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The Fog, the Darkness, the Dream, the Glimmer: A Moment with Bill Reflection

Updated on March 17, 2015

The Fog

The wispy tendrils reach out, nearer, nearer, finally caressing me, gently, lovingly. I am frightened….I am enthralled….I fear, I ache, I long, I shrink from it, beg for it….seemingly can’t live without it.

“The fog is like a cage without a key.”

Elizabeth Wurtzel

It will swallow me whole if I allow it to do so. It will release me if I seek help, or release me if I choose to end it all. A play on words, perhaps, but no plaything this depression. It is real, it is suffocating and it may well end my life.

Can anyone hear my words?

Can anyone see my tears?

You see me on the streets. You hear me speaking, but do you really see me? Hear me? Feel me?

I’m drowning here in a sea of blinders, seven-point-two billions cell mates but I’m all alone.

How can that be so?

How can that be possible?

Will you reach out for me before it’s too late?

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The Darkness

Hello darkness my old friend.

Darkness be my pillow

Wrap me in your obsidian emptiness.

I once feared you, old friend, but now we are lovers, you and I.

I know you would never hurt me.

I know you will kill me.

Which will it be today?

Which will it be tomorrow?

I cannot see with eyes wide-open. I cannot feel with arms outstretched. I cannot comprehend an end, the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel, the guiding beacon of hope, it eludes me, laughs at me and ultimately, was never meant for me.

I’ve come to talk with you again.

Be my pillow.

Let me rest my head and swallow the darkness. Let me breathe it in, lather my skin with it, inject it between my toes and feel its loving arms around me.

I’m coming home, lover.

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The Dream

I had a dream last night.

I could see clearly in an absence of light.

The cold inside of me warmed me and gave me comfort.

I had surrendered, and in that surrender I found peace.

There were no troubles, no irksome doubts, no self-incriminating finger-pointing.

The years compressed into one moment of clarity.

Blaming was useless. What ifs served no purpose.

It was here. It was now.

I was here. I was now.

No more crossroads. Only one path remained, and I could choose it or perish.

Slowly, tentatively I reached out, not allowing hope but still

I realized

The Glimmer

Awareness.

I am not alone.

There are others in this maze with me.

I feel their pain. They feel mine.

Is that enough?

Could it really be that simple?

Was the answer always there, hidden in the shroud, a spectral puzzle awaiting solution?

I am not alone.

Say it with me. I know you’re out there. Hear my words…..I am not alone.

I want to believe.

You want to believe.

Let’s believe together?

Reach out to me
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The Author’s Reflections

Depression affects over twenty million Americans.

It is a disabling mental health condition

Excessive feelings of guilt, sad moods resembling grief, no explanation for the darkness, feelings of sadness, hopelessness…persistent, severe, robbing a person of daily pleasures and causing irritability, and sometimes…

Thoughts of suicide.

I’ve been there.

I suspect many of you who are reading this have been there as well.

I wanted to believe….but believe in what?

I wanted what everyone else had….but how do you reach the unreachable?

Listen, I don’t have a psychology degree. I’m not a psychologist.

I’m a simple writer.

I’m a simple human being.

All I can offer to you is my experience, strength and hope.

I had foreplay with the fog. I made love to the darkness. I had a dream and I reached for the glimmer.

I do not stand before you with a miracle cure.

I only stand before you with hand reached out and a willingness to grasp yours.

Will you let me?

I believe in the healing power of touch.

I believe that united we can stand, and I believe that my strength can give you strength, and my love of life can be infectious when your heart is open and your mind is desperate enough.

I believe that there is value in every living being, that we all matter, and I believe in the fundamental goodness of mankind.

And I believe in you!

The fog will lift.

The darkness will disappear.

A dream of a glimmering life ahead will be yours.

Take my hand.

Talk to me.

We can do it!

