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My Mood on Christmas Eve 2015 (Lyrical Poetry)

Updated on December 15, 2016
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Christmas... Is it over yet

The night before Christmas,

and solemn as an owl, I settled

perched up in bed writing

this poem.


For what, you may ask?

I do not know, but I felt

a need to release these

thoughts, to let my world

show.


I’m not brightly lit as the

Christmas lights are, I’m not

even jolly like a fake Santa

Claus.


I am, however, sad and distant

tonight, looking out my window

staring disheartened at the

moonlight.


Fa la la las are not singing in

my ears, and I’m quite tired of the

stories of the red-nosed reindeer.

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I’m not exactly scrooge, but I’m not

exactly not; I think I feel more like

a misfit in the land of

the lost.


Don’t worry though, I know

my place, and I will smile

through it all for my children's

sake.


My days seem to be this way

no matter what I do. Christmas

has just become another day

that looms.


The truth is most days I’ve lost

my way of trying to fit in. I

am tired of not being me in this

world of pretend.


Right now, I know as you

are reading this rhyme, shock

of my words has stretched

your eyes.

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It’s really alright that you feel

this way. I know I seem selfish

on Jesus’s day.


However, I can tell you one

thing I believe, Jesus knows me

well, and he knows my truth. I

do not speak these words

to be untrue.


Instead, I choose to share

my thoughts of life as I live

it; I am sad. I am lonely, so

be it.


If anyone is worried of

my doom; don’t. I am

sure he approves of my

straight- forward fortitude.


You see; I believe in him with

all my heart, and he knows I

wish him well on his day of birth.


Without all the hoopla surrounding

his day, all I really want is to wish

him a happy birthday!

I love you, Jesus!

Do you think my Christmas poem is too depressing?

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© 2015 Missy Smith

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      Missy Smith 19 months ago from Florida

      Thank you, gerimcclym, it's nice to meet you here on HP, and I look forward to checking out your page when time permits me to be able to do so. Jodah is a favorite here, so I'm not surprised you loved his work. I love his work!! I am so glad you appreciated this piece, and I hope you stop by often. :)

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      Geri McClymont 19 months ago

      Hi Missy. I came across your name in one of Jodah's hubs which I just read (and loved), so I thought I would check out your page. I really appreciated this poem you wrote in which you expressed your sincere feelings on Christmas Eve. So often we feel like we have to present a facade of joy and happiness to the world, even if it's not what we feel, even during Christmas. So thank you for your honest words; they are greatly appreciated.

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      Sunkesner 20 months ago from Philippines

      Maybe that's why your poems are interesting and relaxing to read.

      Yeah, really relaxing to read.

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Most of my poems have a sad and melancholy feel. Thanks for appreciating this poem for just that. :)

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      Sunkesner 20 months ago from Philippines

      I enjoyed reading it even though it's somehow sad. The melancholy of the poem makes it that unique. :)

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Thank you, Dana! And, of course, ditto back to you dear friend. Happy New Year!!

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Your Christmas was filled with beauty then, aviannovice. :) Here's wishing you a Happy New Year!

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      I know Gypsy Rose, and I wish we could emphasize more the real reason for the season. I think everyone would enjoy the holiday more if we all would just do this. However, it's a far fetched wish I suppose in the world we live today.

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      Dana Tate 20 months ago from LOS ANGELES

      Christmas is not always a happy occasion for everyone. Some are painfully reminded of those loved ones who are not here to share it with them. But I like your words- despite how you are feeling, you remember that Jesus is the reason for the season. Happy New Year my dear friend.

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      Deb Hirt 20 months ago from Stillwater, OK

      Celebrating for the right reasons is what it really is all about. I was out in the middle of nature, and to me, that was the finest thing of all.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 20 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      Most creative poetry. Too many times people forget that it is Jesus birthday we are actually celebrating.

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Thanks Hari. And thanks for the recommendation. :)

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      Hari Prasad S 20 months ago from Bangalore

      Missy,

      Very good poetic revelation.

      Truth needs to be wrapped-up for consumption.

      May i recommend you to read.

      http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6917537-buddha

      - Hari

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Yes, I always try to keep my faith in the supreme Chitrangada. If I ever lost that, I would probably be scared out of my mind. Thank You!

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Exactly Frank! I do feel I would like to sleep through it sometimes.

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Thank you Shanmarie. Yes, I agree, it is normal for lots to feel this way at this time of year.

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      Chitrangada Sharan 20 months ago from New Delhi, India

      A very well expressed and honest poem!

      This may not be the case only with you. Each one of us have different ways to deal with life's ups and downs. Some express it while others don't.

      At least you have faith in the 'supreme' and 'faith' can turn things around and that too certainly--That is my faith!

      A very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you!

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      Frank Atanacio 20 months ago from Shelton

      a very raw and so full of emotions Missy... almost made me want to sleep through Christmas

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      Shannon 20 months ago from Texas

      I think that these feelings are normal, especially around the holidays. It's a beautiful poem in its own right.

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      Missy Smith 20 months ago from Florida

      Thank you all for stopping by and reading this poem. It was one of those spur-of-the-moment things. I didn't plan to write anything this season, but the day brought some gladness and some sadness, and with the next day being Christmas, it seemed appropriate, as always, to write my feelings down.

      All your comments were very nice, so I'm going to try to address each of you with a short personal thank you. Christmas day is winding down here, and I'm a little tired. Even so, I was very pleased to see such dedicated friends that took the time to read my thoughts.

