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Throughout the last season of his life

Updated on December 3, 2008

It took them a while to find me. More than two months. Not only because I was absent for a while, but also because his mind was playing tricks on him because of the tumor that was growing. He couldn’t quite remember my name. Until yesterday.


So I went there today. Mathew asked for me.




Mathew, he looked so much different when he lived in house number eleven. The room he lived in now was almost empty. Only a chair looked very familiar. No music in the room and he was very quiet. No stories to tell as soon as I came in. His eyes looked empty, just like the room with only one bed. Ruth.. She must have passed when I was gone. When I thought of her I saw her smile when she used to play with the rings on my finger. I remembered the smile on their face that evening.(

The nurse came in with something to drink for him. Put it in front of him on the little table next to the bed. She gave me some coffee too and brought me a chair to sit with him. I guess I sat there for more than fifteen minutes before he looked at me.

His empty eyes stared for a while and suddenly a little smile appeared on his face. “I know you” His eyes didn’t look that empty anymore and a tear showed itself in the corner of his eyes. I smiled back at him. ”Yes you know me, we know each other.”

“Yes, I remember” and his smile got bigger. He took my hand and hold it very tight. “Ruth is gone you know. That’s why I’m here in this room. I had to move, because of that thing they found in my head.”

He let go of my hand and tried to get up out of the chair. It was hard for him, but he didn’t want me to help him. He slowly and carefully walked to the cupboard in the corner and got a little box out of the drawer and slowly walked back to his chair. He took the lid of the box and took the shiny ring out. The shiny ring he put on Ruth her finger.

“She wanted you to have it back, so I will give it back to you. Before I leave this life. I promised her. And thank you again for that evening.”

He couldn’t swallow his tears anymore and neither could I. We both just said nothing anymore. Just hold each other’s hands and let the tears run down our cheeks for a moment.

Suddenly he stood up again. Wiped away the tears from his face with his sleeve and went back to the drawer. He put back the little box and took out a big piece of chocolate and put it in my lap.

“I’m going to say goodbye now too you know. It won’t be long for me neither before it’s my turn.” I knew. Otherwise I didn’t have to come here.

In the mean time the nurse came in again. It was time for his medicine and so time for me to leave. I gave Mathew a big hug. “Say hello to Ruth for me when you see her again okay?”

He nodded his head with a smile on his face. ”I will, I will.”

I left the room with a heavy heart,the ring and with a big piece of the wedding cake in my hand. Knowing this was probably the last time I would see him.

“Bye Mathew.”



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    • Shalini Kagal profile image

      Shalini Kagal 

      9 years ago from India

      That's a touching tale - you've got a warm and loving heart Lazur - glad you left some tissues - needed them!

    • Lazur profile imageAUTHOR


      9 years ago from Netherlands

      Thank you both for reading and letting me share my feelings:)

      And Robie... I left some tissues here on this page ;)

    • Lemmy Moore profile image

      Lemmy Moore 

      9 years ago from Dallas , Tx

      hmm. i have mixed emotions about this one ! its all good ! its real moving ! Good job ! wow

    • robie2 profile image

      Roberta Kyle 

      9 years ago from Central New Jersey

      This is so moving, Lazur, I don't know what to say. Thank you for sharing Matthew, Ruth and so much of yourself here on Hubpages. I need a hanky too:-)

    • Lazur profile imageAUTHOR


      9 years ago from Netherlands

      Thank you G-Ma. Just knowing that you would hug is the best hug I could wish for.

    • G-Ma Johnson profile image

      Merle Ann Johnson 

      9 years ago from NW in the land of the Free

      I am sobing...oh dear...oh my...Life throws at us some strange moments...and how wonderfully thought of you must be...I am sure he is happy with his dear wife and they both will be by your side throughout your life my dear. I can feel that...wishing I was there so you could let me HUG you..a big G-Ma HUG...My prayers...G-Ma :o) hugs

    • gwendymom profile image


      9 years ago from Oklahoma

      I still have a tear in my eye.


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