2015 William D. Holland (aka billybuc)

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      Susan Zutautas 2 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      We can do it Bill even though when in depression we feel we cannot but if we lean on each other in our times of need we can do it. Wonderful hub!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Susan! All we need, sometimes, is a helping hand.

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      Brian Leekley 2 years ago from Kalamazoo, Michigan, USA

      I don't know if that is poetic prose or a sort of free verse, but it is very effective at expressing the feelings and thoughts of this reflection.

      My own negative side has always been a causeless anxiety, a baseless feeling of dread, rather than depression, melancholy, sadness. I feel relief from that when I bring my awareness and attention to now here. I see in the poll that the divide between those who have and those who have not experienced depression is 50 50. I wonder if the other 50% live with anxiety.

      Thank you for reaching out with your you / I / we are not alone message.

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      ocfireflies 2 years ago from North Carolina

      https://hubpages.com/health/Ladies-and-Gentlemen-C...

      Bill,

      You are the writer I wish I could be.

      Kim♥

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Brian, thank you so much. I suspect the twenty million figure is low....I think many don't report depression or are not part of the poll...and then, like you said, toss in the anxiety and we have a country living on the emotional edge.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Kim, in my wildest dreams, I never write poetry as well as you do, but thank you very much. I am honored.

      Bill

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      MizBejabbers 2 years ago

      Bill, I've never suffered depression (that I know of) but my sister committed suicide at the age of 30. I know how devastating that must be for someone to suffer so much that she takes her own life. I'm glad that you found the help you needed. Your poetic expression of this pain is beautiful. What more can I say?

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      MizB, my heart goes out to you, to your sister, and to anyone suffering from this crippling disease. Thank you for sharing your story so that others might learn and find comfort from them.

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      DJ Anderson 2 years ago

      There is a crippling shame that accompanies the dark clouds.

      There is a strong conviction that others/family/the world would be a better place without my existence.

      The anguish of this battle becomes unbearable.

      The only relief a haunted soul can see is removal from this reality.

      It infests the mind and whispers in quiet tones, "Do it, you will feel no more, if you just do it."

      It is then we seek that which is familiar, whether it be something ingested or the feel of cold sharp steel against one's vein.

      This information is not shared with my closest friends.

      No one knows my darkest secrets, except my doctors.

      I credit them and the drugs I am on, as my saving grace.

      If not for help from them both, I would not be here today.

      I can never come off my medication.

      She has peeled back one layer of the onion skin.

      DJ.

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      Shauna L Bowling 2 years ago from Central Florida

      Bill, I would have answered "sometimes", had it been an option in your poll. Sometimes it just hits me. I withdraw, don't want to talk to anyone, and basically just let it ride.

      Thanx for reaching out, my friend.

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      Kylyssa Shay 2 years ago from Overlooking a meadow near Grand Rapids, Michigan, USA

      Some great beauty comes from pain but I don't know if it is worth it. It lives in all my poetry about homelessness and abuse. I, too, suspect that fewer people report depression than suffer it both because of the stigma associated with mental illness and because many people don't recognize it when they are suffering it.

      It doesn't always feel like sadness or mourning. It can manifest as an utter lack of feelings of pleasure in doing pleasurable things. Depression can be ongoing feelings of self-hatred or self-disgust. It's sometimes a bitter mix of uneasiness and anxiety. It may even be a life-affecting obsessive, nameless dread. I've even experienced it as a deep, painful feeling of being tired of life.

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      William Leverne Smith 2 years ago from Hollister, MO

      Certainly not my cup of tea, but, thanks for sharing!! ;-)

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      breakfastpop 2 years ago

      You are amazing and inspiring.My sister battled depression for many, many years. Sadly, she fell into the hands of doctors who preferred to medicate her out of existence. One day, she took control of her life and emerged from the fog. It was the day I told her that helping her was killing me. Up, useful, beautiful and awesome.

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      torrilynn 2 years ago

      I thank you for this hub. Really good. Voted up.

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      Buildreps 2 years ago from Europe

      Yeah Bill!

