which I did with full honors. I went on to earn my credentials and began the search for a job in my chosen profession.

During this last six years, I have also lost both my parents, my brother-in-law and father-in-law. I still visit my mother-in-law who is in a nursing home and has been devastated since the very recent loss of her husband and youngest son. She is sad and lonely and when I visit, I sometimes just sit on her bed and hold her hands and try to make her comfortable. I bring her the occasional things she likes or needs, like socks, or hard candy to suck, or now and then, some ice cream. She deeply appreciates my company and we are very close and understand one another emotionally. I am grateful to have her company and the company of some very precious friends I have made during my time in Texas.

A Rainbow points the way with faith and hope

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A fresh start

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Looking to Canada

As the last month or so draws closer to my move to Canada, I have been enjoying the summer with its abundant flowers, birds and animals. The sky is filled with flight and with the noises of a variety of creatures and it makes my heart full. As my mind races with all that still needs to be done to enter what I feel is this last chapter of my life, I am grateful for all the blessings that I have had. I was given support when I needed it. Friends afforded me emotional support whilst my family helped me financially. I was given the opportunity to study and earned various scholarships which helped me along the way. Even though I have been alone, I have had company with friends and creatures living around me. Nature has been a great Healer and I thank all the friends I have made, both “in real life” and through the magic of the Internet, which is what brought me to America in the first place.

Facebook has been a wonderful place to connect with like-minded people who have allowed me to blossom in light and love and the positivity that I have worked hard at maintaining has lifted me up and allowed me to walk on, one day at a time. I share beautiful images and thoughts with friends and I know that I, too, am making a difference in the lives of others, as they do for me also. The added sharing of beautiful images on Pinterest highlight what people like and share. In addition, when I was looking for work, I stumbled across Hub Pages and a new world of writers opened to me and gave me the opportunity to express myself and give my thoughts and feelings a platform. This has been wonderful also, as this is a community of people who write as well as read and the feedback has been incredibly uplifting as I feel the compulsion to write. I have made friends here too and I’m grateful to have found a following of 115 people within three months. I consider these people to be friends with whom I have many things in common.

I know that I have made a difference in ways both large and small during my time here. I am filled with mixed emotions and many poignant feelings as I find my way to move from these United States to a new country, a new climate, new friends and a new job. One doesn’t often get the chance to remake oneself or one’s life more than once, and I am extremely grateful that I have the opportunity to move to Canada to experience life in a climate filled with ice and snow and new Nature to appreciate. While I wait for my work permit to reach me, I am guessing what dates to fix and I move forward with faith that everything will work out for the best. I think I am where I am meant to be. The rainbow that greeted me this morning seems to point the way to a rosier future and I am so grateful.

A new day dawns

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      That's so sweet of you to say, Neil Sperling. :)))) What a beautiful message. HUGS hugs and well wishes Right Back. {{ hugs }}

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      Neil Sperling 5 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

      A new day dawns and Canada welcomes a cool spirit.... one with wisdom of experience and wisdom of travel. A huge hug loaded with well wishes being sent from my mind to your. {{ hugs}}

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hiya Sunshine! :) My favorite Tweetybird! Heck, if I see that pot (of gold), I'll be sure to let you know! We could have some serious fun with that. :))))) Thanks for Tweeting... something I haven't looked into at all yet. xxx

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      Linda Bilyeu 5 years ago from Orlando, FL

      Stopping by to see if I could find a pot of gold. Nope, not yet. I'll be sure and check back again soon. Tweeted :)

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hey there, TerryeToombs... it's GOOD to see you! I have been sorting, selling, sorting, sorting, packing, and still so much to do!! Thank you so much for the wonderful comments. It has been a very solitary day for me and not much computing time, so doubly glad for seeing you pop in. Love "talking" with you, too and really look forward to reading more of your hubs also. Thank you for the friendship too - you're such a delight. :))))

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      Terrye Toombs 5 years ago from Somewhere between Heaven and Hell without a road map.

