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Updated on November 16, 2011
Today I woke Up Crying
Today I woke Up Crying

Today I woke Up Crying



No it wasn't a bad dream , I didn't hear any bad news,
Still I feel sad, I feel heavy,melancholy somehow ,and I miss someone.

Someone I haven't thought about for a little while now
Not that they have ever been far from my thoughts , memories are gentle and soft.

Today I woke up crying and the sadness wouldn't go away.
So as I made some fresh coffee and
decided to let my heart feel this way.

Mr Red Robbin Saw Me Crying

Its a Friday morning ,

Fridays are good , almost like they give you permission to unwind, or slow down ,like its prize giving day for showing up all the other days in the week.

From busy exec to busy mum ,don't matter , if you were present, you get the Friday award too. Fridays are good, this Friday is good in a sad kinda way

Today I woke up crying,

I think I know why this certain
Friday is good

What happened to my heart ,as I slept before today

And as I stood on the porch, admiring the sun spreading her warm rays on everything in her path , a curious Red Robbin cocked his head to say:

Hi, whats up with you today?


Silently I answered " Today would have been her birthday" and I miss her love so, and heard her voice saying " I didn't want to leave you this way"

Today I woke up crying
For so long her memory has kept me strong and although Ive lost my way at times, she had come to remind me on her day
Keep hoping , keep living , keep smiling

Was just me calling your heart this Friday to remind you

All this time
I never did move that far away

Love from your Mum.

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      Eaglekiwi 5 years ago from -Oceania

      Thank you for taking the time to read , it is appreciated.

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      Hitesh Bubbar 5 years ago from New Delhi, India

      Beautiful compilation. ! What Else, a lot has already been said.. :)

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      Eaglekiwi 5 years ago from -Oceania

      Thanks, I was a teenager when I lost my mum,and for a while I was lost,but if we grieve naturally,death does lose its sting,and the love remains a good foundation for our future.

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      sarcasticool 5 years ago from New Zealand

      I love this poem :)

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      Eaglekiwi 5 years ago from -Oceania

      Thanks CG,its almost like a therapy or that feeling you get as you leave the house, and think," I feel like Ive forgotten something"...and often its to remember those special feelings and how after the storm,comes the sunshine.

      I am energised.

      Thank you my friend xxoo

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      Cassandra Mantis 5 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

      This is a gem. Taking time out of life to "spend it" in the thoughts and "company" and "presence" of a loved one - is always a good thing, and so don't have regrets. The person stays part of us long after they part from this world. It's a measure of how deep our feelings for them ... are.

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      DoorMattnomore 6 years ago

      Hi EK. I searched my old me so I could see some of the funny stuff from "the good old days" and found this. Still an amazing, touching poem. I haven't woken up crying latley, but have put myself to sleep with tears a couple times. I hope you are well, and happy. :)

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      Ashraf Mir 6 years ago from Dhaka

      I woke up crying today

      You wiped tears away.

      Very nice expressions you have made here.

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      Eaglekiwi 6 years ago from -Oceania

      Now I know why I liked you ,funny how kindred spirits just know sumptin eh.

      Bless you for sharing your kind words, see, we are special daughters!

      Kia Kaha Penny

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      pennyofheaven 6 years ago from New Zealand

      Awww this one speaks straight to my heart. I have been there. Beautiful loving poem. Thank you.

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      Brenda Durham 7 years ago

      I was right there, with you, in the mood of that poem.

      Sometime I'd like to share one I wrote, similar, about a loved one of mine who suffers from depression. I'm not ready to share yet, but maybe sometime...

      Anyway, I like your simplistic heart-grabbing style in the poem.

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      ralwus 7 years ago

      Well girl, I am so glad that I was pointed in this direction. How ever did I miss this one? I too have a sad day remembering my loved ones who have passed. Ach well, that is part of living I reckon. Don't want no one to feel sad when I am gone, be happy. And yes, the ralwus seems to gather much any more. LOL Hurting people need some love and tenderness once in awhile. Some like to turn to the old ralwus. Well, I don't mind at all, I been there too. Hugs dear one. CC

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      Eaglekiwi 7 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou PoetL ,maybe I will try my hand at poetry sometime, read yours n others an get some ideas etc. I used to love it at school and sometimes ya just gotta get something out aye.

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      poetlorraine 7 years ago

      hiya this was so nice even the second time around,

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      Eaglekiwi 7 years ago from -Oceania

      Noooooooooo, I watched Tim baby singing last night , and he sang this old fav of mine , and tears were streaming down my face!!! crap didnt relise Id turned email thingy off ,dammit...miss you too!!

