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The Addiction Dictionary

Updated on November 2, 2013

Otherwise Known As Addictionary

The use of addictive substances has tripled in the United States over the past decade. The percentages are higher internationally.

Read that again. The numbers have tripled in ten years.

How many addicts are there in the world? That is an impossible question. It might be possible to count the number of alcoholics and come to a reasonable approximation. The same can be said of cocaine addicts and meth addicts and heroin addicts. But now toss in those addicted to gambling and sex and prescription drugs and overeating and……and….and…..

Yes, an impossible question! It might be easier to count the number of fleas on a homeless mongrel.

So this dictionary is for all of you….literally for the hundreds of millions of addicts in the world who have, in one way or another, found a crutch to help them get through life, or to escape life; whichever one applies.

Seven years ago I was an active alcoholic
Seven years ago I was an active alcoholic | Source


Yes, that feeling of dread, anxiety, and apprehension. Some might call it revulsion…some would be correct in that assessment.


The battle is never-ending. The need increases, the hope decreases and dreams of a brighter future fade with each passing day.


The disease is eating you alive. From the inside out, your mind, your body, your spirit, all devoured by the living being that can never be satiated.


Reality or delusion? What is real when you are not in control of your life? How can you possibly make an intelligent decision when you live in a distorted state?


One is too many and one hundred not enough. That is the world you live in now. There is no quieting the beast no matter how much you inhale, ingest or inject.

Well worth watching this video


Each day begins with a solemn vow to beat the addiction, but that solemn vow lasts what? Two hours? Four? Six? Willpower is useless and invariably feelings of personal failure enter your consciousness.


The longer you ride this addiction the more you gamble with your life. Make no mistake about it: addictions kill, literally thousands daily and the number is increasing.


It is a living hell you live in. The life you once knew, the carefree, happy, unlimited possibilities life is now gone, replaced by need and hopelessness.


The personal characteristics for which you were once known are rapidly disappearing. You are a mere shadow of the person you once were, and looking in a mirror is now a painful experience.


Excess has made you dull and insensitive. You are constantly fatigued, worn out and feeling defeated. The once vibrant colors that defined you are now varying shades of gray.

A powerful declaration by an addict


Your fate or destiny is a foregone conclusion under the grips of addiction. The total effect of your actions have determined a life that will only get worse and never better.


Everything you once knew is lacking. Your cognitive skills are diminishing. Your physical prowess is diminishing. Your thirst and hunger for life is diminishing and, if allowed to go much longer, your desire to live will be lacking.


Marked by or showing gloom, and most certainly addiction is a gloomy state of existence. Where has the happiness gone to? Where is the carefree person who once inhabited your body? Gone the way of addiction; the only question is whether that person will ever return.


And what is normal in this new life of addiction? Certainly not what it once was. Now normal consists of quieting the beast, maintaining and functioning rather than enjoying the spontaneity of life.


A feeling of being heavily weighed down and oh how that describes your new life of addiction. Everything is a major chore; everything seems to be a burden.


What does your future look like?
What does your future look like? | Source

Food addiction survivor


You have a million questions but you have run out of answers. Why can’t I drink like everyone else? Why can’t I eat normally? Why can’t I do recreational drugs occasionally? What’s wrong with me? Why am I weak?


A subtle shift is happening as the addiction becomes your friend and lover. All other responsibilities become less important. Eventually you will reach the stage where your only responsibility is to your addiction and then life as you once knew it will end.


Not a sadness like when you don’t get a promotion you wanted, or you see a little child crying; no, this sadness will be bone-deep and penetrate every fiber of your being. It is the sadness of hopelessness and it will soon become all-encompassing.


It has been said that, untreated, the only ends of alcoholism and drug addiction are jail, institutions or death. I suspect other addictions have the same terminals. There are no happy endings if addiction is left untreated or ignored.


Everything you have tried has failed. Willpower has failed. Trying to manipulate the addiction has failed. Trying moderation has failed. Given enough failure, one soon feels useless, and it is a short journey from useless to defeat.

The ugly truth...this is hard to watch

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Form a mental image of complete defeat. Form a mental image of lost loves, lost possessions, and lost self-respect. If you can visualize it you can attain it….through addiction.