      Wow, Sue, I thought I had commented on this but I guess I didn't and I am so sorry. You are a strong, beautiful woman and I have no doubt you will take whatever comes your way and make the most of it. I love 'talking' with you on FB and always look forward to reading your newest hub. You have an infectious happy personality and I thank you for the friendship. :)

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hi Deb,

      Thanks so much for your lovely comments. As always, they are greatly appreciated. I would love to go on a walk with you at Boomer Lake right now... I'm in the throes of moving and it's always unsettling I think. One day, when I have settled down, I will visit Boomer Lake via your hubs... hugs to you, aviannovice. :)

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      Deb Hirt 5 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Such a beautiful expression of life, both good times and bad. Your photos are lovely!

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Wooohoooo, Heavenleigh! Thank you so much and many Blessings to you, too. :)

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      Heaven L Burkes 5 years ago from The Invincible Heart of Neverland

      Sue, thank you so much for responding to me. I would also like to add -

      You Go Guuuuurl! Canada ain't seen nothin' yet! Many Blessings to you!

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Dear Heavenleigh707: Thank you so much for the beauty of your words and heart! I am so grateful for the sentiments you expressed - you touched my heart! When we get knocked down on the path of life, we just have to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and carry on walking - one step at a time - even though sometimes that process is slow. I am grateful for the beauty of nature, the kindness of family and the support of friends, but most of all, for the love I have been blessed to receive. ?

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      Heaven L Burkes 5 years ago from The Invincible Heart of Neverland

      Sue, you are amazing. An unbreakable spirit. My hat is off to your wonderful ability to find gratitude for the beautiful simplicities of life, even though life has dealt you some very tough blows. I have a new hero - thanks for the inspiration!

      Much love and gratitude to you! ~h~

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hi KoffeeKlatch Gals: That is so kind of you to say!! Got tears pricking my eyes again... screen blurred! Thank you for visiting, reading, for your validating comments and for your votes. I so greatly appreciate all. xx

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      Susan Haze 5 years ago from Sunny Florida

      You are truly an inspiration. A marvelous inspirational writer. Actually an inspiration to us all. Wonderful hub. Up and awesome.

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hi Jools99: Thank you so much! I am excited, and nervous, and overwhelmed, and thankful - it's all a mixed bag of emotions and so much to do before I get there! :)))) Best wishes to you, too.

      Hi Rajan Jolly: Thank you so much for your kind words and heartfelt sentiments... you made my eyes prick with tears when I read them. You touch my heart and I am so grateful for your wishes and your votes and thank you for sharing on. Hopefully sorrows shared are sorrows halved. Warm wishes to you.

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      Rajan Singh Jolly 5 years ago from From Mumbai, presently in Jalandhar,INDIA.

      Sue this is one of the most inspirational writings I've read. After having faced so much adversity it a fitting tribute to your tenacity that you have found a new life, a new place,a new job.

      You are one brave woman and I wish you well with all my heart.

      Voting this write a big thumbs up, I wish to share it with all in the hope that reading this will give strength to those in despair.

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      Jools99 5 years ago from North-East UK

      Suelynn, hope your move to Canada brings a new start; you sound excited at the prospect and I wish you all the best.

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Hi KDuBarry: Thank you for your lovely comments and I'm so glad you like the pictures. :) It gives me such a lift when people get what I'm writing... Y'all made my day.