      I understand why Bev is so important for you. Everyone who developed to a higher state of conscious awareness has gone through this tunnel of darkness. I've been there too. Only then you able to find your true soulmate, my friend.

      Compare it with a seed that's planted in the dark soil, it has to break first to have the possibility to outgrow the dark soil. The seed itself is your ego that's finally broken, and gives possibility to the much more valuable content to flourish - the Soul. Breaking is terrible necessity of greatness, but your fruits are all the better.

      By the way, I believe the amount of people in the US only that suffer from depressions is more then 40 million, according to the adaa.org. Just checked it. Really being there for only one of them is an invaluable act.

      You're doing great, my hero!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      And DJ, by peeling off one layer, she has helped others to know they are not alone...and I suspect she has helped herself as well.

      Thank you dear friend. My hand is always outstretched.

      Bill

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you for sharing, Sha. I will return to the dark place in a heartbeat and not even know why....but then I climb out and start all over again.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Kylyssa, thank you for sharing part of your story. Is the pain worth it to find the beauty? I don't have an answer for you. I know, for me, the answer is yes.

      bless you always

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Bill, I appreciate you stopping by even though you don't drink tea. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you for sharing that, Pop. It's important to mention how hard depression is on family....there are answers and solutions, but much pain must be experienced before finding them.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you torrilynn...I appreciate you taking the time to comment.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Buildreps, I saw that figure as well, along with others not as high. I suspect it is higher still. This is one of those things people don't want t admit to. Sadly!

      Thank you for the kind words. I am a lucky man, but I am also a man who refuses to give up.

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      Larry Rankin 2 years ago from Oklahoma

      The thing that aggravates me the most about depression or just mental illness in general, is when people pretend they've never had it.

      We're all Ill from time to time. I hate when people pretend they're infallable and treat those undergoing depression like they're defficient, when the ones so out of touch that they can't identify they are depressed from time to time are the biggest threat of all.

      Great writing.

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 2 years ago from Southern Illinois

      The world we live in today is enough to make anyone depressed. If I didn't believe in a better tomorrow, I'd be locked up in a straight jacket. I've been there. The fog so thick I could hardly breathe. Today if I see fog forming I get busy. There are many things we can do to help ourselves and others. This is a beautiful piece of writing....

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      Ann Carr 2 years ago from SW England

      This is uplifting. I get depressed sometimes but I don't suffer from depression. My lovely mother did towards the end so I've seen what it can do and I understand how it could feel.

      This might well be a lifeline to some and in that alone you've done so much good here already. It might just be what one reader needs.

      Brilliant hub, so well-crafted as ever. I like the way you've used Simon and Garfunkel's wonderful lyrics too.

      The glimmer must be such a lifeline; I hope many people read this and grasp at that glimmer.

      You should be proud of this, bill.

      Ann

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      Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

      Billybuc you marched down eye-opening avenue and taken in followers with this reflection.. You have made me realize that there is a turning back point once darkness has comepletely enveloped you... Great share

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thanks for your thoughts, Larry, and for your kind words. Depression is a mystery to many...sometimes even to those who have it. Hopefully raising awareness about it through articles like this one will help.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you, Ann, and I am proud when I do writing like this. I want to help, and hopefully my words can give strength to someone who is suffering and thinks there is no hope.

      I'll be by to see your latest after I finish with my customers. I have to pay the bills, you know. :)

      Bill

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      Nellieanna Hay 2 years ago from TEXAS

      What a marvelous presentation - the poetic words about negative states of mind which many experience. I call myself a realistic optimist and an optimistic realist, which somehow keeps me on the positive side, thankfully. But I've had a moment or two of such discouragement, I could understand how one could be swept up in it beyond ordinary recall. There are mindsets one must nurture in order to let that happen. When one is managing it, it can appear to someone who is overcome that one never has experienced what they do, and they find it difficult to fathom that one can understand where they are. Your presentation reassures that you do understand both being there and rising from it. You'd be a great help, Bill.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Frank, if I raised awareness with this then it is worth writing it. Thank you my friend.

