ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

The Sentiments We Leave Behind

Updated on January 3, 2016

The holidays are a time for joy and family togetherness, or at least that's what they're supposed to be. This year, especially the end, seemed like it was trying its hardest to get me to throw in the towel. My December was basically one bad thing after another. My finances were a little tapped out, my father broke his hand in a car accident being hit head-on by another driver, the accident totaled the one car we had paid off, not even two days later the alternator went out on the Mini Cooper I share with my boyfriend, and to top everything off I found out that due to a mistake I made with the DMV, my car's registration was not valid and therefore illegal to drive. As much as I wanted it to be my priority, gifts were quickly vanishing as an option for my budget. This thought plagued me the entire month and left me in a somber mood for the quickly approaching holiday. I felt as though I was trying to be joyful given the time of year, but no matter what the thought of not being able to get anyone close to me a gift left me feeling blanketed in sadness no matter how hard I tried to shake it.

Alas, Christmas morning came just like it always does, and I was left battling these thoughts of inadequacy. My boyfriend Brandon and I made our usual holiday rounds, stopping first at his parents in the morning for gifts and coffee, we went to see his father's parents and ate breakfast with them, then we continued on to his mother's parents and enjoyed a nice early dinner with more presents, and we chose to end the festivities with my own lovely parents over dinner. After our feast of tamales, my mother goes digging in her room to find the presents she has scoped out for us over the course of the year. Before I go further into my holiday, I'll tell you a bit about my amazing mom. My mother never pays full price for ANYTHING. She would be content browsing the knick-knacks of any antique store, Goodwill, or second hand shop for hours on end. Her greatest joy is finding items that "speak" to her, and she can't pass up even the silliest items so long as it reminds her of someone. My mothers Christmas shopping starts as early as June. That being said, I knew to expect a small thoughtful gift from my mom. I opened up a few little things like a notepad and a new wallet, and then I came across a gift that looked like it could be a wrapped paper back book. I carefully opened the wrapping paper and was thoroughly confused as I looked at the cover of what appeared to be a manual for a 70's sewing desk with a built in Singer. Still not quite understanding this random gift I merely shrugged, leaned in for a hug, and thanked my mom anyway. She started laughing, obviously because I didn't get it, then grabbed my shoulders and turned me around just as my boyfriend was carrying this desk looking item inside. He set down the desk and they opened up the top which folded to the side, and set up the machine that was neatly tucked inside, let me just tell you I fell in love as if this was some rare piece of art.

Instantly it's like I went into a flashback of being maybe 8 or 9 years old watching my mom pull out this giant, heavy, old looking sewing machine. I naively asked her," Mommy why don't you buy a pretty new machine?" I will never forget her response,"Because baby, a long time ago my mommy taught me how to sew and one used to be hers." Now that I'm older and understand sentimental value, it practically brought me to tears to think that one day I'll be able to share it with my kids and tell them all about my amazing, self-less woman I got to call my mom.All in all, I realized that no matter what your worries, be they money issues or personal struggles, you should always remember that memories with those we love are what will prevail. For myself personally, it also sheds light on the fact I'd spent most of the holiday season in my own little funk because I didn't allow myself to just relax and not worry about the things I could not help. I can't wait to start using this beautiful gem, and I will definitely share more journeys throughout this new year as I reinvent myself. Stay tuned and stay inspired!

Here she is in all her vintage glory :)
Here she is in all her vintage glory :)
This is what my mother gave me to open and had no clue why I was getting it lol.
This is what my mother gave me to open and had no clue why I was getting it lol.

Comments

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    • Jasmeetk profile image

      Jasmeet Kaur 

      2 years ago from India

      interesting..

    working

    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://hubpages.com/privacy-policy#gdpr

    Show Details
    Necessary
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Features
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Marketing
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Statistics
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)