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      KDuBarry03 5 years ago

      Very peaceful and I loved the pictures you chose to go along with it! You are definitely a strong person and it shows through your experience :)

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Dear Kathy (Lucky Cats): Omigosh, these animals have been a blessing to me. Being a cat lover yourself, I know you fully understand this comment and I am equally blessed and happy to know you. Thank you so much for your lovely comments and I so appreciate the good wishes and wish you the same. xxx

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      Kathy 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      i forgot to say, Suelynn, THANK you so much for helping those sweet kitties who have come into your life. You are an angel on earth. Through all your own persona trevails and loss, fear of health issues and so many life changing events....you have found the time...no, you have MADE the time to help them. I am awestruck and so happy to know you. bless you a thousand times and the best of well wishes for you and your unfolding new life. Kathy

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Dear BeyondMax: Thank you so much for your very kind validations. Y'all have really touched my heart in the deepest way and I am so thankful for all your wonderful wishes. I will have a lot less computer time while I orchestrate this move and more time to set up in Canada and settle in there as well, so please be patient with me. Hugs right back atcha and thank you for your prayers! Right now, I'm flying on a wing and a prayer. :) xxx

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      BeyondMax 5 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Suelynn, you are such an inspiration and absolutely amazing person! Oh my God, such a tough journey, you are fighter and a strong spirit, you are a big heart and a wonderful talented writer! I wish you all the best with your move, hope to hear more from you! Hugs and prayers your way!

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Dear Teaches12345: Thank you kindly for your wonderful comments and good wishes. While I may be absent for a while as I take care of moving, I will certainly remain connected. :)

      Dear Lucky Cats: I so appreciate your encouragement and the fact that you absolutely understand me. Thank you so much for your response and for your wonderful good wishes. When I know that I have connected with someone, as I seem to have done with this hub to quite a few wonderful writers, it touches my heart and gives me both strength and comfort. I am SO glad you love the photos - I have a little Canon Powershot and have always wanted to photograph well but at this point, just aim and shoot! :) Thank you so much for your votes.

      Dear Vellur: I so greatly appreciate your continued prayers on my behalf. Thank you so much and your words provide a beautiful visualization to move forward with. Take care too. :)

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      Nithya Venkat 5 years ago from Dubai

      My prayers for you always to keep going on and on, may your life be filled with happiness and joy and golden beams of sunlight shining bright. Take care.

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      Kathy 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      Suelynn, such a beautiful hub you've shared with us. So well written, so full of hope and inspiration. I have only just begun to read your amazing writing, but I feel as if I know you through your natural ease of communication. You are talking to us, your readers and friends. I love this style of writing...I so appreciate feeling as if the writer is talking directly to me....you are that personable. I cannot imagine all the loss and heartache you have experienced, my goodness! A new country, the loss of your husband so quickly, so many loved ones passing; your great love and concern for the little kitties you help, and now....another new step....career, life, homel....all changing. I am very very impressed and in awe of your strength..grace and positive attitude. You are such a strong yet sensitive person. Just completely astounding....so much you've been through; so many tremendous life changing changes....losses and yet, you are surging ahead; looking forward and caring for others all along the way. I wish you the best of good fortune and success; and I hope that everything unfolds for you as your most fantastic dreams desire.....I am so glad I noticed this story on the live scroll...such a gift to all of us. Thank you!!!!! All ups but funny.

      PS BEAUTIFUL photos. Yes, you captured it!

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      Dianna Mendez 5 years ago

      What a journey you have experienced, dear lady. I pray that the new chapter in your life will begin to prove life's joy for you. You are so inspiring to me and I hope that you will continue share with us as you journey forward.

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Dear Klurbauer: Thank you so much for your kind comments – they are much appreciated. :)

      Dear Fennelseed (Annie): I so greatly appreciate your sentiments and keep them in my treasure chest. Thank you so much for your votes and lovely wishes and I will certainly be staying in touch once things have settled down. :)

      Dear Docmo: Thank you kindly for your insights and kindness, and yes, we will certainly be connecting again. Thanks so much for the Hub Hugs…. Hugs right back atcha. :)

      Dear Susan: Thank you so much for saying! I am so glad I can connect with others at any level and particularly emotionally. What you say is so true about learning. Thank you for the thumbs up! I am so grateful.

      :)

      Dear Mary: Thank you so much for your kind words and gracious wishes. I do so appreciate them and your votes. :)

      Dear Suzettenaples: Thank you so much. All your wonderful feedback and beautiful wishes are felt deeply by me and I can’t tell you all how much I appreciate them. I do feel as though this is the end of this phase and the beginning of a new one and that is as much as I can hope for. I look forward to connecting with all of you when I have settled in up North. Many thanks and much gratitude from me.

      :)

      Dear Josh: Thank you for such lovely comments and wonderful wishes. I am so glad you love the photos – I wish I could have done that rainbow more justice, but perhaps the video made up for that a little. :)

      Dear Folkart (Ruth): Thank you for your wonderful words – they are a blessing to me. I have no doubt that the upbringing of my beloved parents had much to do with my ability to deal with all that has transpired. I hope I am a testament to them. From your lips to Gd’s Ears! I will call you soon. :)

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      Folkart76@aol.com 5 years ago

      Suelynn. you are an inspiration.How you have gone through these past years with beauty and grace is a tribute to your dear mother and father who reared you to be the lovely person you are. I hope your new adventure in Canada will be peaceful and filled with wonderful experiences and many new friends. your writings have given me such pleasure;the photos are exceptional. You should write a book. All the best. Call me,please to let me know what I can do to help.

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      Joshua Zerbini 5 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Sue,

      This is such a beautiful and inspiring hub! I am so proud of you for sharing this personal hub about your past trials. You are brave soul and an inspiration to us all to look on the positive things of life and to keep moving on.

      Thanks for sharing this hub Sue, and I hope your move up north is beneficial and productive for you!

      P.S. Your photos are gorgeous! :)

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      Suzette Walker 5 years ago from Taos, NM

      What a beautiful piece. Yes, I think the rainbows are a symbol that your life will unfold in even better ways. I wish you the best in your move to Canada and your new job. That should be exciting and new. I love all the photos you have included with this piece. They are beautiful - I've never seen Texas look so pretty. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. I look forward to hearing great stories from Canada!

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      Mary Hyatt 5 years ago from Florida

      What can I say? You are a true inspiration to us all! My heart goes with you to Canada, and my wishes for a happier life.

      I voted this Hub UP, Mary

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      Susan 5 years ago

      On what lovely pictures!! And the story that accompanies them is as fitting to my emotional response to these pictures, as your emotional response is to your life and circumstance.

      It is obvious from your writing that there are many hurdles you have met with. You have overcome the devastating impact on your life. You are to be congratulated. You know, we only get 'old' when we close off from learning. You are still learning.

      Fabulous piece!!! Thumbs up!!!

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      Mohan Kumar 5 years ago from UK

      Sue, you are a brave and brilliant inspiration to all of us. It's heart breaking to hear all that you have endured in these past times. My best wishes for a brand new dawn, a brand new start. You know where we all are, you know we'll be here wishing, waiting and connecting all over again while you get settled in your new home. Hub Hugs.

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      Annie Fenn 5 years ago from Australia

      I am with Sunshine, yours is an inspirational journey, Suelynn and it is you that makes it so. With what you have been through, many would still be trying to pick themselves up yet you are ploughing forward with so much determination and grace, and your loved ones passed over are there beside you.

      All the best in your new homeland and your new career, please keep us up to date. My votes and best wishes to you from Annie.

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      klurbauer 5 years ago from Brink of Insanity ;)

      This was so inspirational and touching. Thank you so much for sharing this with others!

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      Suelynn 5 years ago from Manitoba, Canada

      Sunshine: I see why you have your name! You just brought tears to my eyes, Girlfriend. Thank you for your kind words and beautiful heart - I am so happy to have made friends like you. BIG HUGS! xx

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      Linda Bilyeu 5 years ago from Orlando, FL

      Sue, You are an inspiration to me. You have a heart of gold. You just pick yourself and dust yourself off even when you think it's absolutely impossible. We all draw strength from each other. You know where to find me, and I know where to find you:)

      Thank you for sharing your journey with us.