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      Very beautiful prose and poetic combination making it more appealing to our heart and mind. I also witnessed all these moments in my family and am a bit lucky to make them overcome those moments. I think mostly all of us witness or pass through such circumstances at least for some moments. One should be brave enough and be positive and care for his people to overcome such moments. Other members should also help and support such person in facing these circumstances.

      Thanks for sharing your experiences and enlightening us.

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      Deborah Demander 2 years ago from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD

      Thank you for this beautiful piece, and for your offer of friendship.

      When we suffer from depression, even the kindest gestures go unnoticed, unappreciated, as we feel unworthy.

      I will keep you in mind the next time the fog rolls in.

      Namste.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Nellie! I admire your outlook on life and your positive attitude. This world needs more people like you. Keep being you, my friend.

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      Marlene Bertrand 2 years ago from Northern California, USA

      The one thing I openly admit to is my struggle with depression. Your reflections show that you understand it well.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Deborah, I hope you do. You know how to reach me.

      Peace my friend and thank you.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Marlene. Sending you hugs of friendship.

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      Denise W Anderson 2 years ago from Bismarck, North Dakota

      Depression is a deep dark hole from which we think we will never return! Thankfully, there are people like you who have been there and come back, and are able to assure us that life does go on. Thank you!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Denise. There is always hope, and there are always people who will help. I have always believed that.

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      Lori Colbo 2 years ago from Pacific Northwest

      Struggled with it all my life. I have come along way baby, yet still I deal with it every so often. Debilitating, sometimes, but less often than ever. You mentioned fog. For me, there are different kinds of fog. When I was a little girl I remember walking to school in fog so thick I couldn't see more than 4 ft ahead of me. I had so many good feelings while being wrapped in it's womb. I was thrilled, I felt exhilaration, I felt safe, I felt hidden from a world that felt unsafe. It was my friend that morning. I found my way to school just fine. I was on a sidewalk and it was just a matter of watching my feet and the few feet of sidewalk. I took my time to savor it. Fog for me is safe.

      Mental fog is not so pleasant because you can't think well. And it's always in a transient state - fog that is slowly dissipating, but sometimes reenters. Depression to me is more like a tomb. Fortunately, there is always a glimmer, as you spoke of, seeping through the cracks, so I know there is something good awaiting at the end of it.

      Nice work Bill.

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      A very important message here Bill about something so many of us suffer from in the world today. I also enjoyed your poetry inspired from some famous lines. I get depressed at times but it usually passes quickly. I feel anxiety effects me more, and that can be just as debilitating at times. I worry about the outcomes of certain situations instead of just taking life as it comes. This hub is very encouraging. Well done.

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      Eric Dierker 2 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      A wonderful handling of a most deadly disease.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Lori! Fascinating reflections by you. I love that others are opening up and sharing their experiences with this...thank you so much.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      John, thank you...yes, anxiety can be crippling as well, and I've experienced it. My son has a hard time with anxiety...it's easier to do nothing than take a chance...that's his way of handling it. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Eric and you're right, of course...this is a deadly disease.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 2 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Poetically expressive and awesome. A journey that touches the heart. Passing this on and on.

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      Bill De Giulio 2 years ago from Massachusetts

      A very important message Bill. I know a few people who suffer from depression and it really is often overlooked by society. I think unless you suffer through this it might be hard to fully comprehend what these people are going through. I watched the video of the young lady and it was eye-opening.

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      Mary Craig 2 years ago from New York

      Bill you never cease to amaze. No matter what form of writing you tackle, you win.

      Depression is such a sad state. It isn't easy to know how to reach someone who is truly in a state of depression. Being there and holding out your hand may truly be the life saver they need.

      Voted all but funny.