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      Justine 7 years ago

      I woke up crying today,

      seems Redneck had to go away.

      Reading forums makes me blue,

      beer is still good...

      and I miss you!!

      Your email notification is turned off,

      Im not sure what to do.

      I wanted to say "hello,"

      and I hope you are well.

      Will I ever get to come back?

      Only time will tell.

      I'll keep reading,

      and voting you up.

      Time now, for more drink in my cup.

      PS, ask the ralwus,

      he has my adress...

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Uriel Im glad you enjoyed reading and yes I found Peace ,they were grateful n happy tears in the end.Thankyou for taking the time to read.

      Brenda , Always lovely to see you ,thankyou for visiting!

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      \Brenda Scully 8 years ago

      nice poem

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      Uriel 8 years ago from Lebanon

      Eaglekiwi very interesting and breath-taking. It really made me think of my own mom.

      Loved the poem and May You find Peace & tranquility

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      You are very welcome.

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      Appletreedeals 8 years ago from Salisbury, Maryland USA

      thanks for sharing your thoughts

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou Sultana657

      Tom, Sorry it made you sad ,but its ok truly, my parents were strong people,sometimes memories of their strength touches my soul-still. I dont know how to write poetry ,but yes I will write of my father sometime too. Appreciate your kind comments ,thankyou.

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      Tom 8 years ago

      that was so beautiful.It made me sad to read it but it also made me want to know you more.I love my Mom and Dad always.Do you write poems about your Dad too?.

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      sultana657 8 years ago from Dhaka

      nice...wonderfull.....awesome...superbs

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou for your comments and good for you being a son that shows honour that way. Mothers deserve that, and you will always be her baby!

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      awsydney 8 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Touching. I tell myself to always give time to my mum although she doesn't live in Australia. I try to call her as often as possible just to chat. Nice poems Eaglekiwi.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      lorlie6- Yes doesnt matter how long ,guess its when milestones happen ,sometimes its like wish we could be face to face sharing these moments, but yes like you expressed so well eternal and deep.

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      Laurel Rogers 8 years ago from Bishop, Ca

      Love for your mama is eternal and so very deep. I lost mine 20 years ago and talk to her daily.

      But I have dreams like that as well, they still throw me.

      Thanks for sharing yours,

      Laurel

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Uriel , thankyou for your kind words and supportive sentiments. I am strong now , and I know she loved me enough to last me my lifetime. Thankyou for your comments.

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      Uriel 8 years ago from Lebanon

      Eaglekiwi you...have..to...be...strong..for...her...for..you.

      and...for..life...Yes...it...hurts...to...lose..someone...who

      means...the...world...to...you.It...is...heartbreaking...and..

      sad...but...you...have...to..be...strong...and...willing...to

      carry...on...with...your/her...life.

      life...is...the...ultimate...battle.dont...lose...hope..and..

      please...know...that...we..are...always...here...for...you...to

      ..be...a..supportive...shoulder

      Uriel~not,,,giving..up

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      arunjain Thankyou for your enthusiastic comment!

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      arunjain1989 8 years ago from mumbai

      A very touching poem!!just loved it!!

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou , everything is good now .

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      Lgali 8 years ago

      Sad but beautiful poem

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      @Charia , thankyou for your comments , yes I do and I must write a happy poem to contrast this one huh ,smiles .

      @takeyou, thankyou for your comments. I am a happy person inside truly.

      @ Dennisematt , lol@ finding buttons, Im like that too ,find some new feature and it makes me feel like I found an extra christmas present ,lol. Good anology too, its life and tears are healthy ,kinda gets rid of the 'yukkies' and emotions change al the time huh...la la la lala...sing it God is great B...is good...P...are crazy lol

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      dennisematt 8 years ago

      Im back!! I discoverd a thingy that lets me see all the comments I made so I can come back and see what new is goign on. Its almost as exciting as smileys!! I too, have lost some dear ones, and remember some days in much the same way. Day to day is better now, but its kinda like arthritis, the wound didn't heal all the way and every once in a while, like when it rains, it aches some. I still really like this poem. And its not all the way a "sad" poem to me. Its hopefull some too.

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      takeyou 8 years ago from Los Angelos

      this make one feel sorry you know

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      Charia Samher 8 years ago

      Sad but beautiful. Just let it out and you'll feel a little lighter. =)

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi AE,

      I felt sad for a lil while ,then grateful she loved me to last a lifetime. Thankyou for your comment and visiting.