You find yourself wrestling the thousand-pound gorilla that is addiction. Life is a constant battle of maintaining and attempting to function in a world that is moving much faster than you are.


Take a look inside of you. Look in your heart. Look in your mind. What do you see? Can you even identify the person you once were? Do you recognize who you have become?


Well I haven’t been arrested yet! I haven’t lost my family yet! I haven’t lost my job yet, and I haven’t lost my health yet! Well keep on with that addiction and all of your “yets” will come true.


Zip…Zero….Zilch…that is what your life will be worth if you do not get help with your addiction. Count on it. Set your clock by it. It is inevitable, as sure as the tides and the setting sun, and the sun will surely set on your life if you do not reach out for help.

Today I am a productive member of society
Today I am a productive member of society | Source

And Now for the Good News

The help that you so desperately need is available. That’s the good news. The bad news is that you have to be willing to go to any lengths to regain your life.

Are you willing, or are you not yet there? Have you suffered enough or are you not yet at capacity? Are you sad enough yet? Disgusted enough yet? Broken and defeated enough yet?

Sadly, the only person who can answer those questions is the addict, and he/she is impaired in their decision-making abilities. Many do choose life and lead wonderful lives in recovery. Many do not choose that path, and their outcome is predictable and tragic.

There is only one question, then, that remains: how bad do you want it?

2013 William D. Holland (aka billybuc)

“Raising awareness one person at a time.”


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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Deb! I wouldn't wish it on anyone, but there is a way to stop the cycle of ugliness....and it requires willingness. Nothing short of complete commitment will do the trick.

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      Deb Hirt 4 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      The life of an addict is a hard one. He or she feels alone and misunderstand. It pleases me to see anyone get much deserved help, as nobody deserves to wallow in their own pit of hell. Life has so much to offer when one's eyes are opened. Good work, Billy, in more ways than one.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Hopefully it does, Glimmer. Thank you so much!

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      Claudia Mitchell 4 years ago

      What a powerful hub and really puts it out there with no sugar coating. Hopefully this helps a lot of people.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Love you too, Linda, and I am so happy to see you back. :) Blessings coming your way my friend.

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      Linda Crist 4 years ago from Central Virginia

      Simply brilliant. This should be required reading for every program that is working to help fight the problem of addiction. Love ya kindred.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      LOL augusfanani, I'm sure at times it seems as though your daughter is addicted. Good luck with that and thank you for the visit.

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      agusfanani 4 years ago from Indonesia

      I'm not sure if it meets the criteria for addiction, but my daughter tends to be inseparable from her gadget, updating her status and chatting with her friends all the time through the social media. I'm still trying to find a wise way in "curing" this kind of addiction.

      Thank you for this interesting, informative hub.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      It truly is, Dianna! Without willingness nothing will happen in this struggle. Thank you and now, go have some chocolate. :)

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      Dianna Mendez 4 years ago

      I have no addictions, but I have a strong attraction to chocolate. Seriously, this is a great summary from A to Z defining addition. It's those last questions you list that have to be tackled in order to make use of this excellent dictionary meaning.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      drbj, it may not be a laughing matter, but you had me laughing. Thanks for that. :)

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      drbj and sherry 4 years ago from south Florida

      Addictions are no laughing matter. I have been trying for mumble, mumble years to cut down on mine. Total abstinence I have found is impossible. The addiction, you might ask? Coffee/mocha chocolate chip ice cream.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Jo and yes, I am having a busy day of writing and a wonderful day. It all comes down to choice, doesn't it Jo? So much of life is about choices, and the nice thing is we can make those choices and change our lives any old time we want. :)

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 4 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      Bill, an excellent hub from someone with first hand experience. You've been there and came out the other side. Yes, addiction can be broken and you are so right, the addicted individual need to want it, only they can make that decision. Great way to spread awareness. I hope you're having a wonderful day.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Randi, painkillers are the sneaky addiction because in most cases they are needed just to manage life, and yet they are so addictive. Thank you for sharing your experience; I think it is so important that people talk openly about these things.

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      Randi Benlulu 4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

      Great hub, Bill! Are we on the same wavelength or not? I became addicted to pain medication before I was 20 years old with other addictions, as well. I have overcome most but the painkillers are an upward battle as the need for pain relief still exists.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mike, I can certainly relate to the internet addiction, and I am plugged in big time to making it monetarily with my writing and efforts. As addictions go my friend, those are pretty tame and I can live with them.

