Strong Woman Revival

When you start over, you have to create new passions. Some you just revise; such as the fact that my path led me to my favorite population. ANIMALS! There are only a few beings on the planet that love me more than my dog. I know, I have witnessed many hateful people that make me question humanity. When I am around animals I feel closer to my grandfather, who really loved his horses. Animals offer the unconditional love to lower anxiety. When I retire, I hope to continue doing volunteer work with animal shelters.

When I was sworn in, by a judge, as a Guardian Ad Litem, my first time being a voice for a child in Department of Social Services court, had one of the two daughters die of SIDS. I had found out about it during a team meeting at Department of Social Services. It was shocking. However, the mother had not given the infant a good start in life. Luckily, during this time I was doing my internship, and we had meetings to discuss such things on our class days. Even though I did not do my internship at Guardian Ad Litem, it still pertain to social work class, so I shared the loss of a 7 month old infant, dying of SIDS. It was heart breaking. I had to get through to the mom to change her life for the sake of her 2 year old daughter. The loss of her infant made her want to try harder not to lose her 2 year old. She had to clean up her act.

However, when I started working as a job coach, I didn't know what to expect. (A BSW classmate of mine was doing the same kind of work in North Carolina.) However, I knew that my boss was quite impressed with my resume. After two months being with the firm, I had to attend a mandatory meeting about our company merging with another company. At this meeting, the boss stated that Vocational Rehabilitation office were singing our company's praises. The boss stated the client's name - which was my client. I knew from that moment on that I had started making a name for myself. I have been given clients at a days notice, or had to be on hand to make an introduction between another job coach and client, due to a last minute change.

My boss has also sung my praises in mass emails, as well. The first job coach had to cut her hours, so I had to take on clients from another program. I will just keep going until I no longer can keep going. It is all that anyone can do in life.

For awhile, I did more assessments than actual coaching. Our busiest time of year is usually Spring and Summer time. Therefore, I have to wait for an actual coaching client, and do lots of assessments with high school students. The actual population that I wanted to work with, when I did my elective work in School Environment Social Work class.

I really enjoy the quotes of strength that I receive on facebook. They give me even more thought to increase my strength. To process what I have been through, and where I am going.

I have now conquered the fear of driving in the snow. Sliding all over a country road really isn't as scary as I thought. However, I try to avoid roads near bodies of water, because drowning is not the way I want to leave this Earth. (Which an uncle of mine almost did while living in Tupper Lake, New York.)

I do believe that "Anything that has power over you is teaching you how to take your power back." Which is one that I will continue to work on until my dying day.

"Anything you can't control is teaching you how to let go." - Believe me, I have. There will always be anger. Thanks to my article on soul damage, I feel I am more mindful of my anger, and it makes it easier to handle now.

I'm not good at traveling backwards anyway. With my seizure disorder, it just makes me dizzy.

ACCEPTANCE IS THE ONLY WAY TO MOVE FORWARD!!!

I have increased my strength My new routine has set in. Humanity had taught me that this was the only way to be, until someone that was ahead of me in a Jack in the Box drive thru, saw me crying in my own vehicle, and paid for my breakfast. Therefore, I continue to keep moving. I'm still functioning. I rely on my soul, because my heart and mind have led me astray in the past.

In my meetings with new people, going to different businesses and meeting these strong women. I have found that many of these women are getting their hair cut shorter, which I think is great and SO refreshing. Even one younger than myself got her hair cut short. I hate long hair. Especially, when I am just plain busy and need a minimal maintenance hair cut. When I first got my haircut and had to do annual training with my bosses' boss, she didn't recognize me. It was pretty funny!! My hairdresser cut my hair so I can change my part to either side, or wear bangs with no part at all. That makes it fun.

The story of why my father hates long hair. Yes, the story has to do with 4 year old me. HE HATED COMBING MY HAIR AND TRYING TO GET THE TANGLES OUT. Never knew he did my hair, but HE DID!! Probably had to when I travelled to Canada with him on the weekends. No more tangles with short hair. I had a short hair do by 1st grade, due to those tangles.

Actress Alyssa Milano was said to have started the online #metoo frenzy. Where women started coming out about sexual harassment, sexual assault or rape. I am also here to say, #metoo.

I was a 16 year old high school student, living in O'Fallon, Missouri. I had gone to the corner gas station and was walking home. I recognized a guy who rode the same bus to school. We spoke to each other, and he decided to grab my ass. When I did not welcome his advances, he called me a bitch, and I walked home. I didn't tell anyone. I didn't think I could, since it did not take place on school campus. However, that same school year, he knocked up another girl that also rode our school bus. However, maybe that girl wouldn't have been going through a teen pregnancy if I had said something? Or, maybe their relationship was mutual. I get the feeling that it was not. I believe she went on to have a baby conceived by rape.

There are so many things that I want to do to further my own feminine strength, and to help other women further their own.

From my BSW program, one of my classmates had the privilege of attending the Woman's March at Capitol Hill. I think that's awesome. However, all I could do was put the "I stand with girls" frame on my default picture, and to the Republicans chagrin I spoke my mind on social media. It brought me closer to more Liberal friends, and made me decide to block some others. No regrets. Just sanity. I am no longer putting up with bad Republican behavior, such as the scenario below:

Son's friend's parent: "Who did you vote for?"

Me: (respond politely to a question): "Obama."

Son's friend's parent: "You're the anti Christ."

Me:Politely walk away.

I should have said, "none of your business." However, I was not prepared for her response. I was NEVER so glad to NOT be a Republican in all my life. Because if that is how they act, I want no part of it. None. I won't change how I vote because of their bad behavior. She acted immaturely, and I am very glad that I have no relationship with her today. From what I hear, she divorced the father of her five sons anyway, and remarried someone else. She couldn't have been all that to begin with. I suspect that the "friends" she was spending time with in a nearby city, when the father of her five children was in Iraq is now her new husband. Not all people associated with the military have integrity or morals. Just like there are good and bad people in each religion, ethnicity, race, sexual orientation, political party....There are bad people in the military as well.