      I am feeling happy as a jay bird now.

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      Julianna 8 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

      Oh my that is sad and I hope you are not crying anymore, remember she is smiling down on you. :)

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi Daniel , such kind words ,I appreciate you reading and for your encouragement.

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      Daniel Carter 8 years ago from Western US

      Eloquent and beautiful, EK. Really lovely. Thanks for writing down and sharing your thoughts. Hope to read more.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hey BC I almost missed your comment too ( sometimes, I flit so fast around this machine, I can barely keep up ,lol)

      thankyou for your sentiments-TC

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi dennisematt ,Yea Im feeling great ,was just one of those days ( morning actually).My mum died when I was 13 yrs old ,which was years ago and it was her birthday so I got the 'blahs' and the 'happys' all on the same day ,lol.

      Lovely to see you here and your comments.

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      dennisematt 8 years ago

      Hey EagleKiwi, Its funny how its kinda good to be able to feel sad, but then its better too. I really like this. Good job!! Hope your feeling good today. :)

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou~ Ditto

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      James A Watkins 8 years ago from Chicago

      Bless Your Heart!

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou for visiting and leaving a comment. I missed someone I loved so I expressed it. Tomorrow my mind will no doubt be back in Queenstown ,NZ or somewhere in the Confederancy ,not sure yet ,lol. To your best life-Ekiwi.

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      Sidney Rayne 8 years ago

      Very melancholy as well as touching...I appreciate the sentimental nature that resides within the way you weave your webs. Cheers!

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi Linda, Nice to see you and thank you for commenting.Losing a parent changed my perspective alot when I was young ,Im looking forward to reading your hub as well.

      Regards Ekiwi

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      Linda's Hub Pages 8 years ago

      What a beautiful hub.Thank you for sharing.My Mom just passed away & God placed a poem on my heart,so I hub paged it if you would like to read it.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hey Suzie, great to see you and thanks for reading. I hadnt really cried for a long time ,maybe Im just older or something, or who knows what set me off ,lol. But it was a happy kinda sad ,if you know what I mean.

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      suziecat7 8 years ago from Asheville, NC

      I don't cry much these days - it's like the cloth has been rung dry. But I do still miss my Mom. Really heartfelt Hub. Thanks.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi Dori , An old lady told me once ,that tears were a language between our hearts and Gods, and sometimes its to wash away the crap that He dont want us to carry anymore too.

      I used to wonder seriously how much one person could cry!!

      Take care ~ least we know, we have feelings huh.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi Jen , lovely to hear from you and Im sorry about your mum. Yes I can well imagine your emotions being tender and sensitive right now too. Buy a wee notebook an keep a journal ( Used to call mine chats with Mum), but it helped an was great to look back on. Great to meet you, kia kaha-stay strong kia manawa -stay determined, to your best life Ekiwi

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      fortunerep 8 years ago from North Carolina

      sometimes I wake up crying, never know why. Beautiful poetry

      dori

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      You know I don't write poetry either, but I decided a couple of months back that I would do so when I can finally write about my mom, who passed away in December, 2007. Right now it still hurts too much, but like you, I hope to do so one day when she enters my thoughts like all moms do.

      Thanks for writing this, it is very special.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi SarahMichelle. Thankyou for your comment and Im glad you enjoyed it.

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      SarahMichelle 8 years ago

      I love this. Thanks for sharing.

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Its all good , I answered it , its all good ,hugzzz

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      Candie V 8 years ago from Whereever there's wolves!! And Bikers!! Cummon Flash, We need an adventure!

      I left you (sort of) a comment in the forums.. with your welcome wagon!! LOL!! you can check it out and then delete this comment if you want!! Hahahaha!

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Hi Candie..Thanks for sharing ,and yea such is life n love huh ,tears n memories. Hugzzz.

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      Candie V 8 years ago from Whereever there's wolves!! And Bikers!! Cummon Flash, We need an adventure!

      I have days like this when I miss my grandmother. To honor their love with a few moments of tears and memories, I'd like to think someone will honor our memory in this way, too. Thank you Eaglekiwi!

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      Eaglekiwi 8 years ago from -Oceania

      Thankyou dohn , I cant write poetry ,but I just had this urge to write it down.

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      dohn121 8 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

      A very endearing trio of poetry, Eaglekiwi. Very touching.