      Thank you always my friend and I hope your Sunday is rewarding and peaceful.


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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you so much, Maria! Hopefully I am reaching many with this message and if I can help one of them then it is worth it.



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      Mike Pugh 4 years ago from New York City

      This is a critically important time to release this beast destroyer of the evils within people caused by addiction. Nice full scale launch and play on definitions here Bill, I can relate to most of the associative properties of this intense hub. Whoa!!!!!!

      LOL, I like to kill addictions one by one as well, and my very last one to catch the sledge hammer of all time end days, is the Internet addiction I currently have. Oh and maybe that of not having money and chasing the darn thing all the time (Aka similar to Gamblers chronic mental illness). Sometimes I feel like a silly rabbit, running on one huge mega galactic treadmill online.

      Awesome helpful hub bro, & so intense my eyes almost popped out! :)

      Thumbs up extremely high on this one, and outta this hub universe!!

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA


      I also think you are addicted to sharing and caring. This is such a blunt, sincere alphabetical outline of reality laced with powerful videos.

      I know you are reaching more people than you may ever are paying it back and then some. Thank you for always inspiring me.

      Have a peaceful night. Love, Maria

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you vkwok; have a great weekend.

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      Victor W. Kwok 4 years ago from Hawaii

      Really interesting hub on a serious real world problem, Bill.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      LOL...thank you Anna; enjoy that football game.

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      Anna Haven 4 years ago from Scotland

      I am on my phone, at football (not playing) and the layout on HP is looking mighty strange today. It has tipped my proof reading skills over the edge!

      I meant 'reaching.' Although your 'organism' faux pas is way worse than mine :D

      Have a good weekend too.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Anna, I am humbled by your words and I thank you so much. I"m laughing because of a word you used by accident....the far RETCHING positive impact. LOL Once when I was teaching a class of middle school students, I wrote the word "orgasm" on the board instead of "organism." You can imagine how well that was received......

      Have a great weekend Anna!

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      Anna Haven 4 years ago from Scotland

      Excellent hub. You are an example of that decision to change been taken by one person. Now look at the far retching positive impact that decision had. To save your life, your sanity and not forgetting you now give so much help and encouragement to others. You done good and the ripples keep on reaching out and making a difference. One mans choices touch on so many other's worlds. Awesome and helpful.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      So am I, Doc! So am I! :) Thank you!

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you for reading it, Alicia. HOpefully it will help someone.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thanks Liz! Life will continue to be good for me as long as I don't take that first drink.


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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Faith, thank you for mentioning pornography; most definitely belongs in this discussion. Yes, sadly, hitting bottom seems to be the only way for man addicts. But there is hope and that is the ultimate message of this hub.

      blessings always


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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Hi Billy, this was a fantastic hub. I'm glad you were able to overcome your addiction and are now living a happier life.

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      Linda Crampton 4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      This is a powerful and important hub, Bill. Thank you for creating it.

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      Elizabeth Parker 4 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      Awesome hub Bill. I am glad that you have pulled through and are inspiration for many who need it. These hubs are definite gems!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Bill,

      Very realistic eye-opener here on the sly disease of addiction! I am so glad you chose life and have wonderful new addictions. There are so many addictions out there that are truly destroying lives and families, especially the ever-growing addiction to pornography, which destroys a person's mind, especially a young person's perception of reality. Then, there are those that have that shopping addiction, it is endless.

      Sadly, more times than not, one must hit rock bottom and have nowhere else to go but up, but if that is what it takes, then that is what it takes before one's life is taken!

      I know that addiction runs in my family, and I also know the power of prayer too for I have seen it heal when the person is set free to be indeed!

      Blessings and love,

      Faith Reaper

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Dora, as addictions go, this one isn't bad. Thanks my friend.

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      Dora Weithers 4 years ago from The Caribbean

      An alphabetic look at addiction. This has to be done by someone addicted to writing! Like you mentioned, this doesn't have the negative effects of other addiction. According to Eric, ours is a healthy addiction. Thank you for sharing your creativity.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      LK, thank you so much. Let's hope it reaches those who need it.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you MG and I'm happy for you.