      Surabhi, you are consistently so generous with your compliments. You express your feelings on things with such class. It makes me feel so special to read what you write to me.

      You had a great question; How do I feel about this poem? And I can tell you that I feel very confident in myself as I'm writing my feelings through poetry. I have an attitude when doing so that really expresses my true self and I generally just do not care if people have cynical reaction. I usually expect that, although I haven't witnessed too much negative in comments, which I'm always pleasantly thrilled about. I want people to get me. So, the answer would be; I'm always happy with what I write, for the most part. There've been times I wonder if it is coming across in a way people can understand it well, but as far as what I reveal about myself, I feel fine with what I say. Thank you for asking! :)

      Jodah, my mate, I know you are right, and it is a sad thing that a lot of us do feel not as festive as others on this special day. I know that it's life though, and we have to be able to find the importance in the day itself without bringing our own emotions with us. That is another reason I wrote this when I did. I was feeling a little blue, and thought I needed to write in order to go to sleep and wake up with new eyes about the holiday. :)

      Christmas in Australia sounds awesome! I do hope I can take you up on that offer someday. I did have my family around me, and I put a big smile on my face as I stated I would. I was thankful but quiet. They are used to me like that. lol...It was a pleasant day!!

      Venkatachari, I thank you so much! I am happy that you feel this is my gift. At a certain point in one's life, you just know that to hide away your feelings isn't a healthy way to live. So, thank you my friend. I love your wise words of encouragement. :)

      Swalia, you are a lovely being. I admire how you draw inspiration from everything. Your spirituality places a beautiful glow around you. That pretty new profile picture shows us all that. Thank you!

      Manatita, as always, you never have a negative word towards anything I write, and you only find the hope in my words. Yes, Jesus is my hope, and I'm glad you saw that in this piece.

      Whonu, thank you for stopping by to read this poem. Every time I read your comments you leave, I can feel the type of person you are in everyday life; gentle and kind, with only words of encouragement to share. I thank you so much for that. :)

      Billybuc, There is something about you that I just connect with. I can't really explain that. I know our lives have been different, but I believe they've been similar in a way as well. I believe life has given both you and I a dark aura to carry with us, and we had to learn to find the good in that dark instead of succumbing to it. I feel I'm right about that. :)

      Jo, it was a great surprise to see you here today. I haven't seen you around much, and I always admired your loving words of encouragement. They just make people feel better, and one of those people are me. Thank You!

      All in all, I thank each one of you for stopping by and for understanding me without judgement. I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas! Blessings to all in the coming year!! Peace and Love! ~Missy

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      Jo_Goldsmith11 20 months ago

      Dear Missy,

      A Christmas message from me to you.

      On this Christmas morning

      May your heart be filled with Joy

      Not foreboding

      It is as you see with your Spirit's eye

      Jesus loves you

      Your poem is why

      You get why he came

      To this earth

      2 thousand years ago today

      May your heart leap with joy

      He loves you too

      Spend your day in peace

      Jesus wants you too.

      Sending my love, good thoughts and hugs your way..dear lady! :-)

      Really was moved with your thoughtful poetry. ((((((( Missy )))))))

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      Bill Holland 20 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Not shocked at all. I think many people feel as you do. I hope you find yourself in 2016....blessings to you, Missy!

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      whonunuwho 20 months ago from United States

      Merry Christmas my friend Missy and Happy New Year. Here's wishing a new day will bring you renewed hope and everyone a better year ahead. Blessings. whonu

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      manatita44 20 months ago from london

      Merry Chistmas Missy, and lots of Hugs of Love Divine. It is good to see you showing your Love for our Lord on this sacred day. Stay blessed!

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      Shaloo Walia 20 months ago

      Amidst all the merry poems and festive hubs, this one stand apart for your honesty in penning your innermost thoughts. A beautiful poem with a tinge of sadness but when you have faith in the divine, everything ultimately falls into place. Wish you a merry Christmas and a prosperous new year!

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      Venkatachari M 20 months ago from Hyderabad, India

      Well done, Missy. I hope you felt better after penning down and sharing with us all this feeling of loneliness. You should be proud of this gift of yours to express everything so beautifully in words. Most of us do not possess these qualities.

      The song is very nice matching to your moods along with the music.

      Wish you a happy and peaceful Christmas and New Year.

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      John Hansen 20 months ago from Queensland Australia

      Missy, we all celebrate Christmas or the holiday season in different ways, depending on the size of our families, our marital situation, our religious beliefs, and our financial status. For some it is very happy, for others sad and lonely. If you had been in Australia you and your children would have been welcomed to join us in our Christmas. Everyone who visits is welcome. A well written poem and your honesty and openness always shines through. I hope 2016 is a wonderful year for you.

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      Surabhi Kaura 20 months ago

      Hey there Missy!

      There is a sweet scent in sadness too. Who says it’s not beautiful? Solitude… tranquility… inner voice… and exceptional artistic thoughts. Still, I'd say faith begins when reasons fail – faith in the Supreme is above all. And, you are true to yourself – this is the best part as it eventually transforms the scorching heat into water vapours, thereby calming the inner Soul. A sense of tranquility emerges and one feels light-hearted by penning down their thoughts. How do you feel about this poem? :)

      Because, I love this poetry of yours! Nice music as well. Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas! Much Peace and Joy to you on this festive season :)