death of my loved one

Well, it is hard to watch a loved one die. I am in the process of end of life for my father. He is not drinking or eating. Now is the time I knew would come but hoped I would be ready for it. I guess no one is ever ready for the passing of a parent.

Dad is currently on IV liquids. He just sleeps. I see the weight he has lost due to dehydration. He doesn't know I am there. I sit with him and no recognition at all. I sit and wait for the telephone to ring when I am not there with him. It seems like so many people who should be notified but everyone is ready for Christmas. Family is trying to carry on with life even though life is coming to a close. I can't seem to understand that one you love can be so easily forgotten.

I knew that it would be soon but never expected it during the holidays. It changes plans. It just changes lives. The person suffering gets to have an end to their suffering. The family has tears and I should haves and could haves and why didn't I? I should have done more. I find it hard to keep up with his life as it comes to a close.