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      LKMore01 4 years ago

      Epic Hub, Bill. Outstanding. If a reader doesn't learn about addiction from this article there is no hope for them. Excellent.

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      MG Singh 4 years ago from Singapore

      Never been addicted to anything. However nice hub

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mel, I am in complete agreement regarding the self-gratification epidemic in this country and quite frankly I'm not sure how it is going to be reversed. As for coffee, I'm drinking a mocha as I type this. LOL Thanks buddy!

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      Mel Carriere 4 years ago from San Diego California

      C is for coffee. I am a complete slave to it, and will murder without hesitation for a cup of Joe. Seriously though, I believe that the rise in addiction is part and parcel of the "self gratification at all costs" philosophy that pervades our electronic society. That, and most people except for you and I have way too much time on their hands. Great hub!

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Ann! Raising awareness is the key to understanding...for addicts and the families of addicts. Thank you for taking a few moments to read and try to understand. You are a compassionate soul my friend.

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      Ann Carr 4 years ago from SW England

      Like anything else, if you want it badly enough, with help you will be able to survive. I've never been to that terrible place but I have seen others who have. This explains clearly what happens to the minds and the lives of addicts and so helps others understand, something which is also important. I now have a better insight and therefore a more sympathetic attitude. Thank you. Ann

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Hey Joe!

      Same here buddy. Cloudy, drizzly, then bright sunshine and wind....feels fantastic! LOL

      I don't know if Wilson will survive the season if he doesn't get some help soon.

      Lifting a toast of tea eastward in your direction, Joe.



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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Alan, as for that addiction of yours....I guess you could switch to Bubblews as so many have; that will cure you right quick of what ails you. :)

      You are a fountain of knowledge my friend; I really do marvel at all you know of your heritage. Slightly jealous quite frankly, but I'll get over it eventually. :) Thank you!

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      Hawaiian Odysseus 4 years ago from Southeast Washington state

      Great, creative reference Hub for keeping a recovering individual's awareness up. Thanks for sharing this helpful tool, Bill.

      The weather here in the WW Valley is finally post-Indian Summer, returning to the ambiance of more familiar autumns...rain and overcast one hour; sunshine the next; followed by a sweeping breeze that renders the once highly-foliaged trees into dark skeletal shapes...just in time for Halloween! : ) Have a good one, my friend! is what it is, and I'm enjoying and appreciating every moment of it, just as I know you are! Aloha, buddy, and let's hope the O-line offers Russell Wilson more protection on Sunday!


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      Alan R Lancaster 4 years ago from Forest Gate, London E7, U K (ex-pat Yorkshire)

      Here we go propping up the comments column again...

      My turn? Ooh, dear me, what do I say?! How's this for size:

      (Usual praise for a popular hub, blah-blah, rhubarb-rhubarb etc)

      What do I do about MY addiction Doc Bill? I'm a commentaholic, AND a Hub-aholic! There's gotta be a cure somewhere, I'm desperate. Can't sleep without a laptop within reach... Blub-blub!

      Seriously though, even as long ago as when sir Arthur Conan-Doyle wrote his Sherlock Holmes stories, his alter-ego Dr Watson watching Holmes sink into a torpor after injecting himself or on visits to an opium den in the docks area of Limehouse, where there was a Chinese 'colony'. These opium dens sprang up all over Limehouse (now an area for the up-and-coming around Canary Wharf) around the time of the Opium Wars in China... Now the Chinese - and others - supply addicts all over London, even in Mayfair.

      'There ain't no cure for the summertime blues' (we know a song about that, don't we).

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Flourish, that is my hope as well. Thank you!

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      FlourishAnyway 4 years ago from USA

      Thankfully, I have never struggled with addiction myself. I pray for those who suffer -- addicts of narcotics, gambling, alcohol, etc. My hope is that some way, they face the problem, find peace, and discover an addiction to life.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Gypsy, I think you are safe with that addiction. LOL...Thanks for stopping by and giving me a laugh.

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      Gypsy Willow 4 years ago from Lake Tahoe Nevada USA , Wales UK and Taupo New Zealand

      Nice one Billy. Fortunately my addiction is pineapple and coconut ice cream but I know where you're coming from. I hope your alphabet helps many people to face their demons. ( Haagen Dazs)

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Brandi, there are millions of stories like yours. That is why this is so tragic, and why I write about it. :) Thanks for sharing your experience.

