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A Fight Within

Updated on January 14, 2017

The Preparation

I am not ready, but I cannot

fight. The time has come

to settle into life’s defeat. The

longing it has for me to release.


Youth it seems is behind me now

and even though my body is still

vital the actual fact is I’ve been on

idle.


Sometimes I wake during the

night for my heart screams not to

let go of my true feelings.


My soul reminds me it is still young,

and it weeps tossing and turning

confused and restless.


Bewildered I want to run, out into

the night and collapse to the ground

like a hurt bird without flight.

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It's Time To Grow Wise


Looking up to heaven, he takes

my hand and leads me back to

bed again. It is not punishment

I forsake on you my child. It’s the

burdens I wish to vacate from your

mind.


I walked up this mountain; I’m now

standing at the top. I start inching my

way down dodging the rocks. If I should

trip, if I should fall, I would surely spiral

out of control.


A mapped out face I do not want that

could mean I finally yielded to the fight

of old age, one day looking through a

mirror and staring at a woman who is

unseemly vintage.


Grow old gracefully I’ve always

heard. After all, it should

not be so ugly, it should be beauty,

along with wisdom like drinking a nice

bottle of bubbly.

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© 2015 Missy Smith

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    • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

      Missy Smith 

      3 years ago from Florida

      Yeah, it does make sense. I just realized what the gold award was. I remember reading it on Jo's page. I'm so excited!!! Thank you Dana. And Congratulations!! :):):)

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      Dana Tate 

      3 years ago from LOS ANGELES

      The gold award is mainly an accolade for you in the category the chose which is inspiration. And, they highlight the hubs they feel were the most inspiring. I hope that makes sense, sometimes its hard to say what you know...you know.

    • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

      Missy Smith 

      3 years ago from Florida

      So true Dana. I thought by this age, I would actually be enjoying getting older. You know, be more settled down, more accomplished. However, things didn't quite work out for me that way. I know there is a reason for everything. I want to believe that anyway, so I will. lol.

      Thanks for the congratulations, but I'm not sure I know which one is the gold award; is it the one where I've had over a thousand reads now? I'm so new here; I'm still trying to figure things out. :)

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      Dana Tate 

      3 years ago from LOS ANGELES

      The funny thing is, when you're young, you can never imagine getting old, even though it happens right before your eyes. The term "growing old gracefully" seems like a cruel joke- no one really does. Yet, in the end we must because it is inevitable. Congratulations on your gold award. A deserving win! Voted up and awesome.

    • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

      Missy Smith 

      3 years ago from Florida

      Lately, I do seem to seek out all kinds of different poetry and authors. I have a very talented poet who has published several books of poetry that is a friend on my Facebook page. I love to read her poems.

      I also have become a Sylvia Plath fan. Everything she has written is so intriguing, and her words mesmerize my eyes and emotions.

      I'm a single mother of two, so I confess, I do not have a lot of time to sit down and read books or novels, but I wish I did. :)

    • Jo_Goldsmith11 profile image

      Jo_Goldsmith11 

      3 years ago

      How interesting your approach to relaxation. I know when I read and when I learn things, my writing doesn't seem to feel so confined.

      Maybe it's because without me realizing it, who ever it was I read last, their voice seems to keep me in thought.

      Do you ever spend days just soaking up everything there is to read and the different kinds of writings? I enjoy doing this.

      Enjoyed reading it again. :-))

    • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

      Missy Smith 

      3 years ago from Florida

      Thank you again Jo. I'm actually very new at poetry. I dabbled in it on and off through the years, but never shared any of my work after my once fiance laughed at the one I wrote for him back in 2002. So, when we were done, I signed up at the Institute for Children and Teen Literature and got a diploma there. That was back in 2010. I tried to publish my children's stories in a few magazines for kids, but never with any luck; very nice rejection letters though. lol. I still feel I may dig in my files and publish a few of those on here sometime. Right now, I'm enthralled in writing, reading, and learning poetry. :)

    • Jo_Goldsmith11 profile image

      Jo_Goldsmith11 

      3 years ago

      Really great depth in this poem. You have some serious talent.

      You are gifted in the way all those great poets that raised and fell before you. It was amazing how it really grabbed me at the first sentence!

      I am working on this, as I find it to be a challenge.

      You appear to have Mastered it! Bravo!

      Shared and = Beautiful, interesting, useful and Awesome! :-))

    • whonunuwho profile image

      whonunuwho 

      3 years ago from United States

      Liked your message to live life with grace my friend. whonu

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