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      Lawrence Hebb 2 years ago from Hamilton, New Zealand

      Just because we ticked the box saying we haven't suffered from depression doesn't mean we don't suffer the consequences WE DO!

      My wife has battled with it and it's not easy for the family when it comes. Awesome hub Bill

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      Ruchira 2 years ago from United States

      Such an encouraging piece about depression, Bill

      I agree many are going through it and are unaware of it. Loved your words...they were crisp and concise :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you so much, Rasma! I would do more writing like this, but it takes its toll after awhile. Thank you for sharing it.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Very true, Bill. Unless you experience it it is nearly impossible to comprehend. Thank you for taking the time to watch the video. It's important.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you so much, Mary. There are times I really don't do the writing...it just becomes an extension of my heart. :)

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      ologsinquito 2 years ago from USA

      Very nice. God bless you Bill.

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      Sandra Joy Eastman 2 years ago from Robbinsdale MN

      Few people accept that depression is a real illness and those under its spell cannot often break free on their own. My niece suffers greatly from it and my daughter has had some issues in the past. I just do my best to love them and let them know that I am here for them. It's a wide road they travel with only a narrow path that leads to redemption.

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      Michael-Milec 2 years ago

      Hello Bill.

      Staggering number twenty million is more heartbreaking as we ‘see’ manifesting powers of darkness within ‘touching ‘ distance of our very existence with its devastating consequences -unnecessarily. Why am I saying so? Because for decades I’ve been walking the territory dominated by ‘the fog’ and ‘the darkness'; I was trying to expose the source of “depression”, to those who were desperately searching for,while their dearest one were plunging themselves into the hideous destruction by accepting any " new subtle threat "consuming power of darkness… While offered simple and easy solution of 'healing' has been rejected , along with me… And it's name is so close to those listed in your article: such is “ let’s believe together”as well as “healing power of touch.”

      Frankly speaking, close to couple of thousand years old practice, since the man from heaven came to show by doing and training those who were willing to continue ‘touching ‘ those who came to take total healing by their simples effort of believing. Why it is so offending when I am using the Name above all names of any depression, possessions or infirmity? - when victorious beneficiary talk about… Some will know, let them talk about, Michael is being already “marked” and I wish seeing him lasting a bit longer here.

      Also my desire is reading some reports responding to your offering ear to listen and stretched hand grabbing along with believing toward countless victories over excessive feelings of guilt, sad moods… hopelessness… etc.

      Why not?

      Voting up up , useful and interesting.

      Good and blessed night my friend .

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      Linda Crampton 2 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      This is an important hub about a very sad topic. Thank you for expressing your thoughts in such an interesting way and for offering to help, Bill.

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      FlourishAnyway 2 years ago from USA

      Depression is often referred to as the common cold of mental health and much more common than many of us realize. I enjoyed your poem and reflections. You understand depression from the inside out.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Very true, lawrence. Something like this greatly affects family and friends, and it is an important point to make and consider. Thank you.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Ruchira! I appreciate your kind words and I'm glad this resonated with you.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you very much ologsinquito. May God bless you as well.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Sandra, thank you for sharing your personal experience. I loved your last sentence....very true.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Michael my friend, why not indeed? I don't know why people find the mention of salvation offending. I think there are countless instances where people have been saved and there is no earthly explanation for it. Open your minds and your hearts, and oftentimes the answer is right in front of you.

      blessings always my friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you very much, Alicia. I appreciate your understanding and compassion.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Flourish, what an interesting description of depression. I had never heard that....yes, it is much more common than many of us realize. Thank you for that.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Hello, Mr Glimmerman :) Actually, I think I saw a movie with that name.

      You've been coming up with some fine 'non-tutorial' pieces lately, Bro. A super-excellent piece and one I almost wrote two days ago as a Flash Fiction piece. In fact the only reason it's not done is because I'm burning up with bodily heat.

      The Divine forces are reminding me of the power of adversity on this physical frame, and so I am taking a 'rest'.

      Lots of life-lessons here, and tutorial, all right, but you know what I mean. Awesome piece!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      manatita, take care of yourself. Burning up is not good and I'm glad you are taking a rest...and you visited me while ill...thank you and thank you for your kind words. Feel better soon, brother.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      "when your heart is open and your mind is desperate enough."-Bill Holland.

      I had forgotten this piece, Bro. Brilliant! So profound!

      Thanks for your concern. You're quick! By His Grace and of course some self-effort, I'll be ok. I'm at home, not working and spacing the writing fairly well. Too much rest is troublesome too.

      By the way, there is a recent piece for you and Bev. I think you missed that one. It's my last piece, I think.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Sorry, Manatita...I'll go check it out now. Thank you!

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      Patricia Scott 2 years ago from sunny Florida

      O Bill I get it....went to that dark place that tried to steal my breath away. Lost and confused and wandering, unable to feel.

      It was a tumultuous journey and when I recovered it was a new me who emerged..and I am thankful. So many are lost in the sea of fear that it brings...

      thank you for bringing new light to this HUGE issue.

      Know, My Friend, that once again this evening, Angels are winging your way ps

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      PS, I suspect that many of us writers have been there. Perhaps that's one reason why we can write as passionately about life. :)

      I'll take all the angels you can send, and a new squadron is heading your way.

      Bill

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      Sally Gulbrandsen 2 years ago from Norfolk

      A beautiful piece of writing Billy and yes, the road of depression is a well traveled, lonely and very familiar road. If only there were a magic potion for the things which cloud ones existence like fog. There is some solace in the outdoors, made much more special by sunlight and the creatures which live in nature. If only all humans were as kind as you are to one another.

      Thank you for your friendship.

      Sally

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      That's very nice of you, Sally! If only indeed, my friend. We are all wounded travelers in this life. A little compassion from each of us would go a long way.

      My best to you this Thursday

      Bill

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      Mona Sabalones Gonzalez 2 years ago from Philippines

      Wow Bill, one of the things I've been really missing in Hub Pages is reading your articles. You can talk about anything with a natural grace that helps to make it easier to swallow hard truths, and in the end, you offer hope.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mona, thank you so much for your kind words. It is always nice having you stop by.

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      Deb Hirt 2 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Depression can be a debilitating thing, and the sad fact is, you will not know that unless the individual tells you. They wear that outer skin VERY well in most cases. Robin Williams was a perfect example. Be a friend, a real friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Deb and you are very correct. There is no way for others to know unless told, and oftentimes the depressed one is embarrassed and won't say a word.

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      Zulma Burgos-Dudgeon 2 years ago from United Kingdom

      Such a lovely flow and rhythm to this piece. You just keep getting better.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you very much, Zulma. Like a bottle of wine? I'm aging better than I have a right to expect? LOL

      I appreciate your kind words. Happy Easter to you and yours, Zulma.

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      Zulma Burgos-Dudgeon 2 years ago from United Kingdom

      Aging well and getting smoother. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Awww, thanks Zulma! I'm going to fight old age with everything I've got.

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      Genna East 2 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Reaching through the fog, the darkness, toward that glimmer…many of us have experienced this to a degree at some point in our lives. A friend of mine just lost her son to suicide. He went to that place we have seen or visited, but never left. Thank you for sharing this inspirational poetry, Bill. I think some individuals believe that it is a sign of weakness to admit, openly, that we have “disappeared” if only briefly, into that shadowland. Nothing could be further from the truth. Kudos, my friend. And Happy Easter!! :-)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Genna and I'm so sorry for your friend. Suicide is a loss for all of us. Somehow a good human being slipped through the cracks unseen and unheard, and I find that profoundly sad.

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      Victor W. Kwok 2 years ago from Hawaii

      This is an incredible poem, Bill. I really liked the flow of it and how the emotions come flowing out of the words.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you vkwok! I am very grateful for your kind words.

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