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      CraftytotheCore 4 years ago

      I had an uncle die from alcoholic related problems. He refused to get help. He left behind two daughters and four grandchildren. He never saw how much he would be missed.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Joelle....the more we raise awareness, the closer we come to a solution, no matter what the problem is. :) I appreciate you stopping by and commenting; Happy Halloween to you and yours!

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      kidscrafts 4 years ago from Ottawa, Canada

      Great hub and I love the use of the letters of the alphabet to try to define the different facets of addiction. Addicted people have a long journey in front of them and even if they conquer their addiction, the battle continues everyday.

      Each of us have our own way to resist or succumb to stress or peer pressure I suppose.

      Thank you for enlightening us about what addiction can do to people! Very interesting!

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Lisa, I'm just giving back what was freely given to me. I will be here for you. :) Count on it!

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you DJ! No regrets; I had to live that life in order to live the life I now live. I know you understand that.

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      Lisa Chronister 4 years ago from Florida

      Wow Bill, you just described me to a T! Yes, I am willing, and with your help I will succeed! Thank you for posting this, I think that I will be re-reading this quite a bit throughout my long journey!

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      DJ Anderson 4 years ago

      A super article, Bill. I love that you ended by showing that there is

      a choice to be made. This choice can influence the rest of one's life.

      I admire anyone who makes the choice to overcome a way of life,

      that is no life at all.

      Having lived around alcoholics, I understand

      that sobriety is only one drink away.

      Congratulations, Bill.


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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Jackie, there is no doubt it is hard, but giving up nicotine is no walk in the park. They are all drugs and as such require a strong desire to beat them...I will always be an alcoholic, but I am done being an active one. :) Thank you so much.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      That's always the question, Sha: do we want it bad enough. Excuses only work for so long; it always comes down to choice. :) Thank you dear friend.

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Having had a nicotine habit years back and over-coming it I can only imagine what drugs or alcohol would be like. You deserve a metal I am sure for I know I so enjoyed a whiff of smoke passing by like a drunkard might a rum cake? Just saying it was so hard on me I can only imagine what alcoholics must go through to quit and even that must take years from your life in the battle.

      Your new addictions are wonderful. Up and shared as always.

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      Shauna L Bowling 4 years ago from Central Florida

      Very powerful in-your-face article Bill. Often we don't see addiction taking up residence in our psyche and habits. Then we deny. Then we fall. But then we see (hopefully). Then we climb out of the hell we've created for ourselves. That is if we want it bad enough to fight the demon.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Eric, I'm right there with you. I am addicted to writing, and hiking, and snowshoeing, and taking hell of a lot better for me than drinking. :) Thanks my friend.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Marlene! Oh my goodness yes; food addiction is very real; addiction of any kind is about hiding and I was very good at it. :)

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you DDE, and have a wonderful day.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thanks Janine. I wanted to end on a positive can be done and I'm living proof.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Bill, I am such an addict that I gave up fighting it. Some of us just have those personality traits. I hit bottoms in several areas and times. I fully admit addictions own me.

      So after twenty years of fighting it -- I just went ahead and adopted healthy addictions. Fruit, hiking, writing, etc. My poor wife is still married to an addict. But at least no longer a destructive one.

      Great article here. And I hope widely read. We pray for those still suffering.

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      Marlene Bertrand 4 years ago from USA

      My excuse was that there was always tomorrow. I'd live in the moment, deciding I would do better the next day. Every day became "tomorrow". I'm glad to see you had a video about food addiction. Some people think food addiction is about a person eating too much, but like the guy in the video said, it's really about hiding. Your dictionary brings awareness. In fact, this whole article brings hope to those still struggling with whatever type of addiction they have.

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      Devika Primić 4 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      The Addiction Dictionary very interesting and lots to think about here and another one of your informative hubs with a learning experience.

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      Janine Huldie 4 years ago from New York, New York

      You are right Bill (all of these A-Z) define an addict. But love how you ended it of how badly one may want to recover and actually want to take that path to get help. I know from knowing you that you do have first hand knowledge and thank you as always for your honesty and commitment to try to help other. Happy Halloween my friend!


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