Some People Are a Void
With some people it's never gonna be enough, they are a void. You can keep on throwing things into the void but it's all just gonna spiral down. You can't fill them up. Your love, your attention, your words, your grand actions, it will just go down the drain, no matter how many torches you throw down there, how many candles you light, it's gonna remain dark there, always, but don't feel sorry for them, they want it that way. They have kept it that way. They like the misery surrounding them, they like draining the light out of you, maybe they can't help it, maybe that's all they learnt to love. But that's them. And you are you. And you must preserve yourself.
There is this common misconception we have, we grow up believing that we must do good deeds without expecting anything in return, but eventually we feel so drained, we don't understand what went wrong. We don't want to expect anything but we don't feel wholesome after doing selfless generous acts. We begin to doubt ourselves and our intentions. But see the thing is we confuse people who can't return the favour with people who don't need the favour. We keep on throwing all our resources into a void and THAT makes us feel drained. See you wouldn't mind watering a tree plant whose fruit you may never get to eat; but watering a place where there is no seed, is just gonna take your water. Nothing else. Thing is we do need the reward, but it doesn't have to be something that personally benefits us, we do need the feeling that our actions aren't just going to waste, that some good is happening cause of it, that's our reward.
Often times in life, we come across people that are damaged, and we feel this urge to heal their cracks, we feel like it's something we must do, and we go all in, we think we are in love with them and then we justify it by thinking love is suppose to be unconditonal, love is suppose to be blind, we destroy ourselves in the process not realizing, our patience and actions are doing no good. What's important to realize is, we owe ourselves something as well, we forget about it; but our first responsibility is our sound mind and body. Our mental health. Its our job to take care of it, it's our job to look for help if we can't help ourselves.
So before you go, giving something or someone your all, think about the good it's bringing in the world, think if it's filling you up or draining. Think about it's consequences on your mental